Damn It to Hell
Mood:  blue
Yea I had plans on moving out and the apt. is right in my reach, but I don't know if I will be able to or not. I can afford the thirty dollars that is for the apt. but not the one hundred and fifteen dollars to get the electricity turned on. But thats all I would have to pay. It would be nothing a month unless I get a phone or cable which I would have to pay myself until my situation changes. If I get a job it will be based on my income. I could pay twenty to whatever else a month. So thats good. But I am half tempted to get the apt and turn the electricity on later because i wanna move out so much. I want to get the food I wanna eat and that Gavin likes without thinking someone else is gonna eat it before I can even taste it. Or having to hide Gavin's snacks because I don't want Matt to get stupid and eat all of it. And Gavin cant even cry without Matt yelling at him and that ain't cool. He's a kid. Maybe if he was on a normal sleeping schedule then it wouldn't be a problem. Hell I cant even sit in the living room and be able to watch what I wanna watch. If I am and Matt gets up or comes home then he changes the channel as soon as I leave the room. Never mind if I am just going to take a piss or getting something to drink right? Geez. Not to mention when I move out that I wont have a phone at first because I cant afford it right now. I will be getting a job thought and hopefully I can at least get a cell phone. That way I can take it with me places in case something happens. I don't know we will see. tomorrow is a busy day for me.