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My Insanity
Monday, 23 June 2003
how long
How long must i wait
for the day to come when you will see
that which i see within you
the beauty unseen by the world
yet in my eyes it is unfathomeable
so tell me how long must i wait
howlong till the day you realize
that you need to live everyday
like it was your last because
for everyday you spend thinking about
what your going to do tomorrow
you lose twentyfour hours of time with someone
that you love or someone that loves you
the way that i do
so stop living in the past and dont wory about tomorrow for it never comes
pay attention to what is happening now
for it may never happen again

Posted by punk4/the_losers at 7:33 AM EDT
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Tuesday, 17 June 2003
LOST


Deep in my subconscous, where there is all darkness, there sits an argument that i am only recently aware of. It is a three sided argument, each concerning whose morals i shall live with for the rest of my life. One i have named good, for it is the side that wishes for me to be enlightened by the light. The next is called evil, who wishes for me to give in to temptation belonging to man. The third and final one i have named unknown, for it wishes me to be both good and evil.

I can enter this place by merely allowing my mind to wander to this place in the back of my mind; all though i do not always wish to listen to it all, i do for i know that this argument converns which track i shall be taking in life. One may ask, why should that concern me? After all, i am a teenager and therefore, old enough to know which track i am going to travel on for the rest of my life. But you know something? I am lost in a mistl; a mist so cloudy and foggy that i cannot even see my nose. I am wandering without end, not knowing where i am or where i am going. Until i happen upon a lone tree, appearing so fast that i wonder if i conjoured it up from my imagination.

But it does not matter. I sit at the best of the tree and allow my mind to wander freely, eventually finding that place where good and evil and unknown are arguing over me, who will own me. I am able to see them as if they are standing in front of me, the mist creating a circle around us. I watch with a mixture of emotions: fear, interest, boredom and a whole lot more. But even as i watch them, my mind wonders why there stand three sides to my mind still. It is like the questions one might ask, as stated up above but this one question does not have an answer that is clear. It could be the mist that enshrowds me; it could be the fact that i am insane, going insane. But i do not know and no one else does. I am lost with no way out.



Sic transit gloria mundi et ad infinitum, memoria in aeterna, pax vobiscum. Ars longa, vita brevis et morituri te salutamus. Cogito, ergo sum, errare, humanum est et ecce homo, memoria in aeterna. In summum bonus, sic semper tyrannis. Vox populi, vox Dei. Tempus fugit et sic transit gloria mundi.

English: So passes away the glory of the world and to infinity, in everlasting rememberance, peace be with you. Art is long, life is short, and we, about to die, salute you. I think therefore I am, to error is human, and behold the man in everlasting rememberance. In the supreme good, so be it ever to tyrants. The voice of the people is the voice of God Time flies and so passes away the glory of the world.

Posted by punk4/the_losers at 12:46 AM EDT
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Monday, 16 June 2003
life through the eyes of a girl named Summer
I feel life getting worse
as the days go by
and i know its not getting better
no matter how hard i try
but when i'm with you
all of this pain goes away from me
as long as your here
by my side i know i can face the day
and when i look into your eyes
the only thing i see
is all the love that you have inside
and that it belongs to me

The world keeps getting harder
for this one lonely girl
her father doesnt want her
she's all alone in this world
she sits all alone in her room
crazy thoughts go through her head
she's waitin' for some one to care about
the right guy in her life
and when she finds that right guy
she knows just what she'll do
she's gonna love him with all her heart
so he doesnt leave her to

I feel life getting worse
as the days go by
and i know its not getting better
no matter how hard i try
but when i'm with you
all of this pain goes away from me
as long as your here
by my side i know i can face the day
and when i look into your eyes
the only thing i see
is all the love that you have inside
and that it belongs to me

the world hasnt given up
on this one lonely girl
she goes by the name of Summer
And she's not alone in this world
cuz she doesnt know
that i sit
in my room
thinking how i love her
as i stare out at the moon

I feel life getting worse
as the days go by
and i know its not getting better
no matter how hard i try
but when i'm with you
all of this pain goes away from me
as long as your here
by my side i know i can face the day
and when i look into your eyes
the only thing i see
is all the love that you have inside
and that it belongs to me

Angelus Dark

Posted by punk4/the_losers at 1:24 AM EDT
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Why
How can this be happening
i've gotten out of the fire and into the frying pan
Why does it feel the same to fall in love
and to fall out of love
yet that seems to be my situation
i am torn no reason to go on
but i am wrong
i dont want to admit it but as much as i have fallen out of love
i have fallen back in in the same swift move
arnt i the smart one
and just when i thought things were getting more stable
On the one hand we have my X who claims to still love me
thats why i broke it off because i didnt love her too
and on the other hand...
we have different fingers (ha ha ha)
anyway on the other hand we have a girl
not just any girl but one so sweet troubled and special to me that i cant resist no matter how hard i try
I am lost in this world of chaos and i need help

Posted by punk4/the_losers at 1:05 AM EDT
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Friday, 13 June 2003
What is in your eyes
In the eyes of the beholder
there is beauty unseen by the beheld
of physical mental and spiritual worth
there is much to see as i look into you
for in the eyes of each beholder
there is something different
to you ruin shame and guild
to me a work of art
a world of understanding
I have left behind
and i am risking it all
to tell you
In the eyes of the beholder
there is beauty unseen by the beheld
so stop trusting that mirror
it has no stories to tell
for those stories are your to yell
for in the mine eyes of the beholder
i see beauty within you
the beheld

Angelus
Dark

Posted by punk4/the_losers at 10:28 AM EDT
Updated: Friday, 13 June 2003 10:20 AM EDT
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