Mood:
downNow Playing: The used ' On My Own '
So here I am,once again laying everything out in the open hopeing to make sense of everything that goes on in my life to maybe help me deal with things more. So things have been pretty messed up this year, I Know i contributed to this mess but everything seems to build and build and build and I'm sitting here thinking when is it all going to just exsplode and turn slightly normal again...I shall post a reply when that day happens...but untill then My Self discovery (part 1) so things that have happend this year, new relatonships,failed everythings,new beginings, new and ended friendships,new discoverys, major regrets ,insane backstabing , depression, pain killers , killing the pain , ending it all. Its truly amazing how things change, and people do along with those changes and how people change to try and better them selfs or the people there with , personally some of these changes are un-called for ,I'm pretty against ppls changing to please others , I was a victim to that and now i see its just not worth it ,if people dont take you for who you are then whats the point? being true to your self is the most inportant thing . I know I've changed too , most of mine for the better alto my mom is constantly at me to get rid of my spike cuffs and and all my "punky" things and to wear less black eyeliner, but hey i feel nude without my stuff and i like the fact im a individual i dont want to be a clone and i like to be set out from the crowd , thats just my thing ,tommorow im going to buy a batch of black hair dye and change my hair coulor (which at the moment is half burgandy and the otehr half redish brown with blonde tips all thru it ) but my changes , ive shed alot of old friends this year ,made some new ones , shed some of them too but theres some things you just cant let go of...and that is a major problem that im dealing with right now , letting go and moving on... More of warped and twisted at a near date, Mez xx