by Hergerbabe
hergerbabe@yahoo.co.uk
Title: Affirmation Series: Affirmation
Author: Hergerbabe
Fandom: JP3
Pairing: Alan/Billy
Rating: NC-17
Category: slash
Archive: please :)
Spoilers: some, eventually
Disclaimer: Not mine, but I love em dearly, I’m not hurting them so don’t sue, pretty please…
Summary: a series of scenes, ranging pre, during and post film
Alan sat and stared out over the dig-site thinking about the day. The
students and volunteers had avoided him all afternoon and he’d even
noticed a couple of glares directed his way. Okay, it was his own fault
that Billy had reacted badly. He’d avoided telling his lover about the
lecture tour, for far too long.
Billy should have heard it from him, not Cheryl. But the sheer force of
Billy’s reaction and his tears… that had rocked Alan, scared him even.
He needed to speak to his lover, but Billy still hadn’t come back and
that scared him too. Usually it was Billy who insisted they talk things
out.
The hand on his shoulder startled him, he’d become so lost in his
thoughts.
“ Alan?” Billy’s voice was husky, raw. It sounded as though he’d been
crying for a long time. He knelt down next to Alan.
“ Billy?” Alan reached out to him, but Billy pulled back and shook his
head. “ Billy, please.”
“ Alan, I…” Billy sighed and looked away. “ I’m sorry, okay. It was
just the last straw. I hardly see you, and then I find out you’re going
away, but you don’t even tell me? What am I supposed to think, Alan?”
His voice dropped to a whisper, “ You’ve never even said… you’ve never
told me…” he couldn’t go on.
“ Oh, Billy, you have no idea do you?” Alan almost wanted to laugh at
his lover’s insecurities, maybe he would have if he hadn’t looked into
Billy’s sad, tear-filled eyes. He knelt up to face Billy and brushed a
hand through his short curls. Billy looked questioningly at Alan, he
didn’t trust himself to speak. “ You have no idea how much I love you,
how much I hope you’ll never realise how much better you could do.”
Billy’s breath hitched, he’d said it, Alan had finally told him he
loved him. Billy could even have laughed, Alan’s fears were the same as
his.
“ I honestly was still hoping there was some way I could take you with
me, love,” Alan whispered, pulling him into his arms. This time Billy
didn’t resist.
“ I’ll miss you,” Billy buried his face in Alan’s neck.
“ I’ll miss you too,” Alan pulled Billy back and kissed him, softly,
sweetly. The kiss turned almost desperate as Billy let out his pent up
fears and felt Alan do the same, and soon they were struggling with
buttons and zips, clothes flying off into the undergrowth.
Billy pushed Alan to the ground and crawled over him, pushing their
groins together, so the soft skin of their cocks rubbed together. Their
mouths met again, in a passionate clash of lips and tongues, as they
moved together, synchronous as always.
Billy reached out a hand and pulled his jeans over, scrabbling
desperately as he continued to meet Alan’s kisses. Then, triumphantly
he pulled out a small tube, and after one last kiss, he sat up.
Shifting forward slightly, he squeezed lube onto his fingers and
reached behind himself to grasp Alan’s shaft. He stroked slowly,
spreading the clear gel thoroughly.
Alan groaned as Billy carefully impaled himself on his cock, sitting
down slowly, until he was full to the hilt. Alan reached up and stroked
his face and Billy smiled down at him.
“ I love you Alan,” he whispered. He lifted his hips and dropped down
again, groaning as Alan’s cock grazed his prostate. “ I couldn’t… do
any better… than you.”
Alan gripped his hips tightly as Billy began to ride him, both men
needed the urgency to affirm their love, to show the other their fears
were groundless. Billy leaned down, as he continued to move, and kissed
Alan fiercely, moaning into his mouth when Alan reached between them to
stroke his weeping erection.
They moved together with hard, fast, yet deliberate thrusts until Billy
sat up again, crying out as his seed hit Alan’s chest. Alan buried
himself deeply inside his lover, groaning as the spasming muscles
pulled him over the edge into his own completion.
Billy collapsed into Alan’s arms, breathing heavily. “ You’d better
phone me every night,” he whispered.
Alan’s arms tightened around him. “ Every day and every night, I
promise.”
end Affirmation
