Toby, I know you should hate me, because i will never forgive myself for doing what i did. Why the hell do you still talk to me? Honestly, Toby, it doesn't make sense. You can't love someone who hurts you. You can't still want to be with me, it doesn't make sense. You might now know how I feel about you, and that makes COMPLETE sense, but just know that i love you, and i would never want to hurt you. Thats why we can't be together, thats why we wont work. We make too much sense, and it would only cause us more heartbreak. Dont bullshit me and pretend like you dont agree. You know what im talking about. Go find a better girl, I just want you happy. It doesn't hurt when im with you, but it hurts when im not. Hurt? HMMMM...something that i did to you, and its just what im getting in return..sorry for everything, and move on knowing that I AM THE RETARD... you're innocent and you did nothing wrong. sorry. sorry. sorry. sorry. i could go on and on but you already know. im sorry for the lies, im sorry for the shit. I recently changed myself, IN SO MANY ways to be a better person, thanks to you. You coming back to me, BOGGLES my mind. You're perfect, and im not ready for you. Shit i dont even know what im talking about...i just want to be with you. Love Courtney
