I would like to tell you what happened between the Lord and me about eight years ago. I was lying on my bed very sick, but I wanted to go to prayer meeting very badly that night. I was praying and worrying about how to get there and wanting so badly to be healed. A thought came into my mind. It was a scripture quotation. The thought was, "My grace is sufficient for thee". Well, I tossed around on the bed, thinking, "Oh, but I want to be healed." The same thought came to my mind again, "My grace is sufficient for thee." This was not some loud booming voice or anything, just a clear thought. Again, that is not what I wanted to hear and I said something to the effect of, "Ah, no, Lord! Please!" Then the most awesome thing happened. I felt like I was covered in a rich blanket of love so wonderful I can not describe it. It was so totally unlike any love I had ever felt. Then a strong, strong thought flooded my mind. "Why isn't my grace sufficient for thee?" Being surrounded in so much love, I felt like nothing else on earth mattered except that wonderful sense of my Jesus' presence there with me. I said, "Oh, it is sufficient, Lord!" It no longer mattered at all if I was sick. Only that He loved me so very much. Somehow, with difficulty, I did get to the prayer meeting. No one knew what I had experienced just hours earlier. Many people were sitting around in a large circle and the group leader said, "Tonight we will just wait on the Lord and see what he brings to our minds to speak." Everyone bowed their heads and spoke as they felt led. After a few minutes, I heard someone on my left say, "My grace is sufficient for thee." That made my heart beat a little faster. Other things were said as each took turns, here and there, speaking whatever they thought the Lord would have them say. Then to my right, someone different said, "My grace is sufficient for thee." I nearly jumped up at that point!!! All I could do was blurt out real loud, "Praise Jesus!!!" The Lord had not only told me the verse in the quiet of my own room, but He confirmed it the same night, twice, out of the mouths of his servants who had no idea what I had experienced. I guess I would say that although I am not healed, that was the nicest "No" I have ever received. I sure do not live on mountain-top experiences like that one. That would feel nice, but it would not be a walk of faith. Sometimes I get really frustrated and upset about this old illness. But when it gets really bad, I remember that He is there for me, even in this old body of illness and this old world of evil and sin and pain. Someday He will wipe all, yes all, our tears away, for that is what He promised. So, I will end by saying my favorite scripture is, Second Corinthians 12, verse 9, where you will find the statement on His grace being sufficient. Yes, I would still like to not be ill, but I'd rather have what the Lord blanketed me with, His love for me. May God richly bless you! Thank you for visiting my page at Angelfire. Please come back and visit again!
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