HERE'S THOSE PHOTOS

Picture of me, dad, and ryan @ Whittemore

Our 7th Grade Basketball Team

NJHS- 7th Grade

Our 7th Grade Volleyball Team

Our 8th Grade Basketball Team

NJHS- 8th Grade

Our 8th Grade Volleyball Team

Our JV Basketball Team

Krystin's Basketball Picture

my basketball picture

OMG
Mood:  party time!
well...long time no post on this thing, sorry. well not much to sya ahyways, so if there is i'll post it.
xoxo,
sarah

HAHA, A LOVELY DAY
Mood:  vegas lucky
Now Playing: ohio is for lovers- hawthorne heights
Topic: MY LIFE
today is gonna be eally kewl. i'll write later about it, maybe not. I have to go and get ready though...so i'll write in here sometime in the future.

SaRaH

OMG, school's OUT
I can't believe it's over, it feels like it just started. I have to go, but i'll try to write what hapened today later, but in the meantime, go to...my Xanga site

xoxo,
sarah

HA-HA-HA-HA-HAPPY
Mood:  on fire
Now Playing: untitiles- simple plan
Topic: MY LIFE
Hey
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The races were awesome!! We left at like 1.20 and
got thee at like 2, 2.30. We were like the second ones there...and you can only guess who came in like 10minutes after we did...KYLE...listening to 'save a horse, ride a cowboy' by 'big & rich'. HAHA. I can't believe I didn't just go over there and talk to him, but whatever. He was wearing a green hollister shirt and the cutest cowboy hat. !!LOL!! I didn't talk to him like the whole time though, cause i thought HE was going to cause he said he would, but whatever. It was like the last race when I 'accidentaly' went over by him when he was talking on his cell, and he waved (cause he couldn't really talk) so I waited for him to get off (he was talking to his sister). Then we talked a little bit, and well, we just talked about stupid stuff, he asked me what's been happening, i said nothing. he told me that after this his sis better pick him up or he'd be a pissed mother...and i had to come back with the gayyest comment...don't swear, it's bed for you, just kiddin'. then i chopped it even more when he gets picked up he's gonna go party, and i was like when i get home im going to bed....so yeah, i totally think that he thinks im like weird or a fricking cristian girl or something. Garsh, it sux. Well, I hope he e-mails me so we can talk, but whatever. HE IS SO HOTT!! Well, I'll talk later I guess...I have to go do my work!!
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XoXo,
SaRaH

hahahahahahahahaha
Mood:  chillin'
Now Playing: 'Ohio Is For Lovers' - Hawthorne Heights
Topic: MY LIFE
hey,
I haven't wote in here in a long time, so I thought I would try and update it. Lately I have been totally thinking about getting a jod this summer, and buying a skateboard, and some new shoes, LOL. But I haven't found a job in Glennie that I actually want to do. But I might work at Harger's Garden place or the IGA. I'm not sure which one i want to go to yet. But we'll see in the next few weeks. Or I might just try to get some BBsitting jobs. But, yeah, I don't really like most f the little kids here anyways. Yeah, and on my other sites, my music isn't working, so if it's not, let me know. Okay, I guess that's it, so I'll talk later.
XoXo,
SaRaH

Mood:  special
Now Playing: The Bravery-'An Honest Mistake'
Topic: MY LIFE
Hey
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Sorry I haven't written in a while, I've been really busy catching up with work, but now it's a new marking period, so there's less pressure, for now. This weekend will be sooo much fun. We didn't have any school today, something about confrences. I'm happy. Me and my friend Stephanie are gonna try to go totaly skater over the summer, I don't know how that's gonna go, but I'm gonna try. I'm gonna do a lot of jobs over the summer, so I can get a board and stuff. At least I think so. Right now my career path is to do something with writing, weather on the computer, or on paper...I think I'd be pretty good at it. Right now my WPM(words per minute) is about 40, which is pretty hight, higher than most of the people in my computer class. Well, here's what happened...
YESTERDAY:Well, school was pretty boring. I only got homework from one class, which is kewl. Me and Alex are getting kinda too close I think...I don't realy think I like him the way everyone expects me to, I think other ppl are so much better for me. We had conferences. It was kinda kewl, cause our mom was like and hour late, and we were and hour early, so we were there 2 hours before she was, and we stayed there like an hour after she got there talking to the teachers. She missed all my teachers except for my Algebra teacher. I really wanted my mom to talk to my History teacher about my grade. In LA I wouldn't of been able to see the teacher anyways because she is at the hospital taking care of her dad. I think it's kinda sad, her dad was in the hospital last year too, and he had sergery. Anyways, I got the folowing grades.

Literature: A+
History: B
Science: A+
Algebra: A

They aren't that bad, so I guess I'm proud of them, except the one in History, I know the project was 2 weeks late, but she didn't even grade it. That's the only thing that mad me upset. Then, we went home, and I accidentally fell asleep on the couch...lol.

TODAY: I got up at about 7. I wasn't hungry at all, but I knew I had to eat. Well, I couldn't even force 1/2 cup of this health cereal down, I threw more than half away. Then we went to Alpena at about 9.45, and went to the hair solon, and I got my hair dyed and cut. As I was doing that, my mom was at the spa and got some stuff done. Then she came to the solon and got her hair dyed, highlighted, lowlighted, and cut. Then, after that we went back to the spa and I got some stuff for my face, than we went to luch, were I forced myself to eat, again.
Talk later,
SaRaH
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Mood:  special
Now Playing: The Bravery-'An Honest Mistake'
Topic: MY LIFE
Hey
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Sorry I haven't written in a while, I've been really busy catching up with work, but now it's a new marking period, so there's less pressure, for now. This weekend will be sooo much fun. We didn't have any school today, something about confrences. I'm happy. Me and my friend Stephanie are gonna try to go totaly skater over the summer, I don't know how that's gonna go, but I'm gonna try. I'm gonna do a lot of jobs over the summer, so I can get a board and stuff. At least I think so. Right now my career path is to do something with writing, weather on the computer, or on paper...I think I'd be pretty good at it. Right now my WPM(words per minute) is about 40, which is pretty hight, higher than most of the people in my computer class. Well, here's what happened...
YESTERDAY:Well, school was pretty boring. I only got homework from one class, which is kewl. Me and Alex are getting kinda too close I think...I don't realy think I like him the way everyone expects me to, I think other ppl are so much better for me. We had conferences. It was kinda kewl, cause our mom was like and hour late, and we were and hour early, so we were there 2 hours before she was, and we stayed there like an hour after she got there talking to the teachers. She missed all my teachers except for my Algebra teacher. I really wanted my mom to talk to my History teacher about my grade. In LA I wouldn't of been able to see the teacher anyways because she is at the hospital taking care of her dad. I think it's kinda sad, her dad was in the hospital last year too, and he had sergery. Anyways, I got the folowing grades.

Literature: A+
History: B
Science: A+
Algebra: A

They aren't that bad, so I guess I'm proud of them, except the one in History, I know the project was 2 weeks late, but she didn't even grade it. That's the only thing that mad me upset. Then, we went home, and I accidentally fell asleep on the couch...lol.

TODAY: I got up at about 7. I wasn't hungry at all, but I knew I had to eat. Well, I couldn't even force 1/2 cup of this health cereal down, I threw more than half away. Then we went to Alpena at about 9.45, and went to the hair solon, and I got my hair dyed and cut. As I was doing that, my mom was at the spa and got some stuff done. Then she came to the solon and got her hair dyed, highlighted, lowlighted, and cut. Then, after that we went back to the spa and I got some stuff for my face, than we went to luch, were I forced myself to eat, again.
Talk later,
SaRaH
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Mood:  chillin'
Now Playing: HotHot Heat-"Goodnight, Goodnight"
Hey Ya'll,

I am really bored right now. Last night I called Matt at about 7.15, and we talked for an hour and a half, until his mom made him get off, garsh. I can't believe Spring Break is almost over, it totally sucks. I love getting time off from school, I get extra sleep, and don't have to put up with all those gay people here. Which is good,I think. The only person I really miss is Matt, and I call him pretty much every day....so it don't matter. Today, I think Krystin is going over to her boyfriends house, and Shelby's going home, so I am at peace today...hopefully. Last night I talked to Brooke and she asked me why I was always calling Matt...and how come he never called me. I said I dunno, but I am gonna ask him if he can call me tomorrow. LOL. Last night I was online until 3.30am. Yeah, I'm crazy. I only got 4 hours of sleep,too. But surprisingly I'm not really tired. Well, I think that's all for now, so I'll probubly update later.

Love Ya'll,

SaRaH

>>LYRICS TO:
> Hot Hot Heat-"Goodnight,Goodnight"

It's not enough to hear me say you've won,
you only wanted me for havin' fun.
but now I think you've gone and had your way,
and left me with a pile of bills to pay.
I can't even rewind the tape machine,
to listen to your drunken reasoning.

So here it is, your final lullaby:

So goodnight, goodnight.
You're embarrassing me,
you're embarrassing you.
So goodnight, goodnight.
Walk away from the door, walk away from my life.
So goodnight.

I've given up on social niceties,
I threw 'em out when I threw out your keys.
Along with all your records I can't stand;
you never even listened to any one of them.
You're never gonna drag me out again,
with all the people that were never ever even your friends.

So here it is, your final lullaby:

So goodnight, goodnight.
You're embarrassing me,
you're embarassing you. So goodnight, goodnight.
Walk away from the door,
walk away from my life.

A little bit of rain I’d say is fair,
But when it starts a thundering I'm scared.
This isn't goodnight, this is goodbye

So goodnight, goodnight.
You're embarrassing me,
you're embarrassing you.
So goodnight, goodnight.
Walk away from the door,
walk away from my life.

So goodnight, goodnight.
You're embarrassing me,
you're embarrassing you. So goodnight, goodnight.
Walk away from the door,
walk away from my life.

So goodnight, goodnight.
You're embarrassing me,
you're embarrassing you.
So goodnight, goodnight.
Walk away from the door,
walk away from my life.
so goodnight.
>>INSIDE MY HEAD
> Being true to yourself involves knowing thatoyu are just another person in this word, and you might not be able to affect that much.
> Life is so precious, how could anyone just decide to take it away from themselves.
> How could I of thought of taking it awayform myself, when I could become so much??
> Love has a whole new meaning since I met you, now I actually care.
> Love is a passion, heartbreak is reality.
****EnD****

Mood:  blue
Now Playing: 12 Stones-"The Last Song" -album 'Potter's Field', 2004
12 Stones-"The Last Song"

AFI-"...But Home Is Nowhere"

Velvet revolver- "Fall To Pieces"

Hey Ya'll,
I got up like a couple hours ago....cause I was really tired. But anyways. Last night I called Matt twice. The first time was at about 9...and he was downstairs playing the drums, which is so kewl!! I didn't know he could play the drums. LOL. I called him again at about 10...and we only talked for like 20 minuted because my parentals wanted me off the phone. Garsh...tonight I'm gonna calll him again, I hope he finds his baby book. LOL. Well, I was looking through mine a little last night, but not much because I really wanted to wait until he found his, that would be really kewl. I was talking to Stephanie online yesterday too, she still thinks me and Matt will hook up, but I don't know. I think he's starting to like me more, but I'm not sure. I told him to go over to my cousins this weekend, but he didn't want to...GARSH, he is so mean...he could stay at my cousins, but come over to my house to go swimming and stuff:P..lol. But I don't think he will. Ohh well. I'll totally be fine with that, I can see him at school Monday. I think that it is kinda weird that people think we will hook up, but I don't think I am going to. He is still into some Pinconning girl. God, he is a dreamer. Well, right now, I think I can be without a boyfriend. I am getting really behind on my studies, by like a week, because after we went to Arizona I got totally lost on school and still haven't done all my makeup work. So this weekend I have to start doing that. Out of my 4 core classes the only classes that I am caught up in is Liturature and Science. And those are the easy ones. But, I guess I'll go and get some stuff done, or just chill for a while.
>>LYRICS TO:...

> 12 Stones-"The Last Song"
I'm sorry for needing you to carry me
So simple sometimes when you're standing next
To me
You never change you never stay the same
Like a picture perfect sunrise every time with
One last song to sing

Take it all away from me and tell me how you
Want this to be
I want you i need you

A life without you made me wonder why i'm here
Until i found nothing ever seemed so clear
You never change you never stay the same
Like a picture perfect sunrise every time with
One last song to sing

I lose myself in everything you say i lose myself
In everything
I never knew that i could feel this way i never
Knew that i could feel

> 12 Stones-"Bitter"
Mother mother can you hear me, i keep trying
Just to find me all i know now, all you show me,
Endless questions, hopeless ending

This bitter pill is pushing me away and now i feel
Like there's nothing left to say and i pretend to
Look the other way but in the end will i be okay,
Will i be okay

Father father will you be there as i cry out
Silent again turning colder, frozen deeper,
Numb to this dream sleeping within

This bitter pill is pushing me away and now i feel
Like there's nothing left to say and i pretend to
Look the other way but in the end will i be okay,
Will i be okay

Before i face another day, won't you let asleep,
Lost among the dreams that always comfort me
And before i find my feet, won't you show me
What i need, what i need to walk again

This bitter pill is pushing me away and now i feel
Like there's nothing left to say and i pretend to
Look the other way but in the end will i be okay,
Will i be okay

> Velvet Revolver-"Fall To Pieces"
It's been a long year
Since you've been gone
I've been alone here
I've grown old
I fall to pieces, I'm falling
Fell to pieces and I'm still falling

Every time I'm falling down
All alone I fall to pieces

I keep a journal of memories
I'm feeling lonely, I can't breathe
I fall to pieces, I'm falling
Fell to pieces and I'm still falling

All the years I've tried
With more to go
Will the memories die
I'm waiting
Will I find you
Can I find you
We're falling down
I'm falling

Every time I’m falling down
All alone I fall to pieces
Every time I’m falling down
All alone I fall to pieces
Every time I’m falling down
All alone I fall to pieces
Every time I’m falling down
All alone I fall to pieces

>>INSIDE MY HEAD
> Life starts when your born, and ends when you die, but mine started at 10 and ended when i turned 12.
> Being careful doesn't have as many rewards as living on the edge, but it's a lot safer.
> All I'm left with is you, and my life ahead...wow, there's not much to look forward too.
> Being blessed happens to everyone at least once in a lifetime, God just doesn't have a reason to bless me yet.
> Dear heart, prepare to shatter<3<3...
> Lifes only what you make it out to be, death is all that you didn't make life.
****END****

A LONG ENTRY
Mood:  energetic
Now Playing: The Used-"All That I've Got"
The Used-"All That I've Got"

Nirvana-"Coma As You Are"

Hey Ya'll,
Well, last night was kewl. I got home from bbsitting late...about 3 hours late..and got an extra 15$, so I am happy...for just monday, tuesday, and wednesday I got a total of 105$...YEAH! I'm spending most of it at the spa, I think...I don't know yet. I really want to get some new converse shoes, but I don't know when I'll be able to get them if I do, I have to figure out which ones I want, which I'm pretty sure what I want. But anyways. I called Matt last night after I got home from bbsitting, about 9..and he just got back from downstate and we talked for about 2 hours again. The only reason we got off was because I was really tired. But I didn't really want to get off, but I'm gonna call him tonight too, at about 8...hopefully I won't be tired, lol. I got up a little late today, mom and dad went to Saginaw to a doctor appointment. I stayed home. I didn't have to babysit today, krystin is doing it from 9 to about now, so she should be getting home anytime. But who knows. My cousin came over at about 2, he's staying the night, my mom and I are bbsitting him...I don't think I'm getting paid though...even though I had to watch him for about an hour before my parents got home from saginaw. After they got home, me and dad went to town and looked at an outside pen for the dogs. It's a 10x10, so it isn't really small. Other than that it has been really boring here.....((feeding dogs))...Krystin's home now....GOD I hate her. She gets more money than I do, that's crap. For babysitting the same amount of time for the same people, 8 hours two kids....she gets 10$ more than I do. GOD! I hate it, but oh well. I'll get over it. Well, there's nothing else to talk about...I guess..my sister is being an a$$ so I have to help her uncover the pool, even though I'm not gonna go swimming anyways. But whatever.
Love Ya'll,
SaRaH
>>LYRICS TO:...

>The Used-"All that I've Got"
So deep that I didn't even
bleed and caught me
Off guard, red handed

Now I'm far from lonely
Asleep I still see you lying next to me

So deep that I didn't even
bleed catch me I..

I need something else
Would someone please just give me
Hit me, knock me out

And let me go back to sleep
I can laugh
All I want inside I still am empty
So deep that I didn't
even bleed catch me I...

I'll be just fine
Pretending I'm not
I'm far from lonely
And it's all that I've got

I'll be just fine
Pretending I'm not
I'm far from lonely
And it's all that I've got

I guess, I remember every glance you shot me
Un-harmed, I'm losing weight and some body heat

I squoze so hard
I stopped your heart from beating
So deep that I didn't even scream fuck me, I..

I'll be just fine
Pretending I'm not
I'm far from lonely
And it's all that I've got

I'll be just fine
Pretending I'm not
I'm far from lonely
And it's all that I've got
And it's all that I've got


Yeah, it's all that I've got
It's all that I've got
It's all that I've got!

So deep that I didn't even bleed catch me
So deep that I didn't even scream fuck me

I'll be just fine
Pretending I'm not
I'm far from lonely
and it's all that I've got

I'll be just fine
Pretending I'm not
I'm far from lonely

And it's all that I've got
And it's all that I've got
Yeah, it's all that I've got

>Papa Roach-"Scars"
I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut
My weakness is that I care too much
My scars remind me that the past is real
I tear my heart open just to feel

Drunk and I'm feeling down
And I just wanna be alone
I'm pissed cause you came around
Why don't you just go home
Cause you channel all your pain
And I can't help you fix yourself
You're making me insane
All I can say is

[Chorus:]
I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut
My weakness is that I care too much
And our scars remind us that the past is real
I tear my heart open just to feel

I tried to help you once
Against my own advice
I saw you going down
But you never realized
That you're drowning in the water
So I offered you my hand
Compassions in my nature
Tonight is our last stand

[Chorus]

I'm drunk and I'm feeling down
And I just wanna be alone
You shouldn't ever came around
Why don't you just go home?
Cause you're drowning in the water
And I tried to grab your hand
And I left my heart open
But you didn't understand
But you didn't understand
Go fix yourself

I can't help you fix yourself
But at least I can say I tried
I'm sorry but I gotta move on with my own life
I can't help you fix yourself
But at least I can say I tried
I'm sorry but I gotta move on with my own life

[Chorus x2]

>Papa Roach-"Getting Away With Murder"
Somewhere beyond happiness and sadness
I need to calculate
What creates my own madness
And I'm addicted to your punishment
And you're the master
And I am waiting for disaster

[Chorus]
I feel irrational
So confrontational
To tell the truth I am
Getting away with murder
It isn't possible
To never tell the truth
But the reality is I'm getting away with murder
(Getting away, Getting away, Getting away)

I drink my drink and I don't even want to
I think my thoughts when I don't even need to
I never look back cause I don't even want to
And I don't need to
Because I'm getting away with murder

[Chorus]

Getting away, Getting away, Getting away,
Getting away, Getting away, Getting away,
Getting away, Getting away, Getting away,
With murder

Somewhere beyond happiness and sadness
I need to calculate
What creates my own madness
And I'm addicted to your punishment
And you're the master
And I am craving this disaster

[Chorus 2x]
>>INSIDE MY HEAD
> What's the point of being on earth when theirs so many people who have accomplished things already that you've only dreamed about doing.
> There is no point anymore, get out the knife, and start from the beginning.
> So many things to do with my life, how come I can't find one that I really WANT to do.
> There's nothing better to do anymore than sit in my corner and wait for my prince charming to sweep me off my feet.
> Why can't life be like a fairytale.
> I am so confused, I want you, but you keep pushing my away, GOD...why can't guys make up their minds and tell you how they really feel.
> True Love is such a lie, and if it was...then how come it doesn't happen to anyone?
> BIBLE- Books In a Book of Life and Evil
****THE END****

Mood:  crushed out
12Stones-"Shadows"

Hey Ya'll,
I can't talk for that long, but I will try my best. Not very much has been happening. Umm, I called Matt on Easter at like 8 o'clock, I think. We taked for two hours, lol... and we tacked about so little, for how long we were on the phone...I miss him sooo much. I think I really like him...REALLY. Brooke, know you liked him, so I don't want to take that away from you, but I don't think that we'll be going out any time soon, although I think I might really like him, he isn't even close to becoming serious about me, so why should I waist my time on something that isn't even there. And I don't feel like being a rag doll, just to be used when wanted, and thrown around the rest of the time. It would just not be me. And I don't wanna be that kind of girl, I'm fine having my independence, and I'm gonna do everything I can to keep that individuality. Being different is what it's all about. But right now, I really miss him. He went down state for a couple of days, he'll be back Wednesday, and he told me to call him at nine o'clock. Which I will, cause although I don't think he really likes me... I have to talk to him more to get the full story. But right now, I don't really have anything else to say. so here are some of my thoughts:
>
Sometimes I wonder, am I really that different from my sister, I mean we are twins, and at only 20 minutes apart, it isn't like we don't have anything in common, but how come people can see her as more than a friend, but all I can accomplish is people saying I'm like there sister. WHAT....sometimes, do you think that maybe I don't want to be seen as that, maybe sometimes I actually want a relationship with someone...and someone that actually likes me.
>
My stomach is butterflies just thinking about him. I turn into jello when I'm around him, God...why can't I forget about him. I'm lost in all this confusion. Is it love, or am I just stupid. I feel something special...I just hope he feels it too, I don't want to be the only one.
>
Prayers can't help me now, faith is all I can have. Nothing can change, we can't go back. Life can't rewind, so make the most of what you've been given...make sure It doesn't pass you by.
>
Being young is precious, try to be a kid as long as you can, cause once you get older you'll want to go back to that carefree lifestyle.
>>
I'll talk to ya'll later,
SaRaH

Mood:  party time!
Now Playing: Good Charlotte-
Good Charlotte-"Hold On"

Hey Ya'll,
>
Today is gonna be an awsome day. I got up about 9 this morning. I slept on the recliner last night, I don't know how. I have a really bad sore throat. But, I think it's okay. I keep having to spray that crap in my mouth though. I baked cookies for the party, my mom is making pizza right now. dad needs the computer, talk later.
>
Okay, the party went awsome!! Mom said like 25 out of the 43 we invited showed up, so that ain't too bad, but I guess...I didn't really want the cheerleaders there anyways. I tried to make this really mean entry...but later in the day I found out that it was really just a gay thing they were pulling on me. Well, on Friday at the party me and Matt got really close, so after the party, when he had to leave to go to my cousins house they asked him if he liked me, and he said sorta. then Yesterday ((Saturday)) Mike and Matt came over again, and I didn't hang out with him as much as I really wanted to because Stephanie and Krystin were trying to get me mad, because they were being bitches. I thought my sister liked him, which I'm not so sure she don't, but I guess. As they were doing it I was talking to Brooke, so me and her got really mad until we found out what they were doing, but it didn't make me feel any better. But after they left I got on the phone and talked to him. He told me he would rate me 6o something out of 100, which knowing myself isn't bad. The we were talking, and he said he liked this Pinconning girl, which is stupid, cause he was telling me that he's gonna get her phone number from this guy who know's this guy who's related to her ex that can get the # for him. I think that's gay... but then we kept talking and he was like, why dont you come over, I was like, no, but I did anyways, and he was surprised, cause he didn't think I would actually do it, but I did. It was kewl, they played video games, and I sat by him, then we went outside and played basketball, which I have gotten really bad at since the season got over with. But, oh well...then he left at like 8...which sucked. I was gonna do the dare that I was suppose to do ((kiss him on the cheek)) but when I went over to the house to do it, he came out when I went in, so I just said bye, and left it at that.
BYE
Love Ya'll,
SaRaH
PS- 12 Stones is AWSOME!!
>
>
LYRICS TO: Good Charlotte-"Hold On"
This world
This world is cold
But you don't
You don't have to go
You're feeling sad, you're feeling lonely, and no one seems to care
Your mother's gone and your father hits you
This pain you cannot bear

But we all bleed the same way as you do
And we all have the same things to go through

Hold on if you feel like letting go
Hold on it gets better than you know

Your days
You say they're way too long
And your nights
You can't sleep at all
Hold on
And you're not sure what you're waiting for, but you don't want to know more
And you're not sure what you're looking for, but you don't want to know more

But we all bleed the same way as you do
And we all have the same things to go through

Hold on if you feel like letting go
Hold on it gets better than you know
Don't stop looking, you're one step closer
Don't stop searching, it's not over
Hold on

What are you looking for?
What are you waiting for?
Do you know what you're doing to me?
Go ahead...What are you waiting for?

Hold on if you feel like letting go
Hold on it gets better than you know
Don't stop looking, you're one step closer
Don't stop searching, it's not over
Hold on if you feel like letting go
Hold on it gets better than you know
Hold on

Mood:  chillin'
Now Playing: Something Corporate-"Punk Rock Princess"
Something Corporate-"Punk Rock Princess"

Hey ya'll,
Well, today was kinda a layed back day. The only class we had work to do was in Algebra and Liturature, (and history, but we are doing a group project, and my group is already done!!) Tom is so hott!! He really is!! Well, I brought the best popcorn in Science, the Sweet&Buttery kind, but I didn't get any..but it's all good, I didn't want any anyways. I finished the test in 4th block. It was such a gay test. At lunch Stephanie made me eat, A LOT. Ugg, I hate her for it. Alex is an ass, still. I don't like him anymore, I hope I'm done with that. We'll see about Matt tomorrow at the party. I still have to go an clean, but oh well. Tom is comming to the party, HE IS SO HOTT. After school, mom and dad picked us up in the Saburban and we went home. Dawn had to come home with us because she wouldn't have a way to get to the party otherwise. (Which personally wouldn't hurt my feelings any.) I don't really like her. [Me and my friends think she's a slut, and she is] Well, um...Kevin is hott, too...but he don't know if he can come to the party...but I hope he can. I have to go and do my work now, damn it. But I guess, I'll write later or something.
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Love Ya'll,
SaRaH
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LYRICS TO: Something Corporate-"Punk Rock Princess"
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Maybe when the room is empty,
Maybe when the bottle's full.
Maybe when the door gets broke down,
Love can break in.
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Maybe when I'm done with thinking,
Maybe you can think me whole.
Maybe when I'm done with endings
This can begin, this can begin
This can begin.
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If you could be my punk rock princess,
I would be your garage band king.
You can tell me why you just dont fit in
And how you're gonna be something
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Maybe when your hair gets darker,
Maybe when your eyes get wide,
Maybe when the walls are smaller
There will be more space
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Maybe when I'm not so tired,
Maybe you could step inside
Maybe when I look for things that
I cant replace, I cant replace
I cant replace.
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If you could be my punk rock princess,
I would be your garage band king.
You could tell me why you just dont fit in,
And how you're gonna be something.
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If I could be your first real heartache,
I would do it over again.
If you could be my punk rock princess,
I would be your heroine.
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I never thought you'd last,
I never dream you would.
You watch your life go past,
You wonder if you should.
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If you should be my punk rock princess,
So I could be your garage band king.
You could tell me why you just dont fit in,
And how you're gonna be something.
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If I could be your first real heartache,
I would do it over again.
If you could be my punk rock princess,
I would be your heroine.
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Whoa! you know!
You only burn my bridges
Whoa! you know!
You just cant let it sink in!
You could be my heroine,
You could be my heroine!
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Mood:  hug me
Blink182- I Miss You

Hey Ya'll,

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Well, today was another kinda gay day. I had to search around for ten minutes to find something to wear because my mom hasn't been home, and I haven't had the time to do my laundry, opps...which I still have to do sometime today. I didn't eat anything for breakfast, and I accidently took my pills, so I was like so close to throwing-up on the bus, it wasn't even funny, and it didn't help that I was right next to the heater. We had to stay ten minutes in Mr. Spenceley's homeroom (instead of Mr. Mellor's) because Mrs. McDougall's first block had to start ten minutes early so that they could finish a movie they were watching. In chess class we are watching this movie about this like ten year old kid who is like super good at chess, although his dad didn't even know he could play until his wife told him that the boy was good at it, lol. What drama. Then in science we are watching a movie, too. It's about this kid that wants to make rockets, and is interested in stuff that deals with space, but no one approves because they live in a coal mining town, until the boy and his friends prove to the townspeople they can do it, then they are going into a science fair, and that's as far as we got. I got to hand out popcorn, lol, but I didn't have more than three peices. I'm gonna bring the good kind tomorrow. YUMMY! Although, I'll probubly give it all to Kevin and Tom, because I don't really like popcorn that much. Alex is a major dick, he put this nasty smelling calogne on me today...ugg, I feel like I'm gonna throw-up it smells so bad. Last night after I got offline I cleaned the kitchen, because mom said the whole house had to be clean before we have our party, whatever. Two days till the party, I hope some how, I can get by without getting dunked, cough*TOM*cough*KEVIN*. I went around in 5th block on asking people how much they weighed, roughly 99.9% of the people inmy school weigh less than I do, and I weigh 150 pounds, yeah...but everyone says, "you don't look like you weigh 150, Sarah...more like 130-140." Whatever, you stupid people, you know I weigh a lot, and Dylan...yeah, my "survey" did prove I am big so get over it, and Nick, Corey, and Tom didn't help you by saying I was big, but Tom said he said that I was big only becasue he knew I would just say I was anyways, wow, he knows me so well. In that class we're doing this project, and I haven't read it yet, so Justin asked me What are the two branches in congress, or something like that, and I said it was democratic and republican, cause I wasn't really thinking about it, lol, but it was funny. In art class we got the teacher to tell us her weight, kinda...she told us what she weighed in college. And it's still less than I weigh. Then Kevin was trying to make me look at it different, because in sixth grade I weighed like 170 something, so now I weigh like 20 pounds less, and he said that was good. I was like, sure, if you say so. But I guess. On the way home from school, on the bus, Alex, Krystin's hottie, wasn't on, neither was any of the other people who usually are, that are from a different bus route.
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A Poem-

I'm drowning, Going back into the darkness.
The hole I'm in is getting deeper, I can't find my way out.
Help me find my way, direct me toward the light I've been missing for so long.
You're almost out of time, my breath is getting heavy.
God, let me go with you.
No one can save me now, the darkness is taking over.
everything seems darker, too dark.
As I take my last breath, I wonder...
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LYRICS TO: Bink182- "I Miss You"

Hello there
The angel from my nightmare
The shadow in the background of the morgue
The unsuspecting victim
Of darkness in the valley
We can live like Jack and Sally
If we want
Where you can always find me
And we'll have halloween on christmas
And in the night we'll wish this never ends
We'll wish this never ends

I miss you
(I miss you)

Where are you?
And I'm so sorry
I cannot sleep
I cannot dream tonight
I need somebody and always
This 6 string's darkness
Comes creeping on so haunting every time
And as I stared I counted
The webs from all the spiders
Catching things and eating their insides
Like indecision to call you
And hear your voice of treason
Will you come home
And stop this pain tonight?
Stop this pain tonight

Don't waste your time on me
You're already the voice inside my head
(I miss you)
You're already the voice inside my head
(I miss you)
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LYRICS TO: Blink182- "Always"

I've been here before a few times
And I'm quite aware we're dying
And your hands they shake with goodbyes
And I'll take you back if you'd have me
So here I am
I'm trying
So here I am
Are you ready

Come on let me hold you
Touch you
Feel you
Always
Kiss you taste you all night
Always

And I'll miss your laugh your smile
I'll admit I'm wrong if you'd tell me
I'm so sick of fights
I hate them
Lets start this again for real
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LYRICS TO: Blink 182- "Asthenia"

Last night it came as a picture
With a good reason, a warning sign
This place is void of all passion
If you can imagine it's easy if you try
Believe me I failed this effort
I wrote a reminder this wasn't a vision
This time where are you Houston
Is somebody out there
Will somebody listen

Should I go back should I go back should I
I feel alone and tired
Should I go back should I go back should I
I hope I won't forget you

My head is made up of memories
Most of them useless delusions
This room is bored of rehearsal
And sick of the boundaries
I miss you so much
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Love Ya'll,
SaRaH

Mood:  irritated
Now Playing: Chevelle- 'Send The Pain Below'
Chevelle- "Send The Pain Below"

Hey Ya'll,

OMG, today was like the stupidest day ever. Alex got highlights, and it looks like CRAP! LoL, but I'll just don't care, it's not my hair. He's starting to get annoying too, calling me hunny and crap, GOD! I'll just talked to Matt today, he's coming to my party, yay. Umm, we had to start a really gay test in Language Arts, it's like impossible. Me and Heather are the smartest people in that class, and we don't think we'll pass it with an A-, I'm thinking a B or below. But I'll just think she'll figure out that that crap was hard. I'll just was really sick today, I'll just about threw-up in all my classes, but I'll just didn't want to go home. there's this really hott guy on my bus, and by coincidence his name is Alex, too...but he's in 10th grade, but so hott. Well, okay. I'll just don't get it, how come everyone thinks my sister is hotter than me. Well, I'll just think I'll just'm totally ugly and everything, but I'll just guess. I'll just'lljust get over it. I'll just really need to either get Matt to go out with me, or forget about having a boyfriend for now, until the things going through my head right now straighten out. I'll just really need to be true to people, so does my sister. I'll just need to come out and tell the truth more, I'll just keep too many things to myself. I'll just need a new wardrobe, I'll just hate my clothes from Aropostale. I'll just have so many guys I'll just like, and like none of them like me, so I'll just need to start going for people I'll just don't like?? I'll just don't think I'll just should have to, but the people in our school are gay anyways, they always have a stereotype, and if you don't fit it, you have to either make yourself fit in or be rejected all the time. Which is a miracle for me, I'll just don't fit in with all those preppy people, but somehow I'll just have friends. Well, I'll just think thats all for now, talk later. And don't forget to check out my other site, my website

Love Ya'll,

SaRaH

LYRICS TO: Chevelle- 'Send The Pain Below'

I liked having hurt,
So send the pain below where I need it,
You used to beg me to take care of things,
And smile at the thought of me failing.

But long before, having hurt,
I'd send the pain below,
I'd send the pain below.

Much like suffocating,
Much like suffocating,
Much like suffocating,
(I'd send the pain below...)
Much like suffocating,
(I'd send the pain below...)

You used to run me away,
All while laughing.
Then cry about the fact,
'til I returned.

But long before, having hurt,
I'd send the pain below,
I'd send the pain below.

Much like suffocating,
Much like suffocating,
Much like suffocating,
(I'd send the pain below...)
Much like suffocating,
(I'd send the pain below...)
Much like suffocating.

I can't feel my chest,
Need more, drop down,
Closing in.

I can't feel my chest,
Drop down.

I liked, having hurt.
So send the pain below,
So send the pain below,
(Much like suffocating) [I liked]
So send the pain below,
(Much like suffocating) [Having hurt]
So send the pain below,
(Much like suffocating)
So send the pain below,
(Much like suffocating)
So send the pain below.