Mood:  crushed out
Now Playing: Pretty - The cranberries
Topic: I don't know...
I don't know. I just feel nothing, yeah I cry every once and awhile but there's nothing I can feel. Maybe this was it. Maybe we were off by one person. So what does it matter now? Not really...Who knows if any of this matters. I can't believe Monday is Trevor's birthday. Can I be at school for that? Probably not without completely breaking down in front of everyone. And no one will no why. I don't know I need someone right now. I have no one to look to, this is just all so hard. I'm not happy!!

Mood:  crushed out
Now Playing: A Mistake - Fiona Apple
Topic: I don't know...
Right now I feel wieghtless and heavy all at the same time. I don't know. Today was Adam's Birthday, I mean yesterday. And on the 23rd it will be Trevor's. -sigh- I feel really tired maybe due to stress? Probably not. I'm not depressed, just a little spacey now. I'm not crying, well I was again earlier. But it's kind of like all of this it's just so unbelievable. I don't know, it's just one of those normal days. Which I'm not yet entirely used to yet...This is a good song. I guess I'm passing one class right now. Brain was right I am failing life...

Now Playing: The River - Tapping the Vein
Topic: This day is too slow...
yeah...well I'm still not feeling too good. So I didn't go to school today. I'll probably go tomorrow, maybe. I slept in 'til 12:15 today. And I'm still pretty tired...I miss my bf and I don't know. I have a bad feeling, I just feel paranoid I guess, like someone's mad at me for something. People usually are...I don't know maybe I'll just stop writing for now...Nicci, Hi!! I miss you hopefully you've been going to school and everything is alright with dan and you. I hope everyone's having a good day...

Mood:  spacey
Now Playing: Runaway Train - Soul Asylum
Topic: This day is too slow...
I'm so tired today. And I don't know, I miss my bf again like always. I didn't go to school today...again.
I'm so bored. What kind of music do you like?

Mood:  not sure
Now Playing: Why do you love me - Garbage
Topic: I'm getting a new guitar
I wish I had seen my bf today. Just sitting here listening to garbage...I had fun yesterday I guess. I'm so bored lots of homework to do...I hate it