just chillin
just updatin since last time.right now im stayin with two of my best friends.my mom is scared about the day i move out.somehow we got into the conversation of me movin out,and she actually had the nerve to say,you have to help me with cesar.i told her i was so burnt out on watchin her baby it wasnt even funny.she doesnt understand what shes puttin me through.she took me out of school to watch her kid.wont get me homeschooled,and wont take me to get my g.e.d.i can get a job but on her terms.she wants me to give ger money to help her dumb ass,after she blows all her money at bingo.thats over $800 every 2 weeks.im tired of it all,and i ont know if i can take very much more of it.well,i got to go for now.

laterz,
juicy

chillin
today i kicked it with my step sis.it was cool.we went to her bro's house,and smoked.it was tight.came back to her house and made my moms cd.well im tired as hell.(ya know)

laterz

changes
ok to start off this is the same kind of day as usual.clean,and watch my little brother all day.my friend came and picked me up,and we chilled at her house for a while,untill my mom came and picked our bro up.then me and my sis/friend went to her bros house.he recently just got out of jail,and dont really like me cuz of his girl.well it was awkward bein there.then his girl(my friend)was sittin in the kitchen talkin to me,and i asked sbout lester.wellshe told me she aint seen him in five weeks,and nobodys seen him,and his missing.well,that really bothered me.so me and my sis went back to her crib.we chilled down stairs,and was talkin bout sum stuff.she told me the reason she didnt never like her bros girl was bc of me.i asked how,and she told me bc i was tellin her that she was fuckin with more than 1 dude&writin her bro still&all this other shit.whitch is true.but the only reason i told her was bc her bro needed to know,and i wasnt about to be bogus.but know that i know whats been going on it seems i got played.she told them that she was tellin me all this shit to see how much id tell.and my sis is mad at me for this?its all really fucked up.well i got to go its late and i have to be home at 6:30a.m.
L a t e r z

problems my way
ok,so my mom gets paid &blows her whole check on bingo!!she didnt pay any bills,nothing.then today she goes out to eat,&it really upset me b/c she didnt bother to buy grocerys,and the only thing she acked me was 'are these towels clean?' she didnt even bother askin me if i wanted to go.by the time i wake up shes gone,and i had no idea where the hell she went,so i took my shower&when she got there all she did was sit on her a$$ and play nintendo.then shes tellin me how they went out to eat.i got so mad,and told her she was in considerate.she got pissed off at me,so i went to my room,and couldnt stop crying,i put my pillow over my head and was screaming into it.then when i had calmed down a little i finished doing my laundry,started cleaning up&got ready for my sisters 17th birthday party.we got to her house,and the first thing i did was go get a glass of vodka&coke.she finally left,and we sat inside and danced,&drank.it was fun.then(as usual)a fight had to break out&the police got called,and everybody left,&we had to stop drinking.we still had fun.we chilled downstairs,and played truth or dare,i never,and we talked alot.when the last few people passed out,me and my girl "mego"sat up and talkeed till like 4a.m!well i gots to go,but i'll holla later.
laterz

not much to it today
i stayed up all night,and didnt go to bed untill 7:30am!finally fell asleep,and at like 12pm,my sis rolls in and wakes me up so i can go with her to get her nails done.we drove clear to argenta,and left at like 2:30 pm.got back to decatur,and went to her house.did my make up.my sis and her friend,are getting ready for home-coming now.but i have to go do some make up, so till laterz.

too early in the morning
this morning was my sisters wackyday,so we woke up at 5 am to do her hair and make up.man she looks....scary actually.she poofed her hair in a nappy fro,har make up was alll messed up but now her face is red.her hair is so ratted now!anywayz i holla laterz.

it starts again
today wasn't to eventful.i did the same things i did yestuerday,or any other day for that matter.i did write a new poem though.its called you got me.my mom and i got into another fight again.(not surprising)i cant stand her.she took me out of school to watch her baby,makes me stay at home 24/7,clean,and cook.i'm basically a stay at home mom now!she says she knows what i'm going through,but she has know idea.all she doues is put stress on me.i mean god damn,i'm 16 years old living life as a 30 year old woman.well,i guess what they is true, life isnt fair.oh well.
till laterz