My Rage

Rage feeling inside

can't let go, this feeling inside

what to do about this

want it all and can't get shit

all is for nothing

keep trying

unsuccessfull

feelings in a rage

anger emerges what to do

music barely soothes the soul

a temperay fix

compassion the only cure

so far out of reach

in grasp

then slips away

Frustration within

soul screams with desire

desire whinning full of lacking

endorphines flowing unfullfilled

what to do what to do what to do what to do

Want to act out anger

Want to act out rage

Consencious in the way, too strong

right from wrong knowing the two well

gets in the way

soul wants rage

in the way

Rant is another cure

Rant rant rant

Thoughts racing through highways of the mind

Thoughts feeding rage and frustration

Thoughts leeds to insanity

feeling of pain in depths of soul

pain

rage rids pain

only a temperary fix

feeling of ripping feeling out of soul

rid of pain

tears flow no help to me

guilt of others is what feeds

hate guilt subconsious loves

things can't be explained

frustration leads again

suicide far from any options

enters mind and is laughed at

stronger than life

stronger than what feeds

breeds within

may describe as monster

get away

rage feeds frustration bleeds

things needed to get away

what to do what to do

about this feeling inside

the feeling that burns in pain

the feeling that burns in desire

the feeling that lacks love

so close but so far away

pain is needed to survive

pointless actions for temporay fix

all is for nothing

no gain only temporary

once compassin is gone

where to find

more pain

what to do

more pain

once again in a hole

a hole dugg byself

stepping into boundries

known of pain

walked in

slashed down

frustration, rage, desire

pain sets in

seperation of world

begins new world

of insanity?

of pain?

things known once again

stepped in the pain

knowingly

risked it all

lost it all

risk is life

pain is loosing it all

life of recovery

recovery of pain

rant, rage a way of life

thoughts in mind getting away

slipping out of speaking

minds not to hear

thoughts not to be shared

understanding is needed

but not wanted

once again pain swims in the soul

feeding off of thoughts

memeries made flood within

feeding pain

over and over

over and over

again

escape

temperory fixes

rage of muscles, rage of thought

paper another temporary fix

fixes mend the soul

another soul steps in

introduces more memeries

introduces more pain

pain not seen by others

held within feeds pain

pain grows strong

what to do

host of memeries leave

memeries burried within

haunting the soul

feeding leftovers to pain

soothing compassion rids all pain

all is forgotten

new world began

compassion leaves soul

new pain introduces

lonliness

fixes set in

memeries flood once again

feelings put on hold

burried away

put in a case far away

deep in soul

filled to brim

time

time is meant to heal

once healed

case emerges open

explosion

anger

rage

pain

a never ending cycle

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Sence of loss, feeling is back, more intense

thoughts of misstrust

what ifs pop into mind

time turns into eternity

are there lies or only truth can truth be handleded or hidden to protect

protection not wanted

if truth brings pain so be it

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What is this depression they speak of

things I felt before I could bring out of

things that the light could always help

now only seclusion is the only cure

but what is pure

nothing i feel, pain grief love pain lust

what to do about emotion, things of life

anger from others of misunderstanding what to do

what to think

who cares when the drink kicks in

drink kills emotion

drink kills emotion of all kinds

music a great healer

sound of others pain

great healer

screams would be just as good

pain of others

some say talking is expression

what about when words bring pain

why do pain upon pain

upon others bring relief and accomplishment

selfish but fullfillment

our nature is hard to understand

but we live it

we do what we hate to despise

for better being of self

we are all selfish

why why why

impression of pain for attention

why

things we do for others apeasal

why

life is many things

selfish

acomplishment

train of thought broken

by beauty

beauty makes us do things

we wouldn't do

unless persuaded

for attention

what drives this

we shall never know

even when I sin

I let them in

with in

feelings ly

why try

feelings inside

become strong

I long

for someone

to let in

yet again

ripped apart

avoidance

lies

why