Hallucination

I’m squashed in my pillow.
Water penetrates within the cotton cover.
My heart melts away,
weakness takes over,
trembling at the thought.

Memories fill my mind,
it only makes matters worse.
I grab my white teddy
clinging for my own dear life.

My room disappears,
I’m floating into a memory.
Imagining your face
and feeling your embrace.

I slip into hallucinations.
I see you grace on by;
my soul begins to rise.

I race towards you
In slowmo, but I just need ammo;
for the gun in my hand,
but it’s really just a fan,

in my hallucination.

I begin to shake,
it must be an earthquake.
You run the other way,
“poof” you’re gone

I see my mom rocking me,
It’s gonna be okay
If only I had Alzheimer
maybe I could forget

All that haunts me
is past regrets
All that haunts me
is your death

in my hallucination.

12-27-03 Ashley Lauer

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