PoeMS
You can stand there
with your hands covered in my blood
Squeezing the life out of my heart
and I would still love you...
You can slit my wrists
and cut every finger off
...one by one they fall...
and I would still want to hold your hand
You can serve my brain to me
on a gold platter of hate
and I would still spend my time
thinkg of you each night
Guilty of so many wrong doings
my blood stains your clothes
But I would wash them clean for you
and forgive every action.
I have become dumb
because of you
You fill my mind
maybe more than you should
I think of kissing you,
you're hands entangled in my hair
My giggles and your wandering hands
are all I think about and I smile
I feel so stupid
with my face grinning from ear to ear
Thinking about your eyes
and your addictive smile
i can never get enough of you,
not even in my dreams
I'm so lonely
I sit here like a loser
Dreaming of an exciting life
without worries
In my world I would
kick ass at guitar
and sing like an angel
I would come up with the best lyrics
and sing them to you
I always think about what's going on
right at this moment
What are you doing?
Are you thinking of me?
Is it worth it to even dream?
Should there be hope
or has that glimmer died?
Please don't blow out the flame
that I have for you
Lately you're the only one
that makes me truly laugh
You're such a dork
and I love every bit of it
I love the way you tickle me
and how seriously your gorgeous eyes
can stare deep into me
Never stop this
Never stop the silliness
or the cute way you make me smile
Or the reasons that make me
never want to leave
We're friends right now
and i love that so much
But i know that we're capable of so much more
Will that ever happen?
It's like a tape
that I keep rewinding
What did I do
to make you turn away?
I see your smile
directed toward me
It seems so long ago
that I held all of your attention
You're so hot and cold
What am i to you today?
Am I annoying
or your good friend?
You can apologize all you want
about how it didn't work out
But I know that when you're willing to try
we'll both be amazed
You're the one... I know it
I have a million questions to ask you
but I'm afraid of the answers
Paranoid that the outcome
won't go my way
In my dreams I see your eyes
I see your disguise
of confusion and isolation
I'm here when you wake up
No need to make myself
feel as badly as I do now
No need to hold on
but I can't let go
It's a hopeless case
to continue this fight
But I wipe away the tears
and still talk to you each night
i justify over and over
just what has been done
I take the blame
but get nothing in return
Everything makes me feel sick
You're not so easily forgotten
but please answer me this,
While you were kissing me were you thinking of her?
Today was amazing
what can i say?
I look in your eyes
and I never want to leave
It's hard to ignore
the feelings that I have
that still burn for you
Don't ever put that flame out
... I feel the wick wasting away...
Email: haggard05@hotmail.com
