Welcome to the Black Parade of Blood +
Mood:  loud
Now Playing: with nedu......should this be babblings?
Topic: coolness
slideshow of Blood +

Whoopass
Mood:  chillin'
Now Playing: time to...
Topic: coolness

- Get Your Own

b.O.y.S.
Mood:  chillin'
Now Playing: on rockyou.com
Topic: babblings
boys, boys, boys...
this subject dominates some girls' lives
this subject just reminds some girls of their friends
this subject is not just a subject, its a human
but for me,
this subject just irritates me
so no boys allowed
*do not take personally, if your a guy, u can visit*
sionara!


- Get Your Own

Dart Game!
Mood:  chillin'
Now Playing: play a game...
Topic: coolness
play this flash game.
im luvin rockyou.com

Countdown
Mood:  loud
Now Playing: so very cool...
Topic: coolness
this rockyou.com site is so cool!
heres a cool countdown till next year!

My Bulletin Board
Mood:  hungry
Now Playing: so very tired...
Topic: coolness
This bulletin is soooooo cool....

the_freak_show productions
Mood:  not sure
Now Playing: i still cant figure out what this slot is for anyways
Topic: coolness
my friends and i truly desire to become great cosplayers.
and our inspiration is jack productions.
posted here is one of their great vids.
they truly are great anime fan role models.

hope u enjoy the vid!

Blue Jay Wings
Mood:  hug me
Now Playing: youtube anime
Topic: writings
Your blue wings flutter in the afternoon breeze and,
I want to reach for you
now, never again will I wait for your landing.
Your water blue feathers have fallen from the sky
and I don’t see you anywhere.
You’re not up there, where, where did you go?
Dwilting feathers lay in my hands.
My fingertips are numb, they’re so very hard to feel.
The blue jay flutters in my distant dreams
so far away in the depths of my silk layered thoughts
where’d he fly away? Beneath my blocked away
memories he hides, scared, he’s hiding from me.
I need to clench his little body in my fingers, my hands.
feathers streaming down like rain.
Don’t leave little Jay. Stay where I can see you. I demand you.
Why do I feel like nobody listens? Why does the world seem so hollow?
Everything echoes, everything repeats.
All the sounds, my heavy breathing, the ringing of silence, the…
fluttering of little wings.
I can hear him, see him. That damn blue jay.
Reaching out I grab him, squeeze his little body in the palms of my scrawny hands.
His little rapid heart beating, beating to the extremes.
I can feel myself squeeze the life out of him.
Finally, he isn’t hiding in my dreams, instead he’s in full view.
I can stop looking, I can stop worrying that he’s snooping in my thoughts. I can give up the chase.
Because now he’s dead, and his feathers are rotting in my hands.

Sewed Edges
Mood:  a-ok
Now Playing: on my computer
Topic: writings
Kill me now.
Suck the life right out of me.
The whole essence of my existence is nothing but a
pin, pointed, a tiny thing compared to any needle.
I’ve been waiting, waiting so very long for it.
I’ve been waiting to be lost in the haystack forever.
It’s because they won’t leave me alone.
They won’t shutup.
I don’t want them, want you.
Disappear, disappear, just leave me alone.
Tapping, tapping, stop tapping your fingertips on the desk.
The screeching of marker against whiteboard.
I’m lost in a world that I can’t remember.
Lose me, lost in the mall.
Full of overpriced stores. I want to tear down the
clothes. Rip them to shreds, tear apart a shopaholic’s universe.
I’m alone and I can’t help shivering with silence.
I’m lost in a world of needles and normals.
Scratch my cheeks to scars.
Bloody and scabbed and scarred for life.
All I want is to be the pin in all the needles.
I want to be more real than any of you.
I don’t want my life to be sewed together,
I want to be the one clutching its seams,
just hoping it wont all fall apart.