Vey bored
Mood:  chillin'
My throught still hurts some, but it seems to be clearing up. I got papers in the mail today on the next court date for child support. The courts are also taking action against gavins father because he hasnt be paying child support. Also my dad has asked me not to move out because matt is supposed to move to bowling green. If that actually happens I just might stay here since matt is most of the problem for me. Not to mention gavin will have his own room and a yard to play in. So dad wants me to stay but i explained to him that even if i do stay i wont live here forever. I have to grow up. Geez He claims he has no one to take care of him. He said " cant you wait til I die?" How do you respond to that? I dont really know what to do........HELP.

Sick
Mood:  sad
I feel Horrible today. My throught is raw. I can't really eat anything. All I really have been doing is eating popcicles. I have been drinking on some NyQuil and let me tell ya, you really can get drunk of that crap. LOL. I got pretty tippsy and decided to slow it down. But it did provide a little relief for a moment. Me being sick prevented me from going to bowling green today too. Which sucks even more because I was actually looking forward to going down there today. Samara I am so sorry. I feel so bad that I couldn't come. I thought you and steph were going to hang out too? I hope I didnt bum you out. How was the rest of the bulgoge'? I wish i could eat some right about now. I tell you what you never miss what you can do until you cant anymore. I cant eat anything really without it hurting.....but enough bitching i guess.

siblings suck
Mood:  blue
I hate having siblings. Manly younger ones. My little brother is getting on my last nerve. I wanna punch him so damn bad it hurts, but I dont, not sure why. I am so angry. I can't wait to move out. The thing is matt dont think i am really going to move. I do so much for that little shit and hes tring to say i dont do shit. Which if you know me then you would know how much of a crock of shit that is. I am not doing anything for that ungreatful lil shit anymore. God i am so sick of shit around here. Only children should be glad they dont have any fuckers to deal with!!!!

This sucks
Mood:  down
This sucks.. I dont feel to good my throught is killing me and i think i took to much nyquil cuz i feel a little toppsy. If this blog makes no sense that's why. I hope i can make it to bowling green this weekend. And I want to sweep all that bullshit we have all been going through under the rug. I agree with samara. We all get pissed and do plus say shit on the spur of the moment. But i stilll say I can be civil but i cant be friends with someone i dont trust entirely. I cant help that. I wont pretend but i can be civil. Imagin that LOL.

I love samara
Mood:  silly
Your the greatest SAMARA. You know its funny that me you and cat can all be crazy since we all have the same point of view, or is it we are sane and someone else is crazy? Well if anything we can keep each other company, at least we will be in good company. We are all bitches too so it will always be interesting right? HEHE Your blogs are the best keep them coming because its soooo funny.

Hey heres an idea
Mood:  bright
Why dont you keep me out of it. The only person I was arguing was samara and thats over..Thats all i was worried about the other person is X'ed out of my life and thats how i want it. I dont like fake people and dont need them or the shit they bring into my life. Screw all that shit. Thats all i gots to say about it. Dont want nothin to do with them. Sooooooo there ya have it. I better not have to deal with it any more.

Where is Samara?
Mood:  quizzical
Where are you? I havent heard from you in a while. I am worried. You didnt come down with CJ why not? I am assuming you havent been on here since you haven't answered any of my e-mails. Are you mad or what? If so i dont know why so please clue me in on whats going on.......Talk to you soon i hope.

Damn It Gavin
Mood:  d'oh
Yea so I had to take Gavin to the doctors today. He's congested and has coughing fits. I have other crap to give him now which sucks. I don't understand why shit has to be so difficult. Plus he has mysterious scratches on his forehead. I donno where they came from.....I don't get it this kid can get the most scratches and marks on him and i wont know where half of them come from.

Angelina Jolie
Mood:  mischievious
I love Angelina Jolie. It maybe cliche' but shes gorgeous. Bout the only person i would go gay for. And since samara says i look somewhat like her then i guess i love myself. Which is kind of disturbing and weird.......Whart do you think?

what to say........
Mood:  hug me
UMM first off who is the mysterious person leaving comments on my blogs? I never said my problems were worst than anyones just that is whats going on at that point.......I know there are people with worst problems and worst lives......Like my ex-boyfriend. yea I miss him because he was so much fun.. I know what some people are thinking. He's a bum blah blah. I wasn't porpoising marriage or asking him to support me or anything but he was sweet and nice and so much fun. Not to mention how good he was with my son. He did cheat or lie that was a major plus. You know how hard that is to find and around here...well who ain't gay! I think i was the only one feeling that way though. But i miss him damn it. I'm sad. But at least he still wants to be friends. I guess as long as hes happy even if it ain't with me then i'll get over it. As much as it pains me sooo......And i did care soooo much about him. people cant help who they care about, I'm sorry. Yea pathetic i don't need negative comments please. I know its probably not what some want to hear.........