Nooooooooooooooooooooooooo I'm SICK!!! I caught a cold from who knows where and now I am sick... :( I feel like hell right now and I have no time to sulk about it. Too much to do to few hours in a day... Be back later..

I hate having to try to come up with a new title so I wont I will just type in a bunch of letters from now on... Or the date or something. I feel scatterbrained right now so forgive me. So many things have been going on in my head sometimes its hard to keep track. Today someone asked me to take the step again and be in relationship. But I dont think I can. I really dont think I am strong enough to go through another Nick and Kris... Or Robert and Kristin. To me it is sad that I am 18 and already steering away from relationships... and the dating thing... just scares me. I want to love someone and have someone to share my love with... Not sex or lust but true love. And I am losing more and more faith in it daily.