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Poetry... by me.... Dow.
9/28/95 I long for you to talk to me Our stubborness won't break You're angry at me for something I did For something I wouldn't take.
I'm sorry that my views are different But this is who I am I couldn't help but be angry Because Cookie Monster is a man.
Sometime in 1997 When we say those words, we mean forever. When we dream the future, we mean someday. When we think of each other, we mean one day.
Days pass so fast, with thoughts of you on my mind. Nights pass so quickly, with invisions of being together.
Saying I miss you, means your presence fulfills me. Saying I love you, means I'll be your everything.
Dreaming of the days when we will be together. Dreaming of the nights when you'll be able to hold me tight.
Longing for the afternoons when it will be just you and me. Longing for the moment when we will meet.
Waiting for this time to come, I hold onto my thoughts of love. Waiting for this time to come, I hold onto my thoughts of you.
Sept 1998 Deep dark shadows tower over me Enclosing me in it's dreary being. Reaching for the light That shines so brightly on you For a moment, I was in the light Soon, I disappeared into the lost souls of your existence Forgotten and left with nothing I struggle to regain my presence in the light Where I truly belong My world is spinning I can't recognize my surroundings I wish to see the truth I wish to know where I stand Away from the darkness Away from solitude You've poisoned me Confusion and pain tear through my veins As if you've ripped my heart out Only to see it bleed It bleeds b/c it does not understand It bleeds b/c it does not know where it belongs. Where I belong Lost, have I become Buried deep in the back of your conscious thoughts I long to be somewhere else But you've pushed me I can't exist in your world In your world of true happiness and virtue You close your doors You drown yourself You've immerged yourself beneath all reality You've escaped I can only wander in these thoughts Jumping from cloud to cloud Spinning myself in circles Dancing around these patches Trying not to feel myself slip But I can't feel you Things aren't the same I can't find you What has happened to our world? Our universe we shared? Denying myself the truth I see it has faded to oblivion Denying myself the truth I see it can never be the same Denying myself the truth I see it becoming a fantasy I repress my sorrow and bring out anger In my mind I tear you apart In my heart...bleeding.. you sit and wait In my reality.. you've left me You've left me to fend for myself in this strange place In this place of loneliness In this place of confusion The only place where I have nothing You left... I see the light moving farther from where I stand I'm blinded and sit dumbly in silence Where do i go from here?
11 10 99 Tonite.. I sit alone Tomorrow is another day.
The color of emerald, I swim in these pools of green Drowning in the warmth that I feel When I look into your eyes. Love, I love you With all I have. With all that I ever could give. You are a part of me, as I am a part of you.
October 2, 2001 11:59pm Deaf, to my cries ... I feel you are To everything I have asked of you Blind, to what may come from what is not done. Useless, I feel I am to speak. Silent, I will be blind, too.
10/3/01 1:28am Walking away from a shell I know as my former self. The one that tried, the one that hoped, the one that dreamt. Only wanting one thing for myself, I find I lack meaning.
Empty, reasoning, vanished. The will to be. I'm not sure where that's gone. Thoughts, sinking, trouble. Being stronger. Only... I don't know by how much.
October 31, 2001 I stand outside myself. White, blurry... watery I see it. Nothing. I felt it. Breaking. I had it. Once. I feel it. Broken.
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