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Poetry...



Thanks to John for the inspiration.

Low Down Dirty Shame
Heartache,
slap in the face.
Low down,
dirty shame.
Took so long
to build everything
before-
before she tore it down.
Low down,
dirty shame.

Just another addiction,
can't live without her.
Someone you run to,
now you've got nowhere to go.

You're dying from your needs,
she's killing you with her wants.
You're holding on to all you want,
she's taking all you need.

Now it's over
and you've got nowhere to go.
What do you have now?

Nothing.

Just your low down dirty shame.

Worthless
You call me worthless,
the bad thing is you meant it.
I'm nothing to you,
just a fuck-up,
that's what I'll always be.

Who says that to their own child?
Your mother is your best friend,
that's what i've heard.
What kind of friend turns their back on you?
Mommy dearest, huh?

Because I didn't make honor roll,
or make it home in time.
I'm not the perfect daughter
that you brag about to your friends.
I should be ashamed.

I fall short of what you want.
Nonetheless, what you expect.
Disgrace...
pathetic...
worthless!
The Crush
I lust for you to hold me,
as if we are meant to be.
To kiss me oh so gently,
would mean the world to me.

You don't even know I exist.
Transparent, you see right through.
You and me together
is just a figment, a figment
of my imagination.

Your sight burns a hole in my heart,
a pain that can't be fixed.
Why do you do this to me?
Why can't I resist?

Your presence throws me into a frenzy.
Stop this internal whirlpool!
Why do I love you so much?
Why don't you feel the same?
I can't help but love you.

Occupying my night visions,
as close as you'll ever be.


Love/Hate
I hate the way you leave me alone,
I love the way you're always there.
I hate the way you ignore me,
I love the way you care.
I hate the way you call my name,
I love the way you look and stare.

hate

I hate the way I'm always right,
I love the way you're always wrong.
I hate the way I'm alone at night,
I love the way you're near at day.
I hate the way I crave your sight,
I love the way you make me hunger it.

love

I hate the way I know you're here,
I love the way I miss you much.
I hate the way I wanted you near,
I love the way I long for your touch.
I hate the way I loved you too much,
I love the way I loved you tough.

I hate the way I love you.

all poems © Ashley • 2001