I've never felt so close to someone. Past best friends could never add up to what is felt now. I don't think theres any possible way that I could ever feel this close to anyone anytime soon. Most people go through stuff during friendships. They look back with friends or ex-friends, and rant on about how they've been through so much together. Sometimes they've seriously been through a whole hell of a lot, and sometimes they just think they have because they don't know any better.

I feel sorry, knowing that there's people out there who wake up each morning, and they don't get to say that they have someone. Not "someone" but just someone, someone who's going to be honking at their door every morning, someone who's always willing to pick up their phone and talk. Who at anytime will drop everything that they're doing just to come over because you need someone by your side. I know what it's like to feel that way, but I also know that I'll never have to feel that way again, and that's so reassuring to me. The worst possible thing could happen and I know that I'm not alone.

It's not like finishing eachothers sentences.. it's like, I know what you're gonna say, so I'm not going to say it because I know that you will. And it's like they can start saying a phrase, and you can just stop listening because you know what they're going to say anyway, but you're too good of a friend to not listen. So you listen anyway just in case, but often just find yourself saying the words in your own head as they go along. It's just this comforting feeling everytime they're around. You know you can be yourself to the very extreme, and they won't think of you as a loser, even if you really are, because that's the person they wanted to became friends with.

You can come home and cry to them about a bad date, or just a bad day. No one will ever understand the relationship that's going on here. They'll never understand that the little things are what add up to make it so strong, and the big things just make it even stronger. And that there's little arguments and bickering here and there, but that it's all in good fun, and in the end it was just done to purposely annoy eachother. Nothing horribly bad is ever said, nothing that one of us would even regret in the slightest for a second. Striving off of the emotional roller coaster may not be healthy, but it's what I live for. So it doesn't work for everyone, but it works for us and that's all that matters. In the end, nothing really matters anymore, best friends come before anything else to me, and we know nothings ever going to, or ever could come between us.

"But I cling to you for survival, and I know that you are my bible"