MOM = BITCH
Mood:  irritated
My mom is being a bitch right now.......She wants to act younger cuz shes going though her "mid-life crisis" or at least thats my excuse for it. Honestly I can not stand to be around her....and S@M@R@ knows what I am talking about. Like today I called her to see if she has any fabric I can have to make a toga for Caterina's Toga Party....she says she took the fabric we had cuz it was "hers". She divorces dad and comes to give him a hair cut some odd years later and see it Takes it without saying anything then tells me I can use any cuz togas arent colored............FUCK THAT my toga will be colored with butterflies or flowers on it if thats what I want. Its not like shes doing anything with that damn fabric anyway.. It has set in the basement or storage whatever for over ten years.........What the Fuck? Chances are if she still has it in a box somewhere IT AINT GONNA BE USED! not to mention not all that shit was hers.....In fact dad bought it for her to make shit with but she never did..............her lazy ass just wanted it cuz they are pretty.........but in the end dad paid for it why cant we use it? What an idiot.....that tops it for her...................

Katies baby
Mood:  a-ok
Well today I found out my friend Katie is going to be induced Friday morning because her baby is being stubborn and dont wanna come out. LOL Shes going in at 6:00am so I am gonna visit her sometime that day. Hopefully she has it early cuz i wanna go to bowling green this weekend. I would have to leave friday. But she should be in the hospital all weekend, so if I dont see it Friday hopefully i will see it when i get back....thats if I get to go......

Wal-mart........idiots.
Mood:  a-ok
Well we went shopping at wal-mart. Dad had to get his perscription refilled and we got some grocerys. I went a head and dropped off our five things of film to get developed. It was supposed to be one hour development....but it took at least two and a half hour of standing there waiting....so when they finally came out we got all five free cuz they took so long. HEHE good shit! cuz i got doubles and got it on a cd! Then I went to take mikes hoodie back to him and I got me a new book.

The DEVIL movie!
Mood:  sad
The notebook is an EVIL movie.....I watched it just now. I have NEVER cried so damn hard in my life. And I couldnt stop it......Half way throught it I was like "why the fuck am I cring its just a damn movie, and why cant I stop?" It was horrible. I am glad I was watching it by myself. I made a damn fool out of myself. It was so unbelieveably sad. Plus old people make me sad any way just because it reminds me I will be old one day and after that I die.........Anyway. I will probably never watch that movie again, well unless i need a good hard CRY! But over all it was a damn good movie.

mikes so sweet HEHE BOOOOOO!
Mood:  happy
Yea i know boooo that comment right? well mike is sooo sweet. Even though he woke up today with an upset stomach from last night he spent time with me and when I took him home he bought me gavin and himself something to eat and that was sweet...LOL Also put gas in my car and gave me money for if i need anything. Its the thought that counts right?Hes a sweetheart.I dont care what anyone thinks!

Mike took me to eat
Mood:  happy
Well I went to see mike today and I thought we were just gonna go shopping for himself. It turns out his mom watched Gavin and we went to Stake-n-shake to eat. It was good. I had a good time too. It seemed like he was enjoying himself even though it was pretty crowded that night. LOL all in all things a good. Very fun.

Child Support AGAIN
Mood:  d'oh
Well I called the Child Support place today to find out if Richard was telling the truth about paying child support or not. At first they said he didnt because it wasnt on file. But they looked in there notes and it turns out that WOW he payed.........some! Only $50.00 of it. They wont give me it until he pays the full amount so what good does it do me? The full amount is $200.00 so he still has a little ways to go. So I called him and left a voice message of how i dont understand why he thought they were gonna give me just $50.00 of $200.00. Go figure havent heard from him since.

Gavin's Birthday!
Mood:  celebratory
Today offically Gavin is now TWO!!!! YAY, not sure if it is a good thing or not but I am sure it is. And WOW Richard actually called.....And he told me he paid the child support and I should get it in a couple of days. I wanted to get it by this time. I was hoping to take Gavin to the zoo but its okay better late than never.

DRAMA
Mood:  d'oh
Well, today was Gavin's Birthday party. Almost everyone showed up....plus some. I invited my friend tiffany and her daughter....I didnt invite her sister and her two girls. Go figure she showed with her boyfriend. Some stupid drama started about the boyfriend hitting one of her girls with the basketball.......My friend Caterina wanted to know if it was true or how she hurt herself so she went to ask and the boyfriend started acting a fool! He ran off to tell his girl what happened yelling that they better not have the cops there when he got back.....Well at this point i had to go to get a candle. By the time I got back the boyfriend had returned with his sister and brother apparently.. Cat and her mom tried to explain what happened to the sister while the boys were acting like immature idiots. Then cats dad got involved cuz he didnt like the way the guys were acting towards his wife.I showed up as they were leaving. Apparently they had threatened to come back with more people and weapons.......Which by this point it was rediculious. Steph called the athorities to let them know what happened and we happened to see the "drama people" broke down on the next street pushing the car. LOL The cop let us know that they had run out of gas..........How funny. But This is my childs second birthday party.......You dont act like that. I told them if thats how they wanna act they need to leave. What idiots. But what really sucks is that this incident caused my sister in law my brother and my nephew all to return to bowling green a bit earlier than planed. THAT SUCKS. But i understand. other than that gavin had a great time and it was an overall success. All I have to say is that I am offically worn out!

Am I important?
Mood:  not sure
I have spent the entire day cleaning. It feels good to be in a clean house. And I rearranged my room. It actually seems like I have more room. But somethings been buggin me for the last couple of days. i feel like crap. Am i important? I try my best to do nice things for the people I care for. I try to include people I care about in my life. But it just doesnt seem to matter. I dont know. I like to do nice things for people I care for but I dont like it when its not noticed. Then I am called a Bitch or whatever else with out the thought of all the nice things I try to do. I dont know I guess I dont know what I am talking about. I just feel like crap. I want to be noticed! LOL I guess thats all it is, I want to feel special. And LOVED~! That over anything. I want to be LOVED!