Where is Samara?
Mood:  quizzical
Where are you? I havent heard from you in a while. I am worried. You didnt come down with CJ why not? I am assuming you havent been on here since you haven't answered any of my e-mails. Are you mad or what? If so i dont know why so please clue me in on whats going on.......Talk to you soon i hope.

Damn It Gavin
Mood:  d'oh
Yea so I had to take Gavin to the doctors today. He's congested and has coughing fits. I have other crap to give him now which sucks. I don't understand why shit has to be so difficult. Plus he has mysterious scratches on his forehead. I donno where they came from.....I don't get it this kid can get the most scratches and marks on him and i wont know where half of them come from.

Angelina Jolie
Mood:  mischievious
I love Angelina Jolie. It maybe cliche' but shes gorgeous. Bout the only person i would go gay for. And since samara says i look somewhat like her then i guess i love myself. Which is kind of disturbing and weird.......Whart do you think?

what to say........
Mood:  hug me
UMM first off who is the mysterious person leaving comments on my blogs? I never said my problems were worst than anyones just that is whats going on at that point.......I know there are people with worst problems and worst lives......Like my ex-boyfriend. yea I miss him because he was so much fun.. I know what some people are thinking. He's a bum blah blah. I wasn't porpoising marriage or asking him to support me or anything but he was sweet and nice and so much fun. Not to mention how good he was with my son. He did cheat or lie that was a major plus. You know how hard that is to find and around here...well who ain't gay! I think i was the only one feeling that way though. But i miss him damn it. I'm sad. But at least he still wants to be friends. I guess as long as hes happy even if it ain't with me then i'll get over it. As much as it pains me sooo......And i did care soooo much about him. people cant help who they care about, I'm sorry. Yea pathetic i don't need negative comments please. I know its probably not what some want to hear.........

I had fun
Mood:  chillin'
The weekend was fun. Friday me Gavin and Matt drove down to bowling green to spend the weekend with cj and Samara.OK that wasn't the fun part. We got down there and me and SAM went out we had Chinese. I loved the honey chicken and the rice thats about it. The boys mad an absolute mess. We had to change them before we left. I had to change mine twice. Thank god we come prepared. lol Saturday we went out with steph. shopping. Shes such an airhead sometimes.......its okay though. The boys acted up of course since we were in stores. Well mainly Devin but Gavin did too.....Sunday we cooked. Yea and whats with weird county boys liking me? They ain't even cute. Guess thats the story of my life i like someone who dont like me and guys that i dont, like me. or think i am cute. Not the same thing. Other than that i Had fun fun fun.......:D

Mothers day weekend
Mood:  special
Not sure how this weekends gonna go. I havent been able to get my sis-in-law or my mom anything yet.I'm broke. but i will get them something eventually. I got a pretty silver necklace from my mom, I love it. I'm just gonna lay back this weekend with my son. Samara i wish you could be here. I miss you. CJ sucks lol :). j/k love ya

Dead Beat Dad
Mood:  on fire
Why is it that my sons father doesnt give a damn until he has to pay for it? He calls maybe three times in three months and when i take him to court for child support and custody he wants him. To bad for him i got full sole custody and he still has to pay child support. He had the nerve to call me and argue with me that if i didnt give him the visitation he wants then he was going to take gavin away from me! I told him to go ahead. I told him he couldnt have him for the weekend because i dont trust him and its not a good weekend and he freaks out. He's a freakin loser.

Oh Happy Day
Mood:  celebratory
OK today was a very good day. I went to court and the dead beat dad didn't even show. Why should I be surprised. But it still went to a hearing and the judge asked a couple of questions and awarded me FULL CUSTODY. Exactly what I deserve and I am happy. I want to celebrate. But I have no where to go. I was going to go to my mothers house, but I would have to come back tonight because my brother has jury duty tomorrow... Yea i know how did that happen? I have no idea. But if i go i would have to come back tonight but i cant drive in the dark because my glasses are broken......But boo hoo no more I will get up there sometime.

Sick & Tired
Mood:  on fire
Why does it always seem like the shitty stuff is always sent my way? All I really want to do is settle down with my son and be happy for once. Is that really to much to ask? To be left alone by all the dead beats and assholes around. They make me want to bash something. Its like as soon as something starts to go my way some ass has to screw every damn thing up! I'm really not talking about anyone in particular, just assholes. I am really nervous about tomorrow because I dont know what to expect. I swear to god if that son of a bitch screws me up I'll do something I probably shouldnt but i really wont care at the time. If things go my way tomorrow then I am outta here and I could care less if i ever see that particular son of a bitch again! I know shit happenes sometimes, but how i see it shit happens all right it happens to me! And I am sick of it. This crap is going to stop if i can stop it. I'll be sure to let you know........

To Be Continued.........................

sick and tired
Mood:  irritated
I am so sick of people around here. Why cant people take responsibility for things they do wrong? Why do they feel the need to hurt other people because they were hurt? There isn't a need for name calling and having to make people feel small and belittle them as much as possible because you had a bad day. Thats Bullshit if you want my opinion. And tough if you don't cuz you just got it!