I try to glance past my feelings, squashing my heart to avoid my inner feelings. I don’t want to lose what we have; I don’t want to gamble with love. Love is a risky business, though I’ve never experienced it, love seems to be powerful in many directions. I’ve heard all about it, I’ve seen it through your eyes; I see it when I watch Disney movies. I only wish dreams do come true and people live happily ever after, but that’s all a lie, especially if you’re a coward like me. I rather live with a plump red heart, than die from a broken heart. It may be a shame, but risks are not in my vocabulary, nor in the same sentence. It’s pure and simple…I’m a coward. I’m afraid of rejection, afraid of pain and defiantly afraid of lost friendship. I just might have a phobia with dating; I just might have a phobia with us.Back Home 12-17-03 Ashley Lauer
