losses when they mattered the most has Priscilla-Jasmine
Blake thinking long and hard and it has for an entire
week. What is she even doing here if she cannot
win a match when it really matters? You can pick
off this opponent, that opponent, but when the this or
that opponent is the one to take you to that next level;
incredible matches only get you so far. You have
to be able to take that next step and now PJ Blake is
starting to doubt herself and all because of two
important matches that she lost. She has turned
her phone completely off and she hasn't even opened her
laptop to do more than watch YouTube or do things that
require little to no thought.
who would call and what they would say."
walking down the side walk with a bottle in a brown
paper bag, but the seal still intact. PJ lets out
a sigh of relief after cracking the seal; her head
leaned back and her eyes closed. She brings the
bottle close to her lips, but lowers it back to her side
and opens her eyes; continuing to just walk.
great, kid! You will get them next time!"
always tells me what they think I need to hear.
Everyone always thinking I need to be protected, but I
don't. I understand things. I see the world
for what it is."
she lifts the bagged bottle up and stares at it.
would not be my first bottle in the past week. The
day I lost, the only thing I wanted to do was drift off
and not think about it. The question is, do I
continue to numb myself or do I pick myself up and try
harder next time?"
to walk again, she finds herself stopping not long after
and staring at an empty bench and starts laughing
know what the funniest thing about all of this is?"
stands there, just laughing softly for a few moments.
Marisol and Nicole met me backstage and told me 'just
give us the word'. So guess what that means?"
out another sigh, PJ turns on the tips of her toes and
lowers herself to sit on the empty bench. She
holds the bagged bottle in both hands, sliding one up
towards the cap.
breaking down or showing strength?"
shrugs her shoulders.
I don't care and I really don't like wallowing, but here
I sit because sometimes it just needs to happen.
Sometimes I just have these moments where I feel so much
is being bottled up that if I do not vent, talk about
it, I will explode in the exact wrong way."
and then sets the bottle next to the bench and rests her
elbows on her knees.
into my eyes, each and every last one of you."
staring straight forward; unblinking.
look like I am going anywhere? Do I look like I am
going to give up? No, I do not, because no, I am
not. I am still here. I will always be here.
There are ups and there are downs, but I will always get
up and be ready for the next show, the next match, the
next autograph session. So do not for one second
think there is any opportunity to had because I am
having a low moment. My matches with Silas and JC
were incredible and I sent a message to everyone on the
roster. They will never admit this, but they know
how capable I am in that ring and they were lucky to be
the ones with their hands raised because there were
times things could have swung my way and it would have
been my hand raised. I would be the one standing
tall as the winner."
again, she lets out a sigh.
"Incredible matches will only get you so far, however.
Now I am left with no other options. The easy road
passed and now it is all uphill if I am to stay in the
Alpha/Omega Tournament, but guess what everyone?"
cracks a smile.
the feeling when some people start to back way out of my
camp because they have that thought 'it will not
happen', because that is when things get real good."
back and slaps her knees. PJ stands up and picks
up the bagged bottle; continuing to walk down the
that brings things to you. I don't know you and
honestly I am not exactly in the mood to spout
pleasantries. Both of us have the same motivation.
You and I both do not want knocked out of this
tournament. We need this victory to stay alive."
pulling off the cap, PJ holds up the bagged bottle up;
no longer walking.
to us, Ataxia, because here we are on our last leg.
Here we are ready to go head-to-head to simply catch
that last breath. You have people and I have
people pulling away from our camp and siding with those
who remain, but what we do to each other in the name of
desperation and final measures is going to have them
flocking back to us. The one thing both of us will
be able to say is this match was a blockbuster, but only
one of us will be able to call ourselves the clear
the bottle and takes a long drink then wipes her mouth
with her other hand.
be bringing everything I have. You will see me for
who I am and no that does not mean I took Marisol and
Nicole up on their combined offer to involve themselves.
This hast to be me and you. When I defeat you
after the two of us go head-to-head and leave nothing
left... it has to be me. If you think you have
seen the best of me... PA---LEASE! I am only
getting better each and every week and I will keep
getting better. So Ataxia, the two of us... how
about it? Let's go all out one more week and prove
we still belong in this company? You throw
everything you got at me and I promise to pull out that
little bit extra than you and blow the roof off the
building? See you at the Vivint Smart Home Arena!"
again PJ Blake holds up the bagged bottle with a smile
on her face.
to us... let's knock it out of the park!"
lowers the bagged bottle and takes another drink.