by kaly
razrbkr@juno.com
Title: Doubts
Author: kaly (razrbkr@juno.com)
Homepage: the shadowland - kaly's fan fiction - http://www.geocities.com/kalyw
Rating: G
Fandom: Jurassic Park 3
Pairing: Alan/Billy
Archive: list archive, elfin. Otherwise, if you want it please ask.
Classification: drabble
Spoilers: yes
Warnings: none
Timeframe: post-movie
Summary: A trilogy of drabbles during and after the end of the movie.
Feedback: happily and gratefully accepted.
Notes: I was stuck running an errand with my Mom and sheer boredom drove me to write -- the result of what time I ended up with was this.
Thanks: to Cori for being willing to read my JP3 fic as always ;)
Disclaimer: They're mine I tell you! Mine! Oh wait... never mind. Just a temporary delusion of grandeur, don't mind me. ;) So, the moral of the story, bet you thought there wasn't one! Nope, gonna slip one right by ya there: no money, no sue me.
Billy tried not to let the pain show as he watched Alan take a seat on the helicopter. The physical pain was bad enough, but the doubt about his place in Alan's life was worse. Billy knew he was relieved to see him, it was in Alan's eyes, but it hadn't changed what had happened.
What his foolishness had caused.
Billy closed his eyes, ignoring the others. His head hurt and he dozed, only to wake in a panic. Letting out a shaky breath Billy wished Alan were beside him, but could only wonder if he ever would be again.
~<>~<>~
Alan stood beside the hospital bed, unmoving and quiet. Although only days from Isla Sorna, to Alan it was a lifetime. He hadn't missed the hurt in Billy's eyes on the helicopter and knew Billy was still uncertain after Alan's cruel words in the aviary.
Since their rescue Billy had drifted in and out of consciousness -- granting no opportunity to discuss what had happened. Alan could only wait... and worry. Holding Billy's hand, willing him to wake, Alan was constantly reminded of InGen's greatest lesson.
Life is too short for doubt and love too precious to let slip by.
~<>~<>~
"You're awake."
"Yeah."
"How... How do you feel?"
"Like a worm."
"Worm?"
"I'll never look at a bird's nest the same way again."
"Billy..."
"I'm okay, Alan."
...
"Alan?"
"I'm sorry, Billy."
...
"I shouldn't have... You aren't..."
"Alan."
"Yeah?"
"I'm sorry."
"You didn't..."
"I did, we both know it."
"Maybe."
...
"But so did I."
"Maybe."
"How are you, really?"
"Sore, but I'll live."
"Thank God."
"You?"
"Me?"
"How are you?"
"Better, now."
...
"On the helicopter... That's the look... Billy?"
"Can you forgive me?"
"Billy..."
"I didn't think."
"No, Billy. I was wrong."
"I love you."
"I know. I love you, too."
end
