Mothers day weekend
Mood:  special
Not sure how this weekends gonna go. I havent been able to get my sis-in-law or my mom anything yet.I'm broke. but i will get them something eventually. I got a pretty silver necklace from my mom, I love it. I'm just gonna lay back this weekend with my son. Samara i wish you could be here. I miss you. CJ sucks lol :). j/k love ya

Dead Beat Dad
Mood:  on fire
Why is it that my sons father doesnt give a damn until he has to pay for it? He calls maybe three times in three months and when i take him to court for child support and custody he wants him. To bad for him i got full sole custody and he still has to pay child support. He had the nerve to call me and argue with me that if i didnt give him the visitation he wants then he was going to take gavin away from me! I told him to go ahead. I told him he couldnt have him for the weekend because i dont trust him and its not a good weekend and he freaks out. He's a freakin loser.

Oh Happy Day
Mood:  celebratory
OK today was a very good day. I went to court and the dead beat dad didn't even show. Why should I be surprised. But it still went to a hearing and the judge asked a couple of questions and awarded me FULL CUSTODY. Exactly what I deserve and I am happy. I want to celebrate. But I have no where to go. I was going to go to my mothers house, but I would have to come back tonight because my brother has jury duty tomorrow... Yea i know how did that happen? I have no idea. But if i go i would have to come back tonight but i cant drive in the dark because my glasses are broken......But boo hoo no more I will get up there sometime.

Sick & Tired
Mood:  on fire
Why does it always seem like the shitty stuff is always sent my way? All I really want to do is settle down with my son and be happy for once. Is that really to much to ask? To be left alone by all the dead beats and assholes around. They make me want to bash something. Its like as soon as something starts to go my way some ass has to screw every damn thing up! I'm really not talking about anyone in particular, just assholes. I am really nervous about tomorrow because I dont know what to expect. I swear to god if that son of a bitch screws me up I'll do something I probably shouldnt but i really wont care at the time. If things go my way tomorrow then I am outta here and I could care less if i ever see that particular son of a bitch again! I know shit happenes sometimes, but how i see it shit happens all right it happens to me! And I am sick of it. This crap is going to stop if i can stop it. I'll be sure to let you know........

To Be Continued.........................

sick and tired
Mood:  irritated
I am so sick of people around here. Why cant people take responsibility for things they do wrong? Why do they feel the need to hurt other people because they were hurt? There isn't a need for name calling and having to make people feel small and belittle them as much as possible because you had a bad day. Thats Bullshit if you want my opinion. And tough if you don't cuz you just got it!

The joys of having a child
Mood:  accident prone
OK to understand this you would either have to have a child or be around them. My baby is extremely clumsy. I blame myself for that. But he keeps on busting his lip every time he hits it on a toy or whatever it never fails, he bleeds. Well these last two times have been the worst. About a week ago he was running around a corner when he feel and hit his mouth on the floor. Well he riped the skin between his two front teeth and his lip. I called the doctors office and they said it should be okay if its not to deep. Well today he decided he wanted to climb out of his crib and well yea he slipped and busted his mouth on the dresser. This time i just took him in because i didn't know if it was reopened or if it was worse. The doctor said he did himself a favor that the particular piece of skin grew lower than normal and it would have to have been clipped eventually anyway and there is no danger or anything they could actually do about it. Now it might have riped to the point that it doesn't have to eventually be clipped or it may be clipped a little more i dint know yet i have to wait til i go to his doctor to find out. So needless to say he just graduated to a toddler bed real quick!!

No more drama
Mood:  happy
So today everyone got through their problems with each other. YAY! Hopefully it will last. Maybe we learned something from one another. At least I know that stuff needs to be talked about and takin care of before it gets out of controll no matter how stubborn or in the right/wrong you think you are. I admit i have a problem with being stubborn and it is hard for me to apologize for anything unless i really think i should. So I hope this peace lasts long!! We are all grown people lets see if we can act like it..... lol

Gavin
Mood:  a-ok
My son is twenty months old but he is big for his age. He talks pretty well for his age i guess. We resently found out that he has the begining signs of asthsma and he has to take breathing treatments every four hours, which he just ran out of until his next apointment. I have also been in and out of court because his father sucks. Child support has just been set and i had to go back because The father who i am going to refer to as the dick...said that he wasnt working very much so the child support went from $262.00 to $140.00 for three months which then it is supposed to go back up.Which i havent seen one payment. They were supposed to be active this month and i havent reseved anything. However, Tuesday i am going back to court to establish legal custody. So all my efforts may be in vain i find out then........

who r my friends
Mood:  down
I would love to know the answer to that question....
I would like to know who is my friend and who hangs out with me just because we have a mutual friend. Considering people have my number but dont call. and i dont like to be put in the middle of my friends problems when it has nothing to do with me. Caterina and Samara's beef should stay between them right since they have beef all on their own. Yea cat is my best friend but i am not gonna talk shit about my sister-n-law just because shes venting and i dont want to be a middle person sending messages on to one of them or the other because they hang up on one another and/leave voice messeges. However i do think that somethings were blown out of porportion. I would like to clear up that Caterina did say some choice words about Samara and i am a ferm believer in if you cant say something to a persons face you shouldnt say it behind their back. But they need to take that up with each other and i like it to be known that none of it was stuff that wasnt based on what she was being told by charity jojanna and myself, well mostely but like i said thats between them. I love them both but leave me out of it please.

So much on my mind
Mood:  not sure
I dont even know where to begin. I just hope things work out for every one. I dont even know who my real friends are. I dont know if i am really friends with some people or if they just hang out with me because we have a mutual friend. I need more real friends.And i am in such a stressed out mood right now that i dont know what to do. So much is going on in my life. I have been in and out of court my poor son has the begining symptoms of asthsma and he has to take breathing treatments every four hours. My best friends has problems on her own so i dont think i can expect her to help me out. I love my sis-in-law to death but shes mad at me. I am also tring to move out, the paper work is going through right now. My childs father is a dead beat. I am also going to court for custody and i am scared to death that for some reason my son is going to be takin from me. May be i am overreacting but if you had a child you would understand.!