You fill me up, you're in my veins, your love could take my breath away
Mood:  hug me
Now Playing: STAIND (again...awesome CD)
Topic: This is cool
Today I didn't have school, so I slept in really late. Then I sat at home being lazy till me, mom, and Geoff went to Southpointe. We tried going into Nordstrom, which I used to love, but now, I feel like "non-fashionable" or something. lol. I was like, "I'm looking for jeans" and the lady was like, "what kind." I was like, "ummmm, maybe not these stretchy ones." Cause stretchy jeans always get smaller faster, and cling to every curve. I actually felt fat trying on some of these jeans, I was like, ok, no. lol. I've decided that I just don't really like to shop. Then Geoff and I both agreed to go to Hot Topic, and mom was like, ahhh satan store. lol. But it was cool. I love me mommy, listen to this. My mom told me I needed a new pair of shoes, so I saw these really cute black and pink skate shoes, and some silver low-top chucks. And I tried them both on, but was just gonna get the skate shoes. Then my mom was like, well, if you let me wear the chucks sometimes, we can buy both. I was like.... HALLELUJAH! HALLELUJAH! lol :D I didn't find any jeans, but some really cute black pants with grey stripes in hot topic, so that was awesome. I'm going back later to get this belt that buckles like a seat belt, and has bottle tops all over it. :D I still don't like to shop, but whenever my mom does something like that, I remember just how blessed I really am. :) Then we ate at the food court, and then we saw the movie, Hero. I wanted to see Friday Night Lights, but Geoff won the fight. I was glad too, cause Hero was an awesome movie. It's that Chinese, martial arts movie. I highly suggest seeing it, it was sweet. A little hard to follow at times, but awesome. :D I'm just feeling really poopie right now cause I ate too much at the mall and movie, lol, and I'm tired. Had a convo with mom and Geoff in the car on the way to the mall bout what happened Wed. night and just other stuff that's been happening, and we started talking bout our old co op in Cali, and stuff we did. Kinda makes me sad to think about it. I mean, God's done a lot for us here, I know that. And I've made a lot of friends that I'm so glad I did. But sometimes I just wonder why all the crap that's happened here had to be included. I mean, I miss having my best friend to understand everything, and let me cry on her shoulder. Sometimes I just don't want to hear advice, I just want to cry. But I know it's selfish cause crap happens to everyone. I guess that makes me less of a person, cause I can blame my problems on moving here, even though that's not a good reason...
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I know that it never goes away.
All I feel everything I'm not today.
So I try and I try to make everything right,
I don't feel like I'm doing it, it effects me.
Wouldn't listen even if I told you, who am I to say?
You're to busy with the lies they sold you,
and all the cure effects your day.
Now you walk wherever they will lead you, while the edges slowly fray.
I know that everything can change.
What I need is to open up again.
So never again will I look back and faint
cause today's not the past, I don't need to relive it.
Wouldn't listen even if I told you, who am I to say?
You're to busy with the lies they sold,
and all the cure effects your day.
Now you'll walk wherever they will lead you, while the edges slowly fray.
Are you satisfied? I've given all I can.
And are you pacified? Or do you want more from me?
Wouldn't listen even if I told you, who am I to say?
You're to busy with the lies they sold,
and all the cure effects your day.
Now you'll walk wherever they will lead you, while the edges slowly fray.
I've learned that this life's not just a game.
Just a light between the pleasures and the pain.
Wouldn't listen even if I told you, who am I to say?
You're to busy with the lies they sold,
and all the cure effects your day.
Now you'll walk wherever they will lead you, while the edges slowly fray...