nothin' to do!!!
la lang! m just bored!! i feel sleepy... i think i'll go sleep now! ok! night night! bye! my tooth hurts!!! grrr! ok ok! before i start blabbing about something useless, i'll go sleep now! bye!

_belle

The story behind the list...
Mood:  sad
Yesterday at our English class, we had a very interesting discussion about what we can do to help us decide what we want in our lives to be able to avoid unnecessary disappointment and suffering. She told us about her bad experience with her ex-husband and how she was mistreated for three years. She shared to us how much he made her feel so miserable about her life and how he made her feel that what she does about her life is so much crap. What she told us was enough to make me cry because as she was talking about her bad experience, I couldn’t help myself remember all the crap my own sister, my own flesh and blood went through. It made me remember the situation my sister was in less than a year ago. My sister may not have gained something good nor bad from her experience but I certainly have. When I saw what my sister’s ex-husband was doing to her, it made me realize that what my sister and I used to believe in so much about love and guys wasn’t all true! It made me see that a person so wrong could exist in this world. I used to believe that guys like him only existed in movies but for me to see my own sister married to a devil like that, it just traumatized me! It was just it for me with guys and crap that guys do! I just made a promise to myself that from now on I would be the one who would make the guy’s life a miserable hell, rather than it done to me!!! Anyways, what was interesting about my teacher told us was that, maybe if we were to make a list on what we ask for in a guy and somehow follow this list, then maybe it could help us from falling in to another disaster. She told us that if maybe she had made this list before she married that creep, maybe it would’ve saved her from making the biggest mistake of her life! Don’t get me wrong, I’m not closing myself from the idea of having a commitment and with the matters of being realistic, no one’s perfect and not everything from this list will be accomplished. However, also being realistic, DON’T BE STUPID! We shouldn’t be so naïve that men are perfect!!! They can hurt you, or they can love you… the question is… which probability would you rather put your faith in with guys? Would you rather believe that they will always love you, and that they’re all good enough? Or maybe you would rather believe the reality that they could hurt you and make your life a miserable hell, which I’ve learned from a close experience by the way? I’d prefer the second one because I think it’s better to be proven wrong with a good outcome, rather than be proven wrong and get disappointed! I mean, who would want to be married with someone who puts you down all the time and someone who would criticize your own being because it’s what he believes in. If he can’t accept who you are because he is so narrow-minded on what he believes in, then I think he’s not worth it to destroy your life over. All I wanna say is… Fuck these guys! Itaas ang bandila ng mga babae! Hehe! Yeah! Girl power! Rock On! (by the way, this message goes out to all the guys with girls too!)

Here's my list:
Mood:  flirty
1. Able to get along with my brothers and sisters.
2. A real man! (No sign of gayness whatsoever, please!!!)
3. I can certainly be myself with. (Absolutely no holes barred!)
4. Accepts me for who I am and what I do.
5. Takes the time to ask me how I’m doing maybe once in a while (but not too much!)
6. Believes so much in what I can do.
7. My source of strength not my weakness
8. Someone who needs me (but not too much)
9. Someone who also has a dream in life.
10. Able to make me laugh (laugh so hard!!!!)
11. a very good dancer(wohoo!)
12. Can play the guitar (but id prefer the drums)
13. uuhh... a guy with small eyes wouldn't hurt.
14.i guess loaded would be a major plus! (haha!)
15. not shorter than me(maawa naman sana sila sa magiging anak namin!haha!if!!!)


(I'll be adding on to this list as I find more things out along the way! believe me, there's more to come!)

Skateboard
Mood:  celebratory
Scotty Doesn't Know o nothin' juz trying this shit out! iight i'm out! p'z y'all!

_mabelle