Monday, 27 June 2005 - 12:56 PM EDT

Well I don’t care if Matt’s mad at me or anyone else is. Cause what it all boils down to is that me and CJ was having problems because of his and NO ONE respected us enough to have our time together and try to fix things. So what was he going to do set back and watch our family split apart and break up over him getting to stay down here. As far as I see it I was as nice as could be and if Matt had a problem with the rent …He should have talked to my parents and argued with them about it instead of me. My parents made it specific that if he was going to live here weather he had a job or not that he was going to have to pay rent. And that’s all on them not me so god damn it stop making that my problem. It’s like he’s trying to hurt my feelings on purpose. And I don’t care if you get mad at me either cause everyone just set back and allowed this to happen because it was really bad with me and CJ and we were at the point of splitting up over Matt having to pay rent and like I said that’s not my ordeal that was my parents. It just makes me mad that it seamed as if Matt wanted me and CJ to spit up so that he could get what he wanted. And that really hurts my feeling, but I see now that my feelings don’t matter. As far as I’m concerned I never should have been put in this situation and Matt should have backed off when he saw all theses problems persisting cause me and CJ didn’t have any problems until this!!!!!!!!!!! And it made CJ feel as if he had to choose between Matt or Me and Devin. And matt needs to understand that I can’t break these rules with my parents I’ve done tried. But now I think that it’s a better idea now that since I’ve been put in this situation to where my family just about split up because someone moving in and staying with us that…. any of you guys are welcome to visit us on the weekends but NO ONE (including my family) is going to live done here with us rent money or not. Cause this house is to small and frankly I can’t handle it and being in a situation like this again.