9:51 p.m.
Well, I guess I am in a better mood today, but I'm still not feeling all that great. I picked Nicky up from the vet this afternoon. His eye is better, but it's still healing. He has to take a lot of medicine. I feel sorry for him, but I'm glad that he is gonna be okay. I feel so stressed out about everything right now. It's aggrivating. Maybe this weekend will be better. Thank God tomorrow is Friday. I'm tired of typing.11:00 p.m.
I am very stressed & pissed today! This morning I got up and my poor baby Nicky's eye was very swollen. Well I went to school anyway hoping it would get a little better while I was at school. When I got home I saw that it wasn't any better and that he couldn't open his eye and it was draining so I took him to the vet. The doc said he had a very bad infection in his eye, throughout his face, and it was traveling to his brain. So I had to leave Nicky at the vet for the night so they can operate on him. They also have to give him lots of shots, and they will have to sedate him while they are operating. I feel so sorry for my baby. I miss him. I've been crying over him all day. I don't know what could happen to him. :o( Everything seems to be falling apart today. I'm so sick of my friends at school treating me like bullsh*t. It's like when I try to talk to Jamie, Becca, and Becky at break they all treat me like I'm stupid or something. Then I feel dumb for even opening my mouth to them. I've tried too hard for too long to be a part of their whole little group and I'm sick of trying cause it's not getting anywhere. I guess I'll never be good enough for them, or for anybody in fact.10:47 p.m.
I'm bored as usual. Just went outside to smoke a cigarette. There is some really weird noises outside. I guess that's just nature for ya. Right now I am sitting here typing this stuff, watching "Friends", and listening to Saves the Day. I guess I'm just multi-talented, huh? I had a blast this Saturday with Catrina. Friday was pretty cool too. Friday I went to McD's and riding around town with Becca, Wade, Becky, and Jason. I felt like a 5th wheel. It was like there was Becca & Wade, and Becky & Jason (two couples), and then just me. But I'm use to feeling like that so ya know, whatever. Saturday was awesome. Me & Cat went to J-Town and splurged and shopped and rode around the strip and stuff. HeHe. It was cool. We went to some awesome stores. Dude, we spent like 8 hours in Jackson. We went to Charlotte's Mystical Web and I bought some incense and an incense holder and some cool rings. I'm really glad I've become friends with Catrina. It's like she totally understands me, I guess that's because she's alot like me! Scary thought, huh? I feel like an outsider half of the time and it's cool cause we totally clicked. It's really weird though how we became friends all of a suddden. Cat's my dawg though. Anyways, we only have 11 school days left! Heck ya! What?! Can't wait to go to Orange Beach this summer and do some partying! I'll be a SENIOR next year! What?! It's about friggin time. I have to clean the kitchen and do some laundry, it's already 11:04 and I don't feel like doing anything today. I'm just in one of those moods today. Is that so wrong? I think not, but mom will think so, so I better get some stuff done.9:41 p.m.
Dang. It's been a long time since I have wrote on this journal. So, I guess it would be nice if I wrote some now, wouldn't it? It would make you happy wouldn't it? Yeah, I thought so. Anyways, I'm kinda pissed right now. I am so tired of all this fuckin drama in my life. It's a bunch of bullshit. (Pardon my french...damn that's a lame saying.) Stephanie was suppose to call me back and she hasn't called me yet. I think she might be mad at me, but that's a whole other story. Let's see...what did I do today? Well, i got up and got ready and went to school. School sucked as always. When I wasn't do lame school work or taking lame tests I was writing a song that I'm working on. I don't think I have enough writing skills. That really sucks! I'm starting to play my guitar again. That's great isn't it? Am I schizophrenic? I feel like I'm talking to myself. Oh well. I probaly am. HeHe. Well, I'm gonna go do some stuff or something. Later.11:21 p.m.
Ugh. I am so sick of dumbass people, and there is just way to many of them.7:18 p.m.
Guess what? It's only 5 months till my birthday. Yay me. Right now I'm just sitting here listening to Smash Mouth and adding stuff to this thing. I had fun last night. Me & Krystal went to Josh and Daniel's house and par-tayed! First we went over there and there were some people there, so we kinda talked to everyone for a little while. Then Krystal wanted to go to Subway and see if someone was working, so we left Josh's and went to Subway but they weren't there. So then we went and picked up Boogie and went back to Josh's. When we got there Paul and them had left, but some other people were there. So then everyone was drinking screwdrivers and throwing back shots of Vodka, and pretty soon Josh, Greg, and the other Josh were passing out. Greg is cute when he's drunk (haha), but Tommy came over when Daniel came home, and I think Tommy looks really good. Anyways, some people were playing PS2 and others were playing XBox while we were blaring Project Pat. I sat and watched Boogie and Krystal play Smackdown on PS2. Krystal wasn't having much luck so I decided to play him and I totally kicked his ass. Well, then we put 4 players on it so Me, Krystal, Tommy, and Boogie were all playing. I ended beating all of them. I'm so good. ;o) I thought that was awesome, since I had never even played a PS2 before. I was suppose to be home at 11:00 and Krystal didn't have to be home till 12:30 and I didn't wanna leave so I just decided to stay at Krystal's house so I got to stay late. But we didn't even get to her house till about 1:00. But, I had a lot of fun last night. Damn, tomorrow is Monday and I don't wanna go to school. Blah. I have play practice tomorrow too. At least I don't have homework, but I probaly wouldn't do it anyways. Thank God for Study Hall. Anywho, I'm tired of typing. Later.10:34 p.m.
I got a new layout! I got a new layout! I got a new layout! HaHa! I'm so awesome! On the flipside, my arm is hurting right now. I don't know why, maybe when my brother was trying to tackle me and I kept falling. But, I redid my website and it looks so much better now. It's not finished yet, but it's still cool. Man, I hate school. It sucks. It eats dirt. Ugh. I hate it. They won't let me change my English and American History classes (I know that's not good subject verb agreement Ms. Bridgewater, but I don't care) because I'm not failing, I'm only passing those classes by like 3 points. The thing is, they are accelerated classes and I only have to have regular. But no, my dumb ass had to sign up for the hard shit for no reason, and now I can't do it and I'm gonna end up failing for the year. Ah. Stepahnie called me today and of course I wasn't home. I really wanna talk to her. I didn't do anything but work on my site today after I got home. I have play practice tommorrow night. I get to dance, and I can't dance! I have toothpaste on the backseat of my car and I can't get it off. I wish I had a sweet ride (or at least a decent one.) Tommorrow we start our second semester and I will have Web Page Design 1st period, and not Desktop Publishing anymore. Maybe I'll learn some stuff that will be useful. Maybe we will learn Java Script (I doubt it) because I really wish I knew how to do Java Script but it's like learning a second language. Hell, I can't even pass Latin 1. Oh well. Gosh, tommorrow is Tuesday. Oh great, another day at HHS (Hell High School.)1:20 a.m.
*Another exerpt from my boring life.* It's been a while since I've added to this. So, I'll just add some now while I'm sitting here working on my site. I think I need a new layout on my site, it looks so childish right now. I talked to Andy last night and he told Stepahnie that I wasn't mad at her or anything so she called me today, but unfortunately I wasn't home. I guess she wanted me to call her back, but she's in Memphis and I don't know the phone number. :o( Anywho, the holiday season went by so fast this year. It seemed like we were barely out of school, and now we are back in and it SUCKS just like always. Christmas was ok, I got a class ring, CDs, money, and stuff; but New Year's was so BORING. Man crazy stuff has been happening lately, you know, weird, off-the-wall stuff. I need to get back into writing poems, I've been slacking mostly because I've been reading my book of poems by Anne Sexton, and not doing much else. I also need to start playing guitar again, but I wanna take lessons and I'm not gonna pay $15 a week and drive to Jackson for a 15 dollar, thirty minute lesson. Oh, by the way, I won the Tori Amos "Boys for Pele" CD for $7.01 off of EBay (yay me).10:12 p.m.
HaPpY TuRkEy DaY!!! Today I got up, cleaned the house, at some turkey, wrote some poems, and fell asleep on the couch.10:59 p.m.
Today was so boring. Just like every other day has been. I didn't go to school today. What else is new? So, obviously all I did was sit around the house all day. (Lazy ass) I woke up with a feeling better, but I had an earache. I have to clean the house all day tomorrow because we are having Thanksgiving at our house. I hate cleaning. Why can't someone else have it at their house? No, they just want to put the misery on me. And to make matters worse, I have to clean my room and do lots of laundry tonight. I asked Mom if I could go to Jackson tomorrow just for a little while before I had to come home and clean, and she said "no" of course. It's no fair. She never lets me do anything. Oh my gosh, something horrible happened today. I saw John (oh, the heartache and misery!) I went to pick up my brother at school today, and of all people, guess who is in the car line in front of me? Yep, you guessed it, John. I started freaking out. Any other day I would have been thrilled to see him, but not today. The bad thing about it was that I looked like sh*t because I didn't change clothes and I didn't take a shower before I left. What was the use? I was just going to pick up my brother. What was even worse was that I was driving my mom's minivan. (Just kill me now) I was just sitting there hoping he wouldn't see me. I don't know if he did or not, but the whole experience was just terrible itself. Well, I guess I'll go clean and do laundry and something...8:52 p.m.
*Yawn* I am so tired right now. I feel like crap. I have been sick since yesterday. My head hurts, I'm aching all over, and I'm dizzy. I didn't go to school today and I don't think I will go tomorrow either. The last thing I need to be doing right now is missing school, but if I go to school it will just make me feel worse. The good thing is we don't have to go Wednesday, Tuesday, or Friday so I will be out all week. I hope I feel better by Thanksgiving. I have a fever. Blah. I can't get warm, I'm freezing, and when I take medicine I burn up. Anyways, enough of my whining. Today was so boring, I basically did nothing. I did get some sleep though. At least I wasn't at school. When I go back to school I will have to make up a Chemistry and Geometry test. Fun, huh? Well, I don't know what else to say. I guess I'll work on the rest of my website or something. Guess that's about all. Well, later.