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WHY? (are people so cruel)
Wednesday, August 31, 2005
Letter To Paul
Topic: I'm Sorry
Sweety
First of all I want to tell you that I love you very much.
I know I haven't been easy to live with these past few days, and I'm so sorry.
I have been feeling so frustrated ever since last thursday. When you came back after taking Douglas to the city and told me that people from his school are now willing to back us 100%. I know I was very sarcastic about it and I'm sorry. I am happy that they are willing to do this. I felt so many emotions and acted negatively,I was so hurt,angry and frustrated that they choose now to finally listen. I know that people who work there and knew what was going on were not being totally honest with the supervisor. I guess you could say I felt, that we have been very betrayed by them,the system and people that were supposed to care about Douglas and his well being. I know that some people didn't want to get involved cause they were or are friends with both u and his mother. The thing that hurts the most about this whole thing is what it's done and doing to this beautiful child, he didn't ask for this shit and shouldn't have to go through it,no child should.
Lastnight when you asked me why I care about what H thinks or says and I told you that it's not what she thinks it's what she does,what she does to Douglas,to you and me. Ya...it's brought us closer and stronger as a couple and a family,but at the same time made me weaker to some degree,and you have had to pick up the slack and that is something that I never wanted to do. You have been so supportive with all that I'm going through and I thank you from the bottom of my heart. I'm so sorry that I pulled back emotionally from Douglas,at the time I didn't know what else to do and felt that by doing that at least H wouldn't get mad at him for being so close to me. I was wrong to do that cause I know that no matter what we do or say,she will never accept the fact that I am his stepmom and that you and Douglas are a very big part of my life for life. I will no longer pull back from him in anyway. I miss being close to him and I know he misses it to. What she is doing is unfair to him and what I did was unfair to him also,at least I can admit when I'm wrong and do what is best for him and give him what he needs,wants and deserves.
I also am not gonna worry about what she says or does when my children are back in my life and the fact that they will also be a part of your and Douglas's life. I just can't believe that it may happen sooner than I ever thought and I feel on top of the world that we are all gonna be a family.
I want to say I love you and thank you for your support,understanding,patience,and your love. Thank you for being you. I love You
Your Loving Angel

Posted by psy/angelsreachingout at 10:57 PM MDT
Updated: Thursday, September 1, 2005 1:01 PM MDT
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Sunday, August 7, 2005

Mood:  a-ok
Today has gone good for me so far.
Paul went to the city on friday to pick up Douglas(my stepson)so right now they are playing crash on the playstation. It's so cute,Douglas is telling his dad what way to go,and he's only three.

Anyway a little about what has been goin on the past little while since Paul wrote... BTW...I think he picked a good name for the blog,since both our ex's Joe#1(my ex) and Joe#2(what we call his ex) are so cruel. We call his ex that cause she is just like my ex Joe, to a T. You will learn alot about them as Paul and I write.

Anyway...Paul and I have started goin to a marriage counceller. I have or should I say we both have a problem with comunication. He is used to handling things on his own. He says he has always been independant and used to taking care of things on his own when it comes to relationships,and that he has not been in a relationship where there was any real comunication,until me. As for myself...I feel very strongly about communication...and I used to alot. Let me guess,your wondering what happened?
My ex Joe is what happened...alot of the time when he didn't like what my kids or I had to say...we would get put down,yelled at, and he would make us feel like crap,or something he would do alot of,hit us.
And I have just started dealing with the abuse from him. So I have a hard time with communication,not all the time,just most of the time.LOL
Paul and I have, like he says"been through hell and back together." I have been his rock and he has been mine. I was given a second chance at life,and at love. So in a way,a very big way, Paul is like my first love..And for him...he says that untill me he has only been in love with and loved so deeply one other person, and she was his high school sweetheart/fiance.(God rest her soul).
So for me,it's an honor twice over to have him in my life.
Peace Out All
Dana





Posted by psy/angelsreachingout at 9:00 PM MDT
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Monday, July 25, 2005
Introduction to our sight.
Mood:  not sure
Topic: introduction
Hi just an introduction to our blog. This is going to be new to us so please bear with us. This is going to be about our lives and dealing with mental health issues on a daily base. This will also be about the problems that we have with our ex's.


Please be patient,
Paul & Dana

Posted by psy/angelsreachingout at 12:57 AM MDT
Updated: Monday, July 25, 2005 1:24 AM MDT
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