I guess the best way to get through this is to just tell it. The story in and of itself is frightening to say the least. Frightening because not only was I STUPID enough to fall for this ... but I endangered myself by letting him into my life and my home. Well, here it is for all it is worth.
I was on line under my vanilla screen name ... blissfully ignorant of D/s and all of the surrounding hoopla. I was approached by a "Dom" who asked if I was submissive. Now I had always fantasized about mild submission ... so I was intrigued. I said I don't know. As we further discussed the matter, I went from a vanilla self thinking independent individual to a Slave. As a slave I was required to be ready for him at all times ... the catch to this however, was that he would not reveal his name, his phone number or anything about him. To this day the only reason I know the things I do about him is because I had Caller, ID ... which at that time was relatively new and he did not know it.
This "Dom" would call me in the middle of the night and wake me up and REQUIRE that I be ready for him in various time frames. Our 1st Session, consisted of a full beating, rope bondage that I was unable to even move in and 6' heels. I was required to act a worm, because I was so lowly that I did not deserve any respect.
Now I am not one to just take what I am told for granted. I started looking into D/s sites and purchased Different Loving. When the "Dom" found out he was furious. He burned the book in my fireplace and then hung me by clamps in a closet for over an hour. I was not to be in contact with anyone even remotely in the scene. I was not to speak of him as my Master to anyone. I was not to look for advice or learn about D/s. He would train me. He overtook every part of my life ... and I wasn't to look for anything (whether it be knowledge, friendship or companionship of any kind) from anyone but him.
Looking back I cannot believe I put myself in that position. However, whenever he was around, I seemed to be a brainless idiot. The things he did to me I will not go into. But let us say that they left consensual, safe and sane at the door. I was informed for me to be able to continue being his slave I would have to sign a contract giving myself, all of my material possessions and anything I had owned or like under his control. This is when I woke up..... I ended the relationship.. but it took me over 3 months for him to finally go away.
It took me 3 years to come back to a lifestyle that I choose for me..... however, it was a rocky road... one where I had to overcome the humiliation, the pain, and yes the emotional and physical ABUSE I encountered with this one ONLINE Dom. I learned much about myself.. my wants ... my desires and I learned a lot about D/s, the lifestyle and the true people in it.
If I had one wish.. that wish would be to never see a Sister in Submission go through what I did. But unfortunately that is not the case... I have run into several in just the past few weeks that have not been safe ... have been hurt and have been scared away from a part of them. I urge all that are intrigued and fantasize about submission to take a minute.. make sure that their brain is functioning and not their libido. There are so many people out there that are caring, trusting and true individuals involved in D/s and it's related BSDM
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