More Jess Crap


uh hey i don't really know what this is for but i'm just going to put up random crap so yeah...

good stuff
empty houses. my green day hoodie. taco bell. answering machine messages. photographs. sounds of skateboards. greg's voice. billie joe. when people say "kid". laughing. my bass. laying in the grass. looking at the stars. snow. talking to my mom. good hugs. green eyes. dyed hair. rent. phish food. riding in cars at night. in-depth conversations. lines of music that make you think the song's about you. singing or pretending i can. pj's. shows. crying when i need to. danny from the real world. pugs. pop-punk. old spice. late night phone calls. vintage shirts. chapstick. snow hats.


poetry by me :) this page was getting pretty pointless and i'm semi-reluctant about putting this junk on here but i will anyway. i know it's not good and it's pretty fucking personal but yeah. so cool.

Cool Girl
It always seems to work out like this We have so much in common, but that’s it I want more, you couldn’t care less All you care about is that girl in the Hawiian dress I’m always the cool girl — “she’s so rad” I guess I like it, but it’s still sad When I want to be the hot one And I’m so fucking not one You always come to me with girl crises Hey, here’s a solution: just like me “You’re so good to talk to, god I love you” That meant so much more to me than it did to you Trapped in friendship like it’s a cage Trapped in friendship wanting to escape You always want the pretty ones, you always want the preps When will you realize they have no depth? You’re the one for me and I know it’s clear I feel so godamn happy when you’re near I wish I could feel this way for eternity But I’m just a cool girl, that’s all you see

The Ever Passing Moment
Every strum of the guitar Every word that is sung Every beat of the drum Reminds me of the feelings I had when you wanted me Or the smells of the summer Why wasn’t I happier? So I put in this CD And can go back in time To the time I loved Now your arm’s intertwined with hers But, for a half hour, as the music plays You’re mine again I remember this verse causing my tears And this one causing my happiness I’m wrapped up in feelings of the past Fogetting that last night you ignored me I feel as if you said those words just now Not months ago How can one song bring back so much? But now the music ends And I slowly fade back to what’s real...

Getting Caught
I knew it was wrong, maybe that’s why I did it Actually, it’s because of him, I admit it How superficial and selfish could I fucking be? I let her house get trashed so casually By the look of things, I knew I was screwed And my “friends” didn’t care, they were so rude I told them to shut up so the neighbors wouldn’t here But, whats the point? They already drank all the beer They all left so fast, no one said goodbye While I’m sitting there, about to cry I actually thought I could get away with it By lying to my friend, by being a bitch The moment I realized there was nothing I could do I was caught, I was hurt, and my parents knew It was then, when everything positive dissapeared Everything was happening, everything I feared My dad was screaming about my stupidity I swear, every word out of his mouth was a profanity My mom was crying, saying “Where did we go wrong?” The truth is Mom, I just wasn’t strong I should’ve said no, I had the key But I didn’t because I’m too fucking nieve I did learn my lesson, whether they believe it or not Oh I’ll have more parties, I just won’t get caught

For A Day
I know it’s pointless to be jealous, but I am I wish I had what you have with him To be in your shoes would be rad When I see you flirt with him, it’s so sad Chorus He smiles at you differently than me He says you’re name differently than mine It’s obvious that he wants you Why can’t I just be you for a day? It’s a cycle, I don’t like it at all I like him, then he likes her, that’s all My heart’s been broken so much, and then Just when I’m sorta fine, it happens again Chorus

Frozen Tears
walking in the cold frozen tears coming down my face just lectured for not helping how would you know if you’re never around trying to unpuff my eyes trying to to forget it and move on it’d be easier if my mom could walk it’s be easier if my dad had a heart is this what i’m going to remember when i get old? crying in the sub-zero temperatures? or my dad yelling, or my mom falling? or letting guys walk all over me? or my friends not being there when i need them? or maybe i won’t get old at all

“I Thought We Lost Her”
That’s all it took A couple shots under the slide And then my friend could’ve died It happened so fast One second we were laughing and running around Then without a heartbeat, she was passed out on the ground We just wanted to have fun Mixing alcohol with punk rock, sounded good to me But it ended up in a hospital with an I.V. Maybe it’s a sign We did it for fun, we never thought of death “I thought we lost her,” that’s what her parents said Thank God she was okay Hearing her voice at 3am Made me think I should never drink again It taught me a lot It showed me that life was more than vodka and shows Becuause at any moment, any of us could go

New Year
looking into the camera lens advertising my family’s happiness with an artificial smile when i’ve just been chrushed it’s hard to pretend if someone looks closer they’ll see my glassy eyes and damp sleeves i want to drown in my depression instead i’m being ‘rescued’ by my dad’s stupidity when i have nothing happy to think about i can’t mask my sadness a realistic picture would be me throwing the camera and shoving the tripod up my dad’s ass but no one wants reality these days

Off The Bus
in case of an accident, everyone clear off let’s practice getting off the bus what we take and what we leave: we take ourselves, our clothes, our makeup we leave our souls, our thoughts we take our lacrosse sticks and pom-poms we leave our portfolios and photographs we take the expensive, the material we leave the priceless, the irreplaceable is it this way because the rules favor the mindless or because the school bus favors insightfulness


bangable lyrics yeah these are just some dudes that i'm a fan of, eh and stuff.

Blindfolded - Saves the Day
So now I've made the decision to walk behind you in the dark for the rest of my life and I'll never show my face again because it's too scarred and bloody to be enough and I don't have the right stuff - all I have are the empty boxes to carry away your heart and I think that tonight I will sneak into your house and I'll sing songs and wake you up and I'll take you blindfolded dancing onto bridges and you'll say you don't want want to be with me 'cause no one ever does and no one ever thinks of me that way but I will even drive you home if you never let me forget about you and if you promise me that I'm good enough for someone 'cause I've got to be good enough for you and someday soon I'll get it right and then you'll see just how good I can be so don't ask me about forever because right now I'm feeling lost but there's got to be a place for me because if there isn't where will I go? will there be some place for me and will you be there waiting for me? if and when we get there please catch me before I crawl all the way home but I won't stop until you do.

Passing Time - A New Found Glory
what a waste of a day. such a waste of time. i'd never admit to say that the fault is mine. i'm never too far away. i'm never too close behind. these songs are my way to keep you in my mind. too close is too far away from you. you are the one and only sign. why did it take so long, so long for me to come to? all i needed was time. too stubborn, too ignorant, too crazy about you. i didn't know love was blind. to say this world was made for us. i never knew, i never tried. how can we make it through today without thinking about tomorrow? one heart is enough to save. sit back and watch it all go.

Going to Pasalacqua - Green Day
Here we go again, infatuation Touches me just when I Thought that it would end Oh but then again it seems Much more than that but I'm not sure exactly what you're thinking Well, I toss and turn all night Thinking of your ways of affection But to find that it's not different at all I throw away my past mistakes And contemplate my future That's when I say...What the hey! Would I last forever? You and I together, hand and hand We run away (far away) I'm in for nasty weather But I'll take whatever you can give that comes my way (far away)

Night on Earth - Bouncing Souls
Passed some time on the stoop on the block were we used to sit I thought about it all too much I thought so hard i couldn't see Pete rode by on his Hutch Passed some time on the stoop on the block were we used to sit i looked down and tied my shoes I thought about it all too much i looked up and then i knew I guess these things were meant to be and there's no use fighting what's in me Night on earth Passed some time walking around looking for something to be when i stopped to look around all the music was different to me All these places we used to go when i loved you i didn't see I'll miss you but now i'll know better next time because i found me

Sorry About That - Alkaline Trio
It hasn't been that long Since we drank to the sunset.. until it was gone and down with it went our pain and fear as we slowly broke contact more and more with every beer and we passed out in each other's arms both admitting we'd never felt better Never felt so warm But awoke in each other's eyes Without wearing a stitch of clothing we were both deeply in disguise and maybe I just set aside the fact that you were broken hearted In my own special selfish way and if I hadn't set aside the fact that you were broken hearted Hell knows where your heart would be today Maybe with me It seems like it's been so long since we kissed through the darkness until it was dawn Up with it came our pain and fear that we'd already lost each other We both knew that the end was near maybe I just set aside the fact that you were broken hearted In my own special selfish way and if I hadn't set aside the fact that you were broken hearted Hell knows where your heart would be today Maybe with me Maybe with me Maybe with me maybe with me maybe with me maybe with me

Both Hands - Ani Difranco
i am walking out in the rain and i am listening to the low moan of the dial tone again and i am getting nowhere with you and i can't let it go and i can't get through... the old woman behind the pink curtains and the closed door on the first floor she's listening through the air shaft to see how long our swan song can last and both hands now use both hands oh, no don't close your eyes i am writing graffitti on your body i am drawing the story of how hard we tried i am watching your chest rise and fall like the tides of my life, and the rest of it all and your bones have been my bedframe and your flesh has been my pillow i am waiting for sleep to offer up the deep with both hands in eachother's shadows we grew less and less tall and eventually our theories couldn't explain it all and i'm recording our history now on the bedroom wall and eventually the landlord will come and paint over it all and i am walking out in the rain and i am listening to the low moan of the dial tone again and i am getting nowhere with you and i can't let it go and i can't get though so now use both hands please use both hands oh, no don't close your eyes i am writing graffitti on your body i am drawing the story of how hard we tried hard we tried how hard we tried

Too Close To See - Strung Out
A cup of two day old coffee feeling like yourself again You're still on your own You've spent another night In this dingy room with the same four walls lookin' in the mirrors gettin' easier these days that old friend anger is losing its hold on you The game is survival in this crazy world and it's good to see you're still standing strong not too long ago you were tearing at a world that would never let you in strung out, outcast turned away you kept your face to the ground and fought the world with your silence and so the seasons change and the people change and the good times come and the good times go found yourself in a winless race fighting for a cause you never believed its easy to regret not so easy to forget all the stupid things that used to hold you down you gotta brake that chain and move on cuz I know I've seen it in your eyes before to surrender now to throw it all away is to sacrifice but you can't repay in a world that don't owe you shit you gotta think for yourself and fight every bit of that piece of mind that keeps you going on gets you outta bed and out that door step back take a look around and soon you'll find there's something more that'll come your way with a little patience it will all work out for you in the end this is my song to a friend that never needed anyone until now some times you get too close to see a different side of what life could be and if you stare too long it all becomes a blur and its easy to forget just who we are don't stare to hard, just take a look around...