Conversation with Alanna, January 25th, 2002.

DarkPrinceSweden: back. pandabutt1313: gone a whole minute DarkPrinceSweden: wow. DarkPrinceSweden: hey, why exactly haven't you had sex yet? not wanted to? pandabutt1313: i've come close to it.. just kinda nervous u know? DarkPrinceSweden: ah. but you don't want to, right? pandabutt1313: not that i dont want to, i just kinda wanna wait DarkPrinceSweden: i first had sex in sixth grade. DarkPrinceSweden: first time, with a guy. DarkPrinceSweden: weird, huh? pandabutt1313: damn.. okay.. well i've had sex before DarkPrinceSweden: really? pandabutt1313: just dont like to admit it pandabutt1313: yeah DarkPrinceSweden: so..you lied? pandabutt1313: i dont usually count it as having sex.. i dunno how to explain it DarkPrinceSweden: i have all night..try your best. :-P DarkPrinceSweden: to explain, that is. pandabutt1313: okay.. well, i was with this guy, and i gave him head, and we did all this stuff, and he un buttoned my pants and pulled em down, went down on me, and we kidna did, damn, it's like, pandabutt1313: damn.. it's hard, and i feel like an idiot DarkPrinceSweden: don't DarkPrinceSweden: i've done stupid shit. DarkPrinceSweden: really stupid shit. DarkPrinceSweden: i'll share, if you finis.h DarkPrinceSweden: finish* pandabutt1313: alright pandabutt1313: fine.. pandabutt1313: so, he went down on me, and he was in me.. it was only for like 5 min, but, we basically did, and i had to deny it at school, so i do, and i dont count it DarkPrinceSweden: i see. did he come in you? pandabutt1313: no no, i made him pull out DarkPrinceSweden: good. DarkPrinceSweden: he didn't have a condom, right? pandabutt1313: no DarkPrinceSweden: i see. pandabutt1313: i wouldnt have cared if there was a condom DarkPrinceSweden: before i was all smart and edumicated.. pandabutt1313: if u dont wanna say dont worry DarkPrinceSweden: i was kind of in a weird mood, and (god only knows how it happened) my friend that i had been friends with since i was 1 and a half DarkPrinceSweden: and i DarkPrinceSweden: decided to experiment. DarkPrinceSweden: it just kinda happened. DarkPrinceSweden: and..i ended up enjoying it. DarkPrinceSweden: he had a big dick. DarkPrinceSweden: damn. i hate it when there's people who mature faster than me. DarkPrinceSweden: i feel all left behind and shit. DarkPrinceSweden: and i wish i were thin. DarkPrinceSweden: bleargh. pandabutt1313: yeah, gurls do it to, i remember when i was younger i did that DarkPrinceSweden: but..enough of that. pandabutt1313: so do i DarkPrinceSweden: no, but since then i've done it more than once. DarkPrinceSweden: and liked it. DarkPrinceSweden: i just..like guys. i dunno why. DarkPrinceSweden: it's just the way things are. DarkPrinceSweden: i haven't really talked to him in a long tim.e DarkPrinceSweden: time* pandabutt1313: but like.. yeah, that's alright, i dont care, i mean i dont know why people freak about that shit DarkPrinceSweden: i know. it's so..annoying. DarkPrinceSweden: most people, especially at my school, are extremely accepting DarkPrinceSweden: we have two gay guys, a few bi guys, and like..six bi girls. pandabutt1313: well, here's my question, and dont worry if its like.. dumb,.. DarkPrinceSweden: i'll take questions. pandabutt1313: how big is ur dick pandabutt1313: aha DarkPrinceSweden: hrmm.. pandabutt1313: i win for dumbest question DarkPrinceSweden: no. i do. how big is yours? pandabutt1313: lol DarkPrinceSweden: does it matter to you? pandabutt1313: okay u win pandabutt1313: no not at all, i've seen small pandabutt1313: believe me.. pandabutt1313: and big pandabutt1313: damn DarkPrinceSweden: i think it's small. i hate it. it pisses me off. don't tell anyone. it's not TRULY small. DarkPrinceSweden: i just hate myself. pandabutt1313: dont say that pandabutt1313: cuz i like u DarkPrinceSweden: because i know i could fix the problem. if i were thin pandabutt1313: and u know it DarkPrinceSweden: yes pandabutt1313: dont think that DarkPrinceSweden: but that's the main thing that makes me feel good DarkPrinceSweden: to have someone DarkPrinceSweden: i feel like i'm suddenly complete DarkPrinceSweden: no longer just a broken half DarkPrinceSweden: i've had my share of sex with girls, too pandabutt1313: see, there goes the butterflies again DarkPrinceSweden: hehe. DarkPrinceSweden: i'm so happy i can do that for you. pandabutt1313: lol pandabutt1313: i am to DarkPrinceSweden: have other guys done that? pandabutt1313: no DarkPrinceSweden: O_O DarkPrinceSweden: <-- is amazed. pandabutt1313: :-) DarkPrinceSweden: :-):-P;-) DarkPrinceSweden: :-DO:-) DarkPrinceSweden: :-! pandabutt1313: foot in ur mouth DarkPrinceSweden: ? pandabutt1313: that's what it is pandabutt1313: :-! DarkPrinceSweden: hehe pandabutt1313: that's foot in ur mouth DarkPrinceSweden: it looks like a guy with a moustache. pandabutt1313: lol pandabutt1313: u have any other questions?? DarkPrinceSweden: :-!wow. you're right. DarkPrinceSweden: not really. pandabutt1313: cool DarkPrinceSweden: do you masturbate a lot? or a little? pandabutt1313: medium DarkPrinceSweden: ah. pandabutt1313: like, not ever day, but not once a year pandabutt1313: lol DarkPrinceSweden: haha. a week? pandabutt1313: maybe... 2 times a week DarkPrinceSweden: hee. DarkPrinceSweden: that's like me. DarkPrinceSweden: do YOU have any questions/ DarkPrinceSweden: ? DarkPrinceSweden: i LOVE being asked questions. DarkPrinceSweden: dunno why/ DarkPrinceSweden: why* pandabutt1313: i know.. their fun DarkPrinceSweden: hehe DarkPrinceSweden: that's why i like truth or dare. i always pick truth. DarkPrinceSweden: oh..one more question. did you like the sex? would you do it again? pandabutt1313: okay.. hmm... what do you wanna do together like saturday or whatever...? what do u wanna do, forget what i think pandabutt1313: yeah pandabutt1313: it was great DarkPrinceSweden: for only 5 minutes? and then he came? pandabutt1313: well, i gave him head, a hand job, he fingered me.. and no.. afterwards i still did more stuff with him DarkPrinceSweden: ah. pandabutt1313: i didn't bust for a while DarkPrinceSweden: nevermind. pandabutt1313: *he DarkPrinceSweden: really? you go pretty long? DarkPrinceSweden: ah. but..you go pretty long? pandabutt1313: yeah yeah DarkPrinceSweden: heh. i hate it when guys come really fast. i had a time where i was with this one girl DarkPrinceSweden: who A) never tired, B) never stopped, and C) never came DarkPrinceSweden: so i can go 45 minutes, about max. DarkPrinceSweden: and she said i was of decent size. i'm not really small. DarkPrinceSweden: so..back to your question.. DarkPrinceSweden: you like it fast, right? DarkPrinceSweden: i don't want to push you DarkPrinceSweden: i want what you want pandabutt1313: mmm.. vary it, you know.. start slow.. go faster.. slow down DarkPrinceSweden: mm-hmm. DarkPrinceSweden: i see how it is. alrighty pandabutt1313: yeah pandabutt1313: i'm not plannin on havin sex for a while though DarkPrinceSweden: did you like it when he gave yo head? DarkPrinceSweden: I KNOW! me either. DarkPrinceSweden: i've had enough for now/ DarkPrinceSweden: dammit! enough for now.* DarkPrinceSweden: gave you* pandabutt1313: he didn't eat me out.. i gave him head DarkPrinceSweden: i thought you said he did. pandabutt1313: i sucked his dick DarkPrinceSweden: yes, yes. pandabutt1313: i haven't been eaten out DarkPrinceSweden: ah. pandabutt1313: but i've done everything else DarkPrinceSweden: try something new sometime? pandabutt1313: maybe, maybe pandabutt1313: dont wanna get carried away DarkPrinceSweden: i know. DarkPrinceSweden: my problem with my dick is..it doesn't show the full entirity of it, because i am not thin. DarkPrinceSweden: so it looks smaller than it is. DarkPrinceSweden: and that's one thing i hate. pandabutt1313: dont think about it like that, u need to be more optimistic DarkPrinceSweden: haha DarkPrinceSweden: you don't care, do you? pandabutt1313: about what? DarkPrinceSweden: size? pandabutt1313: no DarkPrinceSweden: Z? pandabutt1313: i've seen everything DarkPrinceSweden: me too pandabutt1313: lol pandabutt1313: we should start a club DarkPrinceSweden: seen-everything club? pandabutt1313: well.. i haven't seen everything DarkPrinceSweden: i dunno..i've missed deformities. DarkPrinceSweden: me either. DarkPrinceSweden: hehe DarkPrinceSweden: i haven't seen discoloured stains, or bent penises..lol pandabutt1313: but.. damn, i have seen one guy, i swear, like 2 inches DarkPrinceSweden: or retarded penises. pandabutt1313: i've seen crooked dicks DarkPrinceSweden: HAHAHAHAHA! DarkPrinceSweden: some guys curve up DarkPrinceSweden: others don't pandabutt1313: yeah pandabutt1313: gross shit DarkPrinceSweden: i dunno. i wouldn't be bi if i didn't like dick. pandabutt1313: no, crooked dick DarkPrinceSweden: oh. ew. DarkPrinceSweden: one great thing DarkPrinceSweden: we can talk about guys together. pandabutt1313: lol pandabutt1313: yeah pandabutt1313: i'll be afraid you'll ditch me for them DarkPrinceSweden: that's why that one girl called me "the girlfriend [she] never had" pandabutt1313: ya DarkPrinceSweden: no. most guys don't find me appealing. DarkPrinceSweden: and.. DarkPrinceSweden: god damn. i like you too much. DarkPrinceSweden: but i think we should agree, we can experiment a little outside the relationship, given the opportunity? pandabutt1313: yeah yeah DarkPrinceSweden: my friend goes with this one girl DarkPrinceSweden: and she's all like "you can fuck whoever you want, just remember we're together, and i love you" DarkPrinceSweden: he touches no one else DarkPrinceSweden: actually, that's the guy whose dick you saw pandabutt1313: woah pandabutt1313: lol DarkPrinceSweden: hehe pandabutt1313: that's really cool DarkPrinceSweden: yes. DarkPrinceSweden: it is. pandabutt1313: that'll be our thing DarkPrinceSweden: they're really close. DarkPrinceSweden: alright. i won't care what you do with other guys pandabutt1313: i wont care what u do with other guys either pandabutt1313: lol DarkPrinceSweden: alright, then. pandabutt1313: girls, now that's another thing DarkPrinceSweden: it's settled. pandabutt1313: lol DarkPrinceSweden: i couldn't get a girl if i tried DarkPrinceSweden: 'cept you. pandabutt1313: you got me pandabutt1313: lol DarkPrinceSweden: 'cause you're cool DarkPrinceSweden: they just don't know what they're missin' pandabutt1313: lol pandabutt1313: yeah pandabutt1313: damn right DarkPrinceSweden: neither do the guys who don't go after you. DarkPrinceSweden: they're probably all gay. pandabutt1313: tell me if u are doing something with someone though, please DarkPrinceSweden: ...whoa. that would be to my advantage..hehe pandabutt1313: lol DarkPrinceSweden: i won't, trust me. DarkPrinceSweden: but if i do decide to, i'll tell you. pandabutt1313: we could make this a team effort DarkPrinceSweden: for what? DarkPrinceSweden: to get more guys and still stay together? pandabutt1313: nevermind DarkPrinceSweden: ::is wickedly confused:: pandabutt1313: ::is always confused:: DarkPrinceSweden: lol DarkPrinceSweden: you like to jump to second base, or stay on first base? DarkPrinceSweden: or DarkPrinceSweden: would you like to jump to second base, or stay on first base? DarkPrinceSweden: saturday? DarkPrinceSweden: frankly, i don't care. DarkPrinceSweden: just so long as i can be with you. pandabutt1313: i usually do both, but go to 2nd first DarkPrinceSweden: hehe, tell me how that's supposed to work? pandabutt1313: just like sit around, go to second, then make out DarkPrinceSweden: i never did second. is that, like, hands in pants, or outside? pandabutt1313: down the shirt pandabutt1313: buddy pandabutt1313: lol DarkPrinceSweden: or up. pandabutt1313: yeah pandabutt1313: either way DarkPrinceSweden: hehe. you go both ways. pandabutt1313: lol DarkPrinceSweden: for lack of something less cliché, i want to say pandabutt1313: go on ahead DarkPrinceSweden: i love you. but i don't know if it's meaningful enough. pandabutt1313: i love you too pandabutt1313: seriously DarkPrinceSweden: ::shit..butterflies:: pandabutt1313: yeah pandabutt1313: damn butterflies DarkPrinceSweden: now, if i were there, we'd make out. pandabutt1313: yeah DarkPrinceSweden: lol pandabutt1313: definently pandabutt1313: lol DarkPrinceSweden: wow. we've talked about some seriously personal shit tonight. pandabutt1313: yeah pandabutt1313: cool pandabutt1313: lol DarkPrinceSweden: want to keep talking? i love talking with you DarkPrinceSweden: most people i despise talking with. pandabutt1313: i love talking DarkPrinceSweden: especially if i'm repeating myself. pandabutt1313: in general, pandabutt1313: but with you it's special DarkPrinceSweden: but with you DarkPrinceSweden: i feel comfortable DarkPrinceSweden: normally, i can't talk to girls without A) blushing, or B) not being able to look at their face DarkPrinceSweden: but..i dunno. i'm a little more comfortable with you. DarkPrinceSweden: ::stupid butterflies:: pandabutt1313: that's why it's easier online DarkPrinceSweden: yes it is. DarkPrinceSweden: thank you for using instant messenger. DarkPrinceSweden: lol pandabutt1313: i'm happy to, my pleasure DarkPrinceSweden: nothing would have happened, perhaps. DarkPrinceSweden: unless you had told mike you liked me pandabutt1313: lol DarkPrinceSweden: which i doubt you would have pandabutt1313: i woulda toldu, i was gonna tell u on the fone DarkPrinceSweden: and so, ultimately, unless i called you again, we'd never have talked. pandabutt1313: when u were at mikes DarkPrinceSweden: really? DarkPrinceSweden: really? that fucking rules. pandabutt1313: ya DarkPrinceSweden: did you get butterflies on the phone? pandabutt1313: yeah pandabutt1313: i have the stupidest grin on my face DarkPrinceSweden: is that why you say you're boring? because you're really just too scared to talk straight? DarkPrinceSweden: so you make idle chat on the phone? DarkPrinceSweden: hehe. DarkPrinceSweden: when i talked to you, i actually sensed something. pandabutt1313: lol pandabutt1313: me too DarkPrinceSweden: i sensed that it wasn't the same person exactly as i had talked to at the party pandabutt1313: maybe i was drugged, pandabutt1313: oh, i didn't take my add medicine at the party DarkPrinceSweden: that night or at the party? DarkPrinceSweden: SO? add is a fucking phenomena. DarkPrinceSweden: god. i could SO rant about add pandabutt1313: ive got adhd pandabutt1313: actually DarkPrinceSweden: fuckers. stupid assed bastard whore masters handing out blue and yellow pills. DarkPrinceSweden: no, you don't. DarkPrinceSweden: you're a normal person DarkPrinceSweden: EVERYONE has ADHD, according to THEM DarkPrinceSweden: i was 'depressed' pandabutt1313: i take prozac pandabutt1313: i'm clinically depressed DarkPrinceSweden: i became suspiciouis when the doctor was like "huh. this is the fouth kid today with the same thing: DarkPrinceSweden: " DarkPrinceSweden: there aren't THAT many people like that. DarkPrinceSweden: you need to realize DarkPrinceSweden: you don't need that shit. DarkPrinceSweden: it's a placebo. DarkPrinceSweden: it's inside you DarkPrinceSweden: man DarkPrinceSweden: shit. pandabutt1313: i know pandabutt1313: it just helps DarkPrinceSweden: being "depressed" is part of the release of fucking chemicals in your body DarkPrinceSweden: that happens NATURALLY in the teen years DarkPrinceSweden: however pandabutt1313: some is more severe DarkPrinceSweden: i will make the valid point that in the later years of your life, that should come into balance DarkPrinceSweden: but some people mature faster than others, yes? pandabutt1313: definently DarkPrinceSweden: people are different; there is no need for all these people making a monopoly out of normal human functions. pandabutt1313: during the teen years some become more depressed than others and troubles were magnified DarkPrinceSweden: that's why i walked to my doctors office to tell him "fuck this shit. i'm not taking any more fucking placebos. you can keep your pills and your prescriptions, and don't you EVER try to contact me again." DarkPrinceSweden: this is also true DarkPrinceSweden: some people are different DarkPrinceSweden: but it's still NORMAL DarkPrinceSweden: have you noticed pandabutt1313: yeah yeah DarkPrinceSweden: that there are perfectly fine people in other countries DarkPrinceSweden: who by our standards would be depressed DarkPrinceSweden: and have lived JUST FINE without meds? pandabutt1313: but like.. i'm lucky i haven't killed myself, and i dont know what it has to do with DarkPrinceSweden: jesus. that's my pill/placebo/depression/adhd rant pandabutt1313: so fuck the system pandabutt1313: lol DarkPrinceSweden: lol DarkPrinceSweden: please..make the promise i made you DarkPrinceSweden: do not kill yourself. pandabutt1313: i will pandabutt1313: i wont kill myself DarkPrinceSweden: to me, you're kind of more or less what's keeping me alive. pandabutt1313: damn butterflies pandabutt1313: lol DarkPrinceSweden: i think you should just pretend to take your meds. your mom can't tell if you take them or not. DarkPrinceSweden: just take them from her and throw 'em out. DarkPrinceSweden: it's BULLSHIT DarkPrinceSweden: but..it's also YOUR perogative. your choice pandabutt1313: nah, i'm just gonna keep taking em, i mean, it's not like i spend my money to buy them DarkPrinceSweden: hehe, butterflies indeed. DarkPrinceSweden: that's a valid point, as well DarkPrinceSweden: but they made me fat. DarkPrinceSweden: i'm not lying DarkPrinceSweden: they increased my appetite AND slowed my metabolism DarkPrinceSweden: so in the end they fucked me over DarkPrinceSweden: i used to be hella-thin DarkPrinceSweden: liike..jeff thin pandabutt1313: ew... DarkPrinceSweden: or skinnier DarkPrinceSweden: i WAS a rail. a picket fence. DarkPrinceSweden: wait..jeff's thin, right? pandabutt1313: i dont like really skinny people pandabutt1313: yeah DarkPrinceSweden: hehe..i might be remembering wrong. DarkPrinceSweden: yeah, well..i liked it. DarkPrinceSweden: but i dunno. maybe it's just that i'm sick of ridicule pandabutt1313: fuck it.. screw everyone else DarkPrinceSweden: i get made fun of for liking guys, (although only online), and for being fat (although only in live) DarkPrinceSweden: yeah, zen master for you. DarkPrinceSweden: that's what it boils down to DarkPrinceSweden: i never care anymore pandabutt1313: y for me? DarkPrinceSweden: i just retort to them something that points out their flaws. DarkPrinceSweden: you know what i mean pandabutt1313: lol DarkPrinceSweden: shit i'm tired. pandabutt1313: me too DarkPrinceSweden: screen is blurry. DarkPrinceSweden: i want to stay..but i'm sure you want to go pandabutt1313: u can go if u want DarkPrinceSweden: the main thing i like to do DarkPrinceSweden: is just lie down (with clothes on OR off..hehe) and just get real close DarkPrinceSweden: and rest. or sleep. DarkPrinceSweden: nah, i don't want to. if YOU do, you can. DarkPrinceSweden: I don't want to. pandabutt1313: i'm staying DarkPrinceSweden: when you do, i'll go up and read, and then sleep. DarkPrinceSweden: wow..we're both really stubborn pandabutt1313: yeah pandabutt1313: were a bunch of jackasses DarkPrinceSweden: :-D DarkPrinceSweden: fuck. DarkPrinceSweden: :-D pandabutt1313: huh? pandabutt1313: lol DarkPrinceSweden: there we go. DarkPrinceSweden: i hate that little one. DarkPrinceSweden: he looks like a lemon oreo DarkPrinceSweden: my conversation with joanna just now: jojocole: she seemed nervous DarkPrinceSweden: about what? me? or you? jojocole: she reminds me of you DarkPrinceSweden: she is almost exactly like me. DarkPrinceSweden: i have noticed the insane similarities. DarkPrinceSweden: i asked her what she thought of you DarkPrinceSweden: that's what she said. pandabutt1313: hehe, we are insanely alike DarkPrinceSweden: O.o DarkPrinceSweden: soul mates, perhaps? DarkPrinceSweden: ....? DarkPrinceSweden: hello-o? pandabutt1313: probably DarkPrinceSweden: hehe. pandabutt1313: lol DarkPrinceSweden: where'd ya go? pandabutt1313: damn solitare DarkPrinceSweden: have you won yet? DarkPrinceSweden: joanna said you seemed nervous. are you? pandabutt1313: nah DarkPrinceSweden: i think you are. butterflies..butterflies.. pandabutt1313: didn't mean to be if i was pandabutt1313: yeah pandabutt1313: all ur fault DarkPrinceSweden: hehe. DarkPrinceSweden: :-( pandabutt1313: damn u and be and nice a sweet pandabutt1313: damn, why the hell aren't you here!?!?!?! DarkPrinceSweden: what? what a weird phrase. DarkPrinceSweden: because..i'm..here. DarkPrinceSweden: and i don't discuss existentialism after midnight. pandabutt1313: with me DarkPrinceSweden: :-D DarkPrinceSweden: i'd rather be with you than any other place in the world pandabutt1313: i would rather be with you too pandabutt1313: damn butterflies pandabutt1313: i am about to cry, because i kind of realized that i found someone that knows how i feel and who is really truely great. thank you, paul.. thanks for ever calling me in the first plaec DarkPrinceSweden: ::sob:: DarkPrinceSweden: dude, i cry really easily. thank you for pointing that out DarkPrinceSweden: ::tears;: pandabutt1313: no DarkPrinceSweden: no pandabutt1313: i dunno pandabutt1313: being random DarkPrinceSweden: i'll join in. DarkPrinceSweden: basketball. DarkPrinceSweden: let's just say one random word that comes to mind at a time DarkPrinceSweden: that's hella-fun pandabutt1313: okay pandabutt1313: panda DarkPrinceSweden: butt pandabutt1313: orange DarkPrinceSweden: holy shit DarkPrinceSweden: that's what i was thinking pandabutt1313: ha DarkPrinceSweden: i bet that'll happen a lot. pandabutt1313: shit, we shouldn't play this game DarkPrinceSweden: let's start agian. DarkPrinceSweden: again. pandabutt1313: ok pandabutt1313: lemonade DarkPrinceSweden: pizza pandabutt1313: the hulk DarkPrinceSweden: telephone pandabutt1313: crystal DarkPrinceSweden: middle toe pandabutt1313: david DarkPrinceSweden: no! YOU DID IT AGAIN! pandabutt1313: what DarkPrinceSweden: who do you know named david? pandabutt1313: lol DarkPrinceSweden: that's what i was thinking. pandabutt1313: woah DarkPrinceSweden: what's the david you know's last name? pandabutt1313: hickel DarkPrinceSweden: ah. DarkPrinceSweden: hehe :-D DarkPrinceSweden: whoa DarkPrinceSweden: there's an "alanna.net" pandabutt1313: i'm a book pandabutt1313: it's called alanna of talibon DarkPrinceSweden: hehe DarkPrinceSweden: of talibon? pandabutt1313: no pandabutt1313: shit pandabutt1313: i forget DarkPrinceSweden: hmm.. DarkPrinceSweden: okay.. DarkPrinceSweden: i thought you said "taliban" pandabutt1313: i did, i didn't realize it though pandabutt1313: i didn't mean that DarkPrinceSweden: hey mister taliban, hand over binladen. or we'll come and we'll bomb your ass DarkPrinceSweden: hehehe..good song. DarkPrinceSweden: (sung to the tune of "hey mister tally man") pandabutt1313: got it pandabutt1313: lol DarkPrinceSweden: hehe..it's from SNL pandabutt1313: ur the first guy i think has mademe cry from joy DarkPrinceSweden: i did that? pandabutt1313: yeah DarkPrinceSweden: holy shit. pandabutt1313: maybe i'm just emotional today, but i doubt it DarkPrinceSweden: hehe. DarkPrinceSweden: god i love you pandabutt1313: i love you to DarkPrinceSweden: now you have me crying DarkPrinceSweden: and trying to keep quiet at the same time. pandabutt1313: no no no, you cant cry DarkPrinceSweden: ::can't stop:: DarkPrinceSweden: ::starts laughing through tears:: DarkPrinceSweden: all this started with a phone call. pandabutt1313: i know DarkPrinceSweden: i am amazed O_O DarkPrinceSweden: i never knew this side of me DarkPrinceSweden: but.. DarkPrinceSweden: this side of me is DarkPrinceSweden: ou DarkPrinceSweden: you* DarkPrinceSweden: my emotional side DarkPrinceSweden: my true side pandabutt1313: aw DarkPrinceSweden: that no one ever really sees. DarkPrinceSweden: until you pandabutt1313: i love you so much, we're so alike, but still can learn from one another DarkPrinceSweden: yes, we can. DarkPrinceSweden: joanna pointed out to me DarkPrinceSweden: that i looked especially happy today DarkPrinceSweden: and she says "you seemed to carry yourself taller" DarkPrinceSweden: i can't wait until saturday. pandabutt1313: i probably had a big stupid grin on myself today DarkPrinceSweden: hehe DarkPrinceSweden: i know i do RIGHT NOW pandabutt1313: me too DarkPrinceSweden: how are we going to talk to eachother through ear to ear smiles? DarkPrinceSweden: wait, scratch that. DarkPrinceSweden: no talking. pandabutt1313: lol DarkPrinceSweden: :-D pandabutt1313: we'll be busy pandabutt1313: lol DarkPrinceSweden: yes. DarkPrinceSweden: talking is for internet. DarkPrinceSweden: ..stuff is for saturday. DarkPrinceSweden: lol pandabutt1313: lol DarkPrinceSweden: one thing i just remembered i like, but it's not necessary pandabutt1313: shoot DarkPrinceSweden: i like making out against a wall, where you're against the wall, and you have your legs around me, and i'm pushing you against the wall with myself and kissing you and holding you pandabutt1313: oo.. pandabutt1313: sounds good pandabutt1313: lol DarkPrinceSweden: i love doing that.t DarkPrinceSweden: i don't know why. DarkPrinceSweden: don't be afraid...i might 'poke' you by accident. pandabutt1313: havent done it pandabutt1313: lol DarkPrinceSweden: i'll make sure i wear blue jeans. pandabutt1313: great DarkPrinceSweden: well..god. if i get it up talking to you like this, who knows what'll happen then. pandabutt1313: lol DarkPrinceSweden: want to see something funny? pandabutt1313: sure, why not DarkPrinceSweden: (__)__)================D DarkPrinceSweden: heh. pandabutt1313: good job, DarkPrinceSweden: lmao DarkPrinceSweden: damn it. pandabutt1313: huh DarkPrinceSweden: i wish i had met you earlier DarkPrinceSweden: you would have helped my self esteem. DarkPrinceSweden: i really cut myself open DarkPrinceSweden: no scars, though. i take care of myself. DarkPrinceSweden: i opened this im window at 11:38. right now it's 12:57. DarkPrinceSweden: damn, we have said a lot. pandabutt1313: i just wanna say thanks.... just thanks for asking me out. THanks for being so sweet, never change.. please DarkPrinceSweden: haha, i'll try my best. DarkPrinceSweden: you know, i was about to ask whether it was you really liking me, or you were just desparate, but then you said "pandabutt1313: ur the first guy i think has mademe cry from joy DarkPrinceSweden: " DarkPrinceSweden: and i knew DarkPrinceSweden: you definitely meant every word sincerely. DarkPrinceSweden: i'm sorry i doubted you DarkPrinceSweden: it's just that..i hate myself enough to think that most other people do to DarkPrinceSweden: too* DarkPrinceSweden: and that the just use me when they need me. DarkPrinceSweden: but..i'm sorry i doubted you. DarkPrinceSweden: i truly mean it when i say DarkPrinceSweden: i love you pandabutt1313: paul, i could never ever hate you. never, not even if you.. i dunno, did something really bad, i really do love you, dont ever think i dont DaRkPrINcESWeDEn: i promise, i won't ever doubt you. DaRkPrINcEsWeDEn: god. i want you so bad. pandabutt1313: slow down tiger pandabutt1313: lol DaRkPrINcEsWeDEn: haha. i mean it. DaRkPrINcEsWeDEn: you're too wonderful to be real. DaRkPrINcEsWeDEn: i must know how you do it. pandabutt1313: you are too... dont ever doubt how sweet you are, you could get anyone... just let them know who you really are DaRkPrINcEsWeDEn: i must know how you can be so fantastically amazing. pandabutt1313: same way you do it DaRkPrINcEsWeDEn: it's hard. i've established this whole..cloak around myself. it prevents people from seeing within. DaRkPrINcEsWeDEn: aww DaRkPrINcEsWeDEn: god, making me cry. DaRkPrINcEsWeDEn: jesus. i'm serious..i really cry easily. pandabutt1313: my name's alanna, not god, but you can call me god if u want DaRkPrINcEsWeDEn: alanna, if i did that, it would be sacriledge. DaRkPrINcEsWeDEn: ;-) DaRkPrINcEsWeDEn: ^_-- DaRkPrINcEsWeDEn: as if i care. DaRkPrINcEsWeDEn: i still thank him for you. DaRkPrINcEsWeDEn: for your intervention in my miserable life DaRkPrINcEsWeDEn: i think you could be what turns me around DaRkPrINcEsWeDEn: into the light DaRkPrINcEsWeDEn: so i don't kill myself DaRkPrINcEsWeDEn: and have horrible misery and self pity all the time DaRkPrINcEsWeDEn: you are my saving grace pandabutt1313: you're so sweet, i dont deserve you at all DaRkPrINcEsWeDEn: nay. DaRkPrINcEsWeDEn: it is the other way around. DaRkPrINcEsWeDEn: i am not worthy. DaRkPrINcEsWeDEn: but DaRkPrINcEsWeDEn: i am if you so deem me DaRkPrINcEsWeDEn: which you have pandabutt1313: y wouldn't i? how couldn't i?! you'er absolutely amazing DaRkPrINcEsWeDEn: again, with the flattery DaRkPrINcEsWeDEn: i truly don't deserve such sweet, melodic words. DaRkPrINcEsWeDEn: before pandabutt1313: i can't help it, i'm just a hopeless romantic DaRkPrINcEsWeDEn: i was lost. DaRkPrINcEsWeDEn: but.. DaRkPrINcEsWeDEn: i think i have managed to discover the true me DaRkPrINcEsWeDEn: j'ai me trouvé pandabutt1313: we're both hopeless romantics DaRkPrINcEsWeDEn: haha DaRkPrINcEsWeDEn: no pandabutt1313: on saturday we are going to wind up making out, then crying DaRkPrINcEsWeDEn: we're both in love DaRkPrINcEsWeDEn: en l'amour DaRkPrINcEsWeDEn: haha, yeah. DaRkPrINcEsWeDEn: i'm going to post this conversation on my webpage. it's web restricted; i will let only who i want to see it see it. DaRkPrINcEsWeDEn: so i won't put it on livejournal DaRkPrINcEsWeDEn: because we said some pretty damned private things. pandabutt1313: yeah DaRkPrINcEsWeDEn: i just want to save it. pandabutt1313: me too pandabutt1313: i was telling my friend online, she was saying how it was going to make her cry pandabutt1313: then she wanted the conversation and i was like.... NO DaRkPrINcEsWeDEn: hehehe DaRkPrINcEsWeDEn: i updated my livejournal pandabutt1313: cool DaRkPrINcEsWeDEn: and i updated my profile pandabutt1313: your profile is gonna make me cry again DaRkPrINcEsWeDEn: ::smiles real wide:: DaRkPrINcEsWeDEn: thank you for the comment on LJ DaRkPrINcEsWeDEn: i smile at your livejournal entry. pandabutt1313: i cried at yours DaRkPrINcEsWeDEn: aw, god damn. DaRkPrINcEsWeDEn: this is going to go on forever DaRkPrINcEsWeDEn: ::has huge grin on face;: pandabutt1313: i know..