what to say........
Mood:  hug me
UMM first off who is the mysterious person leaving comments on my blogs? I never said my problems were worst than anyones just that is whats going on at that point.......I know there are people with worst problems and worst lives......Like my ex-boyfriend. yea I miss him because he was so much fun.. I know what some people are thinking. He's a bum blah blah. I wasn't porpoising marriage or asking him to support me or anything but he was sweet and nice and so much fun. Not to mention how good he was with my son. He did cheat or lie that was a major plus. You know how hard that is to find and around here...well who ain't gay! I think i was the only one feeling that way though. But i miss him damn it. I'm sad. But at least he still wants to be friends. I guess as long as hes happy even if it ain't with me then i'll get over it. As much as it pains me sooo......And i did care soooo much about him. people cant help who they care about, I'm sorry. Yea pathetic i don't need negative comments please. I know its probably not what some want to hear.........

I had fun
Mood:  chillin'
The weekend was fun. Friday me Gavin and Matt drove down to bowling green to spend the weekend with cj and Samara.OK that wasn't the fun part. We got down there and me and SAM went out we had Chinese. I loved the honey chicken and the rice thats about it. The boys mad an absolute mess. We had to change them before we left. I had to change mine twice. Thank god we come prepared. lol Saturday we went out with steph. shopping. Shes such an airhead sometimes.......its okay though. The boys acted up of course since we were in stores. Well mainly Devin but Gavin did too.....Sunday we cooked. Yea and whats with weird county boys liking me? They ain't even cute. Guess thats the story of my life i like someone who dont like me and guys that i dont, like me. or think i am cute. Not the same thing. Other than that i Had fun fun fun.......:D

Mothers day weekend
Mood:  special
Not sure how this weekends gonna go. I havent been able to get my sis-in-law or my mom anything yet.I'm broke. but i will get them something eventually. I got a pretty silver necklace from my mom, I love it. I'm just gonna lay back this weekend with my son. Samara i wish you could be here. I miss you. CJ sucks lol :). j/k love ya

Dead Beat Dad
Mood:  on fire
Why is it that my sons father doesnt give a damn until he has to pay for it? He calls maybe three times in three months and when i take him to court for child support and custody he wants him. To bad for him i got full sole custody and he still has to pay child support. He had the nerve to call me and argue with me that if i didnt give him the visitation he wants then he was going to take gavin away from me! I told him to go ahead. I told him he couldnt have him for the weekend because i dont trust him and its not a good weekend and he freaks out. He's a freakin loser.

Oh Happy Day
Mood:  celebratory
OK today was a very good day. I went to court and the dead beat dad didn't even show. Why should I be surprised. But it still went to a hearing and the judge asked a couple of questions and awarded me FULL CUSTODY. Exactly what I deserve and I am happy. I want to celebrate. But I have no where to go. I was going to go to my mothers house, but I would have to come back tonight because my brother has jury duty tomorrow... Yea i know how did that happen? I have no idea. But if i go i would have to come back tonight but i cant drive in the dark because my glasses are broken......But boo hoo no more I will get up there sometime.

Sick & Tired
Mood:  on fire
Why does it always seem like the shitty stuff is always sent my way? All I really want to do is settle down with my son and be happy for once. Is that really to much to ask? To be left alone by all the dead beats and assholes around. They make me want to bash something. Its like as soon as something starts to go my way some ass has to screw every damn thing up! I'm really not talking about anyone in particular, just assholes. I am really nervous about tomorrow because I dont know what to expect. I swear to god if that son of a bitch screws me up I'll do something I probably shouldnt but i really wont care at the time. If things go my way tomorrow then I am outta here and I could care less if i ever see that particular son of a bitch again! I know shit happenes sometimes, but how i see it shit happens all right it happens to me! And I am sick of it. This crap is going to stop if i can stop it. I'll be sure to let you know........

To Be Continued.........................

sick and tired
Mood:  irritated
I am so sick of people around here. Why cant people take responsibility for things they do wrong? Why do they feel the need to hurt other people because they were hurt? There isn't a need for name calling and having to make people feel small and belittle them as much as possible because you had a bad day. Thats Bullshit if you want my opinion. And tough if you don't cuz you just got it!

The joys of having a child
Mood:  accident prone
OK to understand this you would either have to have a child or be around them. My baby is extremely clumsy. I blame myself for that. But he keeps on busting his lip every time he hits it on a toy or whatever it never fails, he bleeds. Well these last two times have been the worst. About a week ago he was running around a corner when he feel and hit his mouth on the floor. Well he riped the skin between his two front teeth and his lip. I called the doctors office and they said it should be okay if its not to deep. Well today he decided he wanted to climb out of his crib and well yea he slipped and busted his mouth on the dresser. This time i just took him in because i didn't know if it was reopened or if it was worse. The doctor said he did himself a favor that the particular piece of skin grew lower than normal and it would have to have been clipped eventually anyway and there is no danger or anything they could actually do about it. Now it might have riped to the point that it doesn't have to eventually be clipped or it may be clipped a little more i dint know yet i have to wait til i go to his doctor to find out. So needless to say he just graduated to a toddler bed real quick!!

No more drama
Mood:  happy
So today everyone got through their problems with each other. YAY! Hopefully it will last. Maybe we learned something from one another. At least I know that stuff needs to be talked about and takin care of before it gets out of controll no matter how stubborn or in the right/wrong you think you are. I admit i have a problem with being stubborn and it is hard for me to apologize for anything unless i really think i should. So I hope this peace lasts long!! We are all grown people lets see if we can act like it..... lol

Gavin
Mood:  a-ok
My son is twenty months old but he is big for his age. He talks pretty well for his age i guess. We resently found out that he has the begining signs of asthsma and he has to take breathing treatments every four hours, which he just ran out of until his next apointment. I have also been in and out of court because his father sucks. Child support has just been set and i had to go back because The father who i am going to refer to as the dick...said that he wasnt working very much so the child support went from $262.00 to $140.00 for three months which then it is supposed to go back up.Which i havent seen one payment. They were supposed to be active this month and i havent reseved anything. However, Tuesday i am going back to court to establish legal custody. So all my efforts may be in vain i find out then........