Early the next morning, when Kayla woke up, she found herself lying in Nick's arms. Being there felt so perfect. Too perfect. Her stomach started to do somersaults when she realized that she had actually had sex with someone, and furthermore, that she had actually had sex with Nick. This was not good.
What kind of a hypocrite am I? she wondered silently, carefully pulling her arms from around him. I got all mad and dumped Scott when he wanted to get in my pants, and then when Nick wanted to, I just went right ahead and let him. She started to become nervous when she realized that at any moment one of the other guys could come knocking on his door, and instantly find out about what had happened. That would definitely be a bad thing, because once one of them found out, it wouldn't be long before everyone found out, and she definitely didn't want that.
Kayla sat up with the intention of leaving, pulling the sheets around her body, and paused when she saw Nick's face. He was smiling in his sleep as he dreamed of God only knew what. A soft smile crossing her own lips, Kayla leaned forward and kissed his forehead softly, half of her hoping that he would wake up and the other half praying that he would not.
He didn't stir. Kayla sighed, feeling slight disappointment, before getting out of bed, getting dressed, and sneaking back down the hall to her own room.
Nick smiled as he slowly awoke that morning. He had been dreaming about Kayla all night, and now he got to wake up next to her. After stretching, he reached over to pull her close to him again, since she had apparently drifted away from him in their sleep. When his arm didn't find her, he stopped and opened his eyes. She had disappeared, along with her clothes. At first, Nick felt slightly dismayed, but after a moment, he shrugged it off. She probably just didn't want anyone to catch us in bed together, he reassured himself. That's all that it means.
Nick couldn't help but grin as he got out of bed and got dressed. Last night had been such an amazing experience. His feelings for her were so intense, and he had been trying for so long to get through to her, but until now, nothing had ever worked. Now, however, she had shared her most intimate side with him, had given up control of her body to him in a way that she had never trusted anyone enough to do before. A content smile was on Nick's face as he pocketed his room key and went out the door. After all this frustration and dissatisfaction, things were finally starting to go right.
Kayla sat up straighter and stopped brushing her hair when she heard knocking on her door. Since she had come back up to her room at around five thirty in the morning, she hadn't been able to get back to sleep. Or to stop thinking about Nick, for that matter. Now it was seven o'clock, still fifteen minutes until regular wake up time, and most of the people on the tour cherished every moment of sleep that they were given. Kayla wondered who would be knocking at this hour, but in the pit of her stomach, she already knew.
Kayla opened the door. Her breath caught in her lungs when she saw Nick standing there.
"Hey," she said uneasily, breaking the awkward silence.
A smile broke across Nick's face when he saw her. "Hey," he replied as he started to put his arms around her and lean in for a kiss.
She backed away from his embrace, removing his hands from her back. "What are you doing?" she asked, even though she knew the answer.
Nick frowned in confusion. "I was...I was gonna kiss you," he said slowly. She had just pushed him away. That wasn't a good sign...
Kayla shut her eyes briefly. "I know that, but why?"
He smiled unsurely. "Because...well, you know, last night," he answered hesitantly.
"Last night? What about last night?" Kayla asked, playing dumb.
"Well, we..." Nick blushed. "You know. I thought that meant that now we're..."
Kayla tried without success to slow her racing heart. "No, I don't think it does," she said softly, hating herself for the pain in his blue eyes.
"What?" Nick asked in pure surprise. "Kayla, I thought this meant something to you."
"I'm sorry, Nicky, but...for me it was more of a physical thing," Kayla said, shaking her head. "I got wrapped up in the moment."
"So you're saying that you don't...have feelings for me?" Nick asked in disbelief. This couldn't be. Not after how hard he had worked for her trust and love. It couldn't happen this way! "No, that's not what I said. Nicky, you're my friend, and I love you, but...I don't feel 'that way' about you," she replied carefully. And she was telling the truth. At least...she thought she was. "I...I'm sorry then. I'm sorry for last night. I misinterpreted it. I thought that you did feel 'that way,'" Nick explained, unable to look at her. "I wouldn't have slept with you if I had known that you don't feel 'that way.'" "Don't apologize. Let's just forget that it ever happened, okay?" Kayla suggested hopefully. Nick shook his head. "I don't think I can do that. Because you know what? I do feel 'that way' about you," he murmured. "You're my whole world, Kayla. You're all I think about, and being with you is all that I want. Please just give me one chance. I know that I could make you happy," he begged, taking her hand and holding it tightly in both of his own. "I'm not like Scott or the other guys you've dated, you said so yourself. If you'll be my girl, I'll listen to you, and make you laugh, and care about you so much, Kayla...I'll do whatever you want me to do. I won't hurt you. And if you trust me and give me your heart, I know we could be so good together," he finished practically in a whisper.
She broke away, hoping that he couldn't see the tears that were forming in her eyes. "I'm sorry, Nicky, but I don't want to ruin the friendship that we already have," she countered, trying to be gentle. "If we broke upó"
"We wouldn't break up," Nick interrupted. "We're meant for each other," he said softly. He tried to take her in his arms again, but she pulled away from him.
"No, Nicky, I'm sorry, but...I just can't...no." She stepped back into the room, and as soon as she closed the door, she leaned against it and broke down in tears.