Let My Feelings Subside

I’ve done some thinking; it took me a while,
but I figured out, figured out what I want.

Not exactly, but it’ll have to suffice,
because the other possibility is highly unlikely.

Though I wish we can be more than friends
I doubt that wish will ever become reality

It’s alright though; I’m used to liking guys
who don’t like me
I’d rather be your homie
Than being your worst enemy
(I couldn’t hate you anyways
Cuz I love hanging with you
And laughing with you
And doing nothing with you)

I love having friends
if you think about it
Friends never leave, but boyfriends do
(At least that’s what I’ve seen)

It’s hard to lose a friendship
Especially because of some stupid feelings
What are feelings anyways?
They just ruin everything

If I’d wish anything
It’s for these feelings to subside
They can be so irritating
Especially if you’re trying to do the opposite

I think I know what I want
But than again I don’t
Friends is the righter way
But uncertainty knocks at my door

I don’t want to live with regrets
They always leave you wondering
I guess I’ll have to be stronger
And let these feelings subside

12-18-03 Ashley Lauer

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