~*~*How I Be*~*~
The dawn comes and still I wait
I am around but never stay
I look around and I’m alone
The cold scars to the bone
I listen to the phone, but it never rings
I think to myself about these things
My feelings I make them go
It’s for the best I do not know
My dream is you, loving me
This is how I try to be
My anxiety rises, tormenting me
All this pain is all I see
My thoughts are of only of you
And of these things you must do
They drag you down to the ground
They weigh you down with their damning sound
I am numbered in the sorrow
Forever more always hollow
You make me feel I am loved
I have the feeling you descended from above
You walk through the door, with your friends
I don’t move I might be dead
All this moving through my head
You comfort me in my misery
I see you smiling, seeing in me
My bleeding soul never stops
My demons laugh in my head
Maybe I should go to bed
I need my rest, more to ponder
Will this end I always wonder?
My coffin awaits, cruelest wood
I only wish you understood
My time passes you will find another
For I worry you should never bother
For others you will love, maybe I misunderstood
I go to sleep, forever rest
I lift this scorn off my chest
I fall sleep in your arms, not carrying the rest
I fall asleep in your might
I can only hope, you never fall
I will stand tall against my fears
But they are all I have
~*~*~Confusion~*~*~
Sometimes I cry to see if I have died
Still I stand when I should fall
I will not cower I will stand tall
Never hate for it is never right
Time is here and time is gone
Same as you but not for long
The sorrow is gone, but not forgotten
The scars remain, but memory gotten
The sins of man will repent; my time here is growing spent
I implore you siren of my heart, do not let us grow apart
My words ring as bells, when my heart is gone and I have fell
The harp strings hum, but still there is some left
I die for you every night; I look at the sky all I see is white
The garden grows hanging from the hills, but my void you must fill
My heart takes your shape, come along
I push; you play, from my path I will have to stray
The memories have gone, but yet you remain
I am constant; I am yours, forever ever more
~*~*~Heroes~*~*~
They are the ones made us who we are; they fought things near and far
They gave life meaning, and brought our souls grave new feeling
They fight for those who must not die, the innocents that far and wide
They sacrifice all for those they do not know, but they must not slow
What their tombstones read most will never know, covered harshly in icy snow
Their loved ones will ever woe for they were never home, to teach their kids how to grow
Their legacy they leave behind, to make warriors of another kind
Brave souls they were, born to fire and destined to burn
Shining in grace their courage, they’re meaning to defeat the scourge
To protect others brought them peace, now it is forever ness they seek
Zealots and thieves, did they prey, defending against those who strayed
Their resolve like stone, never breaking and never quitting
We honor their names that represent valor, life and fortitude
They have come from far to make your nightmares break apart
They fall and more rise, some them never truly die
You cut them they bleed; you bash them they never revert
The harder you fight, the more they win, and they make you pay for your sins
These are heroes
*~*~My Path To You~*~*
I walk my path; the sky wanders true, and guides my ways
The wind speaks mourning for me, but I must go on
My words so hollow and empty, like my desire have abandoned me
Scion of scorn and hater of worn, I see with greed not needed be
My sins denounce my love of life, and bring me to my war of strife
My torment is unwanted; every breath is cold and haunted
Lost my need, not knowing what I be
Lost and Found I have to go, but the sands of time move that slowly
Dead and gone, buried deep, now I only have to sleep
I arrive in my wake, a final test he may take
The rain always burns, but still I yearn to take my last accursed breath
Now I live, forever in the light of your love, the best the beast when he comes
My journeys now over I turn to you and look into your eyes
I see into your soul, I fill the void, never to empty, always yours
~*~*~My Love~*~*~
I’ve fallen from your skies, an angel with no heaven except you
My eyes glimmer in your light; your love is my war
I try to fly but I have nowhere to go
The air no longer beckons, because you have my wings
God’s grace falls on you, and I watch you shimmer in beauty
I am but a man, no longer angelic, but I have a new love
You who have summoned me with your desire
From the skies I heard your call, the voice unlike no angel
You purify my heart, cleansing doubt and making room for love
God’s voice is unclear but I know the truth, the sound of love is his command
I hold your hand and I fly with no wings
I cling to your body and feel you against me
Now I have a soul, which demands love
Your face a mirror of the moon on the water
So I lay on the ground, watching cloud takes their forms
You descend to me, and I run my fingers through your hair
I kiss you and hold you too me never wanting to let go
This is my heaven now
~*~Stars With Wings~*~
I run, you scream, falling is the point
I’m broken, your flying in my dream
I await your call, for the heaven’s cry
You descend to me and smile
I awake in you, bathed in stars
You look at me and I see your soul in your eyes
The world fades as I live, as I draw breath you better me
My brethren stand behind me but I am alone
My love for you is my compass of light
The light of your eyes, brings me to my knees
The downfall is absolute, but nothing matters as long as I am with you
They cross out my eyes, but I still see through your heart
My life flows in my veins for you, but you can’t decide
I stand at the edge but I will not retreat
My wings glow and cut the air
I soar the sky, looking for my meaning
I find you and the sky holds no truth
I come to you while you dream
I hold you in my arms and know heaven is here
We fly together into the clouds where we live forever
You and I
~*~To An End~*~
To this degree it’s spoken
To mother nature it’s woken
The time is past
Living is another matter
Savior where are you now?
This land is dying, from our hands stealing
Destiny waits for our decisions
We are the plague, killing and destroying for our needs
The entity fades a little every night
Infecting our world, while fighting each other
The earth can no longer give
The sun has turned cruel
We keep science close, we are the fools
It will fail, sending us to oblivion
This is my statement, I can no longer think
We are the wind that will extinguish the flame of life
*~*You Were Never There*~*
I never knew of you, but you were there
Not so far away, but never came my way
Wondering if strangers were the one
You’re a part of me, but I can’t see
I met you when I was seven but where were you before then
Things were weird, but things didn’t get any clearer
Time passed and my feelings were worn
You in my life makes me torn
Feeling abandoned through this relationship
This has been a tiring trip
You shouted and yelled and put me through hell
That is no part I want
You were not there when I grew and you never knew
You didn’t call and never wrote
I couldn’t hear you when you spoke
I never had a father and I don’t know if I do
You try but my walls do not fall
I keep you out and try to push you away
I do not want you to stay
Some part still loves but it doesn’t matter it is the latter
To be like you I would rather die, give in and not even try
I feel this way and I cannot change
If you were there things would not be strange
All alone, I learned to cope, the world turns
Life is hard with you involved; there is no hope for my resolve
Envy stronger than all, people with tight nit homes
I hate their joy because I none of my own
Life has been tougher to me, colder than for the rest
It will make me strong I can only hope
I bend but I do not break
This more than I can take
I have nothing with you, no interests we share
Why is it like this, it’s not fair
I only want to be happy, but it will not last
Things I am always blamed for, not my fault
I think about this often, people have it easier than me
A step dad who doesn’t give a damn, a mother that drags me down
Shadows of friends, all I have
A way of thinking that is unclean
A faith no longer with breath, clinging to a spark
Life is not fun, maybe for others
Not for me, I put on my smile to seem right
Times get hard, testing my limits for a grip
Depression a common place, I sleep there often
Love in it’s many forms, I know none
Laughter impossible, for my soul is silent
Slowly dying as the time ticks on
I will make out of it what I can
I could be a friend to someone who goes through my kind of times
A voice of reason for those who like the loneliness
I don’t know what I can be, would my grandmother be proud?
Things I’ve said and things I’ve done
I lonely wander into the unknown
Hoping for a glimpse of the known
I fear for my kids that will be a father like my own
Keeping his distance and always alone
Bitter in life and joyful in misery
Is this how I will be?
I pray to god, whoever listens, give me strength
Let me be the person I want to be
I wish to see only good things
Sometimes I laugh, sometimes I cry
Sometimes I don’t know why, maybe to show I am alive
I am alone; no words can describe my life
Sadness, depression, and misery they are but descriptions that mean little
I denounce everything, man, god, earth, belief and hope
I am bitter, miserable and vain
I am human, but it means the same
I wish to rest, sleep for a while
Life goes on, I just follow
This is the end, I am not alive
For this is not living but I try
Don’t pity me for the things I have to bear
Know me as a friend, that I care
I will be around for a while
Who knows you might even make me smile
*~*Wait*~*
You are gone, no longer with me
God has you now; I will decide how to be
My love for you still lives even though I do not
Angels encircle me, comforting my eternal pain
They whisper she longs for your touch, but do not worry
The years travel fast and heaven ensnares the righteous
You will be together again for that is heaven the ever-long love humans can give
God blesses you forever and feels your pain, but the love will always remain
I will watch you ascend, for I wish it and it will happen
Nyphelems sing your name in the grace of god
This life is yours and it has been torn
Your hope will fix what has been worn
The angels watch over you, wondering
They watch you fall, they watch you cope, and they lend their grace to give you hope
No harm will come to those who I cherish, no evil in them can there be
The years did come fast and now it is time
The angels descend and give you your wings
You meet your love in heaven god knows your joy
You call her name, she calls out
The robes of white cling to your celestial form
The wings of god bring you here
This is heaven my son, be at peace no pain will follow
Be at one with your love and may the heavens greet you well
*~*The Flat Line*~*
Memories turn into life
The regret a seal
Guilt a reality now showing true
Broken your reason, this is your debt
Hold back the fear, break away
You want to see another side of me
Stay in your shadow, step down
Your waiting for backlash
It’s coming be ready
I watch the hope slip into your words
When you stop everything ends
How can this be, I didn’t do anything wrong
My eyes turn sorrow unreal
Mind is in peril of insanity’s grip
Your blood washes from my hands but my soul is stained
Red as hell, and forever damned
My fate now chosen, I have made my life
No longer proud, but shamed
My stones weigh me down, tears spin me around
I have to speak tell everyone, but the words are lost
I take the blame, for this never the same
Freedom gone, repenting is not enough
My outside is in, and my sadness shows
I yearn for your words of forgiveness
But they cannot come, no breath no life
I can’t take all this, it must not be
I’m leaving but staying in this place
I will join you now, sorry for my mistake
I can only pray for my sake
~*~*My Wanting Of You*~*~
I want to speak but my thoughts are lost
My sorrow grows from my loss
Your reflection shines no longer bright
My eyes see you as no friend but as a lost love that never lead
As I be no longer in love, I look to sky to see the above
I look for answers there are none; I wish this had been undone
You want nothing, I feel something
My hearts aches, but no one feels
At first you loved but then only dealt
I find no reason to carry on; love stopped singing its song
Blame sits not knowing where to go, my sadness will only slows
God only knows my pain, but I refrain from thinking your name
The sun beats down always knowing, moon never ending
I will overcome my sadness; I will never give into the madness
I will live on, remembering you forever on
From me to you, I will love on
~*~*~All I Can’t Say~*~*~
There is so much I can’t say
When I look into your eyes.
I’m worried you’ll reject me
And hurt my foolish pride.
Each day this love grows stronger,
But I can never let you know.
There’s so much behind my smile
That I could never show.
I’d hold you for a lifetime,
If you would let me in.
I’d love you like no other,
But you don’t understand.
Every time I see you
You are holding on to her.
The pain is like a knife
Cutting deep into my soul.
So I’ll dream of us together,
Of just how it should be.
And all that you are
Will remain a silent part of me.
~*~*So Fast*~*~
I’ve known you
For one year,
But it seems
That I’ve just met you.
It seems I’ve become
So close to you—
The year has gone by
So fast.
At first I hated you,
Then you were my friend.
At last I finally loved you—
It all went by so fast.
I got angry with you,
I talked to you,
I kissed you—
It all happened so fast.
You came,
You loved,
You left.
All of those so fast.
Hatred turned to love;
I held you close and
Kissed you.
Then the love and
Kisses went away,
And I lost my heart
So fast.
*~*~Breaking Up*~*~
I want to break up.
It just isn’t working out.
I feel like I’m trapped,
And I want to get out.
I know that I have used
This excuse before.
I just want to be friends,
Nothing less, nothing more.
It’s nothing that you did,
It’s nothing that you said.
Things are just changing—
Like the thoughts in my
head.
I will never forget
That we have been together.
Some couples don’t last,
While others are forever.
I still love you,
Just not in “that way.”
I feel as if I’m acting,
Or putting on a play.
What I do or say
Is not how I really feel?
I’m sorry that I have to say
Our love is not for real.
I would die inside
If we couldn’t be friends,
So my warmest wishes
To you I will send.
*~*~Dear Parents~*~*
I am daring.
I am bold.
I will not do what I’m told.
I’m a dreamer.
I’m a queen.
I am everything in between.
I love without boundaries.
I cry secret tears.
I can’t let anyone know my fears.
I’m coming of age.
I’ve barely started.
I’m a girl standing where the roads
have parted.
I’m smart but confused.
I’m weak but I’m strong.
I’ll make my decisions.
No matter how wrong.
I am tempted.
My heart aches.
But these are decisions
That I must make.
I know that you’re scared,
Of what we’ll find,
On this journey through
Dangerous times.
But you must understand,
No matter what you say,
We will break free, and go our own way.
*~*~Addiction (addict ll)~*~*
Pale faces
Cast in blankets of white, unfolding
And their souls circled in dark
Black…looks like licorice
Bloodshot eyes look to the floor
Ashamed minds
Drunk on depression
So paranoid
Scared of opinions
Drink until you leave
Drink until your sorrow’s gone
Collect the cocaine
Let it rule the brain
Of several minor attractions
Decisions
Then it builds
Ravenous hunger
Your gut is heroin
Morphine
Drink it up, swallow it down
Soul how you hurt
Poor soul how you hurt
Collection of pain
Drugs to the addict
Bitter addiction
You sour the life
With narcotics branded on you
Ruin existence
So you may breathe
In false serenity
Laugh….
As it over comes you….
Into sleep
Sweet shall—Goddess Become
~*~*~The Night~*~*~
Take me back, back to the night
Make the sunlight go away
Shield my heart from
The pain of day
The moon, the stars,
The dark shining mysterious
Is a perfect seclusion,
For a heart that’s delirious
Infatuation, anticipation
Please keep me safe in condemnation
Shade my tears and tendencies
In the deepest hour
Of the blackest seas
Sing the sweet melody
Of the midnight hour
And erase the days
That tastes so sour.
*~*~Who I Am*~*~
Am I just your puppet on magic strings,
For you to play with as you please?
Am I the beast while you play beauty,
And making me perfect is your duty?
Am I the tortoise and you’re the hare,
Is that why you don’t seem to care?
Am I MuFasa and you are Scar,
Is that why you push me so far?
Am I the ball and you’re the player,
Where I end up, you don’t happen to care?
I am not a toy for you to play with,
And I am not a myth!
I have feelings just like you.
Although mine are probably
More sincere and true!
I am who I am, that you can’t change,
And my life is something you cannot arrange!
I am someone you can’t behest,
Because I am a person!
No more, no less!
I guess what they say is true,
Who needs an enemy,
When I have a friend like you!?!
*~*~*Live the Moment*~*~*
Live the moment
The moment is now.
Forget the regrets of yesterday
Let go of the wonders of tomorrow
Seize the moment
Hold on to today.
~*~*My Love*~*~
I tried to warn you
About messing around,
But you wouldn’t listen,
So you feel to the ground.
The moon and the stars are up high,
And beneath them, I lie.
My heart is ripping,
While tears are dripping,
As I listen to the wind’s lullaby.
You will always be
My first love,
Though you are now above.
~*~*~I Remember~*~*~
When I looked into your eyes,
I knew it was true.
My heart never lies-
I was in love with you.
As you stood there
Just looking around,
My whole body melted
Into the ground.
I remember the day,
I remember the time,
I remember the place,
It is always on my mind.
You looked so good
In your shirt and jeans.
I remember that night
You were in my dreams.
I wish I could be with you
Day after day,
Because I love you more
Than words can ever say.
~*~*Help Me~*~*
Here,
There,
Everywhere-
Never gone,
Always near.
Hoping it will go away
And won’t come back another day.
Pain,
Suffering,
That’s all it brings.
Please help me think of other things.
~*~*Frustrated~*~*
I’m frustrated because I can’t tell if it’s real,
Frustrated because I don’t know how you feel.
I’m frustrated because we didn’t talk last night,
Frustrated because we can’t make things right.
I’m frustrated because there is no trust,
Frustrated because I know it’s a must.
I’m frustrated because I need you night and day,
Frustrated because I can’t have things my way.
I’m frustrated because you don’t want to take my hand,
Frustrated because I can’t get you to understand.
I’m frustrated because I can’t feel your gentle touch,
Frustrated because I miss you so much.
I’m frustrated because we can’t be together,
Frustrated because I’ll love you forever.
~*~*I Wish I Could Say *~*~
Every day I love you,
And every day goes by so fast.
Soon enough “I love you”
Becomes part of the past.
But every morning I get
Another chance
To say, think and feel
The “I love you”
That never lasts.
~*~*~I Wish I Had a Chance With You~*~*~
Your brown hair, your beautiful eyes
Just send chills down my spine.
The sight of you makes me weak,
My hands shiver,
And I cannot speak.
I know I am not the only girl for you,
I only wish I had a chance with you.
I know you are taken,
But my love is true.
The girl you’re with
Is the luckiest girl
I ever knew.
If ever she should break your heart
And you feel all torn apart,
You know where I am.
I’ll lend you my hand.
I’ll pick up the pieces
And calm your heart.
~*~I Wish You Were Mine~*~
Sitting around with nothing to do,
Thinking of how much I want to be with you.
These feelings I have I don’t always show,
But now I’m telling you-I want you
to know.
We’ve been through it all,
Good things and bad.
I’m not always happy,
You do make me sad.
You sometimes act like you don’t care,
But this hardly happens,
It’s almost rare.
We’re not together,
I wish we were.
We’re not together,
You’ve chosen her.
She seems to be better
In everything and more.
I don’t even know,
What I’m hanging around for.
You hurt my feelings and make me cry,
But I don’t know why I continue to try.
I guess I just love you
And get carried away.
I wish you were mine to have everyday.
*~*A Wish*~*
A penny in a wishing well,
A wish on a shooting star,
Blowing out a cake’s candles
Hasn’t worked so far.
Wishing for you to come to me
I feel won’t ever come true.
I gave up, finally,
On ever having you.
But this feeling of emptiness
Without you by my side,
My heart is filled with sadness
And feelings I can’t hide.
~*~Reflections~*~
As I walked along the beach
What did I see?
A faint reflection of you and me
It was a vision of the way things used to be
As calm and peaceful as the pale blue sea
The sounds of the birds, not a single care
Deep in thought, memories we share
Sand on our skin, the warmth of the sun
We were together, two in one
~*~The Fight~*~
When you tell her
What to do
What to think
It degrades her
And your love
It makes me angry
The red-hot magma
The hatred boils
I want to erupt
All over your expensive suit
When you think for her
And act the know-it-all
The hypocrite you are
I break those champagne glasses
My grandparents gave you
On your engagement
But I will not cry
You are worth nothing
More than indifference
So that is what the photograph
Of me will show
A surface covering the volcano
Of my soul.
~*~I Feel~*~
I feel the blow of his hand
Hard across my skin
I just want to save my land
But I know I will not win
I feel the sting of the whip
Breaking a bone in my back
The trembling in my lower lip
He knows he has a knack
I feel the ice on my feet
As I walk across the snow
No bus that I can meet
No place where I can go
I feel the touch of God
Warm into my heart
Making me look up and nod
To never be torn apart
*~*~The Tides of Life~*~*
The white crested waves wash up
On the wet sand,
The warm sun rises slowly on the horizon
And above, high in the gray morning light,
The gulls cry and soar.
Just like life, the sea has stormy days.
The frigid water churns with turbulent
Waves,
Gales of salty wind whip sand up
In angry frenzies.
Just like life, the sea is clam.
The placid waters are a place to
Gather my thoughts.
The rhythmic lullaby washes away
my troubles.
Just like life, the sea has lovely shells
To collect and gather in,
To keep for years to come.
Just like life, the sea has driftwood,
Floating aimlessly in a world that
Breeds confusion.
Just like life, the tide comes in.
The tide goes out.
Though sunny days and raging storms
The waves go in their constant,
Never changing cycle.
Because life must go on.
The tide must come in.
The tide must go out.
~*~*Purpose~*~*
What if
You realize
You are like a candle
Fragrant
Beautiful
Mystic
But slowly
The blaze
Melts
Away you layers
Shedding your past
Spilling your secrets
Across
The table
Dripping onto the carpet
Pooling in puddles
Of memories
Thick
Molten
Experiences
Which dry and harden
Into patterns
When it’s over
We’re really tiny black wicks
Who burn themselves out
All that really matters
As if our experiences
Have bled
Into others
To create
Something
Far greater
Or
Are we’re nothing
But a puddle of ourselves?
~*~*~Popularity’s Price~*~*~
Destroying a
Fragile hope of friendship
With one bitter word
A single poisonous glare
Whispered gossip
In a shallow ear
Striking a mark
On a lonely heart
Filled with righteous fear
A happily brutal snicker
Coupled with a ruthless sneer
Everyday cruelty
For mock-acceptance
Fraudulent contentment
And the right to weep
In guilt
In sorrow
In solitude
*~*~Not Yet*~*~
She doesn’t yet know
That she’s an ugly girl.
But soon she’ll see
The world’s cruelty.
She looks into the mirror,
And says I’m OK.
But soon her classmates
Will set her straight.
Only a short time left until the
Differences are prominent.
Then as the doors
Are closing
She’ll know that she’s
An ugly girl.
*~*~*Eternity*~*~*
Summer pearls sparkle
In my dreams
As delicate pinched spice
Power gently becomes
A spring fragrance.
The scent radiates
Peace and delight
In heaven in my soul.
I walk and absorb
The promising treasure.
I stare as beauty
Frolics around me
This shall be eternity
*~*~*Fading*~*~*
Deep-red petals falling down
Post-fall leaves will hit
The ground.
Blue clothes start to fade.
Heat disappears with the shade.
Little rocks taken by the stream.
Old gray eyes might lose their gleam.
Fading, fading
Where do they go?
Grass in covered by the snow
This will fade, most everything ends.
When nothing is left,
We have our friends.
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Update 1-31-03
~*~*~As Time Goes By~*~*~
I have many characteristics
Of living things,
Although I am not living.
Most people depend on me,
I am in every school.
I have two hands.
Sometimes, I have a constant noise.
I am many shapes and sizes,
And my face is different everywhere.
On most, I make only two noises.
But on some, there are many sounds.
Some collect me,
Or just have me for decoration.
Without me, the world would not be the same.
Many work their schedules around me.
I am made out of many, many things.
And I am opened in many ways.
You can also wear me.
Standing up or hanging,
I serve my purpose.
My many uses is only one thing,
And that one thing,
Is very important.
~*~*~What~*~*~
When I look at you,
I see my world beginning anew,
A teen escaping a childhood of pain,
When days were full
Only of rain.
But now you’re free to live,
And start to receive
And not just give.
I’ll be here and help you through,
Because my love for you,
Will always be true.
~*~*~Companionship~*~*~
The tears of love, joy, and mirth.
All shared upon the birth,
Of receiving a soul.
To sit and hear your goal:
“To reach out and feel the stars.”
And then the soul reply:
“upon the wings of a dragon fly.”
Now you’re sure this soul,
Is sharing your dreams and goals.
Your two threads are woven together.
The feathery secrets
Between you two are now murmured.
How excitedly you two whispered
Of this newfound relationship
Buried under heavy ground.
Suddenly, your eyes open wide,
So relieved you could’ve cried.
The soul you found was yours,
Refreshed and found anew
After all those years.
Hidden behind closed doors.
Returning to you
The hope and bliss you once new.
~*~*~Gone With The Wind~*~*~
Love is like the water of the sea:
Always flowing, moving free.
It doesn’t always make you feel,
Like you wish it did.
Sometimes,
Love is gone with the wind.
It can happen as fast as fire.
Your heart can fill with warmth
And desire.
One day you can link your eyes,
And the love you once felt so strong,
Now dies.
~*~*~When We’re Together~*~*~
When we’re together the world stands still.
Us meeting must have been God’s will.
When we’re together the birds always sing.
You’re holding me under an angel’s wing.
When we’re together the flowers always bloom.
My world without you is like doom.
When we’re together the sky is not gray.
You’ve made my life a glorious day.
When we’re together and your lips touch mine,
The feeling is too divine.
When we’re together I can’t help but touch,
Because I love you so much.
When we’re on the beach together at night,
I’m so glad things were just right.
When we’re together and you take my hand,
I am just happy that you understand.
When we’re together I know I can trust,
That this is way much more than lust.
~*~*~The Year~*~*~
So much has happened.
So many memories shared.
Most of it was happy,
But some made us scared.
Classes and teachers,
Passes and books.
Some become writers,
Some become cooks.
Some become couples,
Others old news.
Some becomes heroes,
Some had to lose.
Friends were made,
And lives were saved.
Hearts were broken,
Some words left unspoken.
But through it all.
Some how we didn’t fall.
And we as whole,
Become stronger and stood still.
~*~*~The Lesson~*~*~
I once knew this guy
That liked to drink.
Before he got into his car,
He never stopped to think.
After being at a party
His friends told him to stay.
He wouldn’t.
All they could do was pray.
As he took off
His friends were scared.
And hoped he knew
That they really cared.
Safely home….?
It was not true.
His friends went looking for him
Because they knew it was true.
He wanted to teach his brother things he couldn’t have read.
But now he can’t because he’s dead.
~*~*~Looking In a Mirror~*~*~
Looking in the mirror,
I cringe at what I see.
It is the monster looking back at me.
I see the sins in this world
I see them all, through my eyes
I see the pain and the tears,
I see the ugly, nasty lies.
Besides the sins, I see myself.
And that I sometimes hate.
Though now I know it’s who I am
I realize it’s much to late.
Looking at the mirror I smile at what I see.
It’s the person who I am staring back at me.
~*~*~Open Your Mind~*~*~
To all the people I have met.
And all the one I won’t forget
Hold on tight to the friends life brings.
Remember the times that you have shared
And how you’ve showed you’ve cared
Never lose sight of those you care about
And never forget the ones that are ‘out’
You don’t need to be in the ‘in’ crowd
Or be the one that stands out, or even loud
All that matters is that you are you
And to yourself you are always true
Friends are gifts that everyone deserves
So be nice to the ones that get on your nerves
For one day you might need a good friend
Someone who will be true to the end
That one who you may have disliked
Could be that friend wrong or right
Keep it in mind that no one is flawless
If they were, they would live in bliss
But no one is perfect, no not even you
Like snow flakes we don’t come in twos
We are all different in so many ways
To count them would take to many days
So this message I leave with you
Take it or leave it, it isn’t a myth
We are all different but we need friends
Someone who will stand up and defend
Before you step on people like little ants
Make sure to give that person a fair chance
If you judge them before you know
Before you know what they're like, you have to let go
Let go of the fear what others will think
Let go of your past year being called a fink
Just open your mind to all those around
You will see that a best friend will be found
~*~*~Truth~*~*~
Dare to wonder
Why your life is epitome
Of smooth, white paper.
Analyze the reasons
Why bliss eludes you
As you sit in your
Dry-cleaned suit and tie
Staring out tinted windows
At jagged clouds
And ripping skyscrapers
That are smothering you
So slowly,
You don’t even notice.
Consider why it is
That sunflowers grow
In the cracks of sidewalks
And how the sky
Swallows the skyscraper
Dare to remember
When sunflowers grew
In your eyes
And life didn’t flash before you
On a computer screen
~*~*~Dreams~*~*~
Why do we watch as our dreams pass us by
As our hopes fade out
Into the darkness
Why do we merely lay
Our heads to cry
Do we not know how much of life we miss
How can we know what
Days will bring to us
Can we challenge faith
And all her wishes
And why must life be
Such a furied fuss
As opposed to love
And stolen kisses
Can we not enjoy
The simplest sunset
Or the sweet lovely
Heartfelt serenade
And what good is life
In we can’t take pride
In the lives we have made
So savor this life
So short but so fine
Believe in your dreams,
And they shall be thine.
~*~*~Dear Brother~*~*~
Black brother, think your life so sweet?
That you would die at any price?
Does mere existence balance with the weight of your great sacrifice?
Or can it be that you fear the grave,
Enough to live and die as a slave?
Oh Brother! Be it better said,
When you are gone,
And the tears are shed,
Men have died that men might live.
They point with pride
To the roads you build.
In terror at the threatening
In thine own eye?
Long-suffering hath heard
The captives cry.
Can it be that you fear the grave
Enough to die as a slave?
Mind thy symbols
That proclaims thy crimes
Dwell thou a warning
To the coming times
Oh Brother! Be it better said,
When you are gone and the tears are shed.
~*~*~Nature~*~*~
Wind is a quite sound,
Lifting weightless dancers off trees,
Calming the destruction.
The sun is a solitary piece
Of gold glitter.
Giving life to reaching plants,
Warming the earth with its beaming rays.
Clouds are like cotton candy,
Sweetening the ground with sugary rain drops,
And relieving the brightness of the sky.
Rain is full of sculpted diamonds,
Replenishing the dry and cleaning the dirty.
The moon is a glowing cat’s eye,
Taking away the fears of dark and giving hope for a peaceful night.
~*~*~What Will It Take~*~*~
What will it take to change the world?
How can I share my thoughts with so many?
How can once voice be heard in the crowd?
How—by going on with strength, courage, and by never giving up.
One voice can be heard
My voice WILL be heard.
~*~*~Life is What You Make It~*~*~
Life is full of dark clouds and sunny skies.
Life is full of truth…and lies.
You can throw your life away,
But then you will have to pay.
Or you can take each day and live life merry and gay.
You can live a life full of worry,
You can try and hurry,
But you will never come out ahead.
Life is what you make it,
So paint the town red!
~*~*~Glass Feelings~*~*~
Glass can shatter into a thousand pieces.
It can be glued back together again,
But there will always be little fine lines remaining,
Reminding you of cracks that were once there.
Please don’t break the glass…..
~*~*~Poems~*~*~
Poems show your feelings,
Show yourself, put yourself on paper.
Poems, mixed emotions, turning into words.
Poems, making you laugh, making you cry.
Poems, meaningless words to one,
A clear vision of life to another.
Poems, Use them….
EXPRESS YOURSELF!
~*~*~My Little World~*~*~
My little world of little things
Had me lost and in despair
I was a small and helpless life form
And felt like no one really cared
I walked around with no hope
And with my arms at my side
With no hands to hold mine
My feet were my only guide
Until the day I had one last chance
To find one that tells me no lies
There you were just standing
I got lost in your eyes
I felt a sudden bit of courage
I was as free as a bird
You spoke to me as I listened
I lingered on every word
Day by day I fell in love
With all your different ways
I knew at that moment that I wanted to be in your future days
I prayed to god ‘Oh please, let him be the one!’
Then that day finally came when our world together had begun.
It started as just holding hands and writing back and forth
Then as our time together grew longer we started to be much more
I thank God for you every day for doing those sweet things you do,
My little world of little things has now become a big world of you.
~*~*~My Mind~*~*~
My mind stutters
Confused by a tangle of thoughts
I didn’t know that I possessed
Scintillating thoughts that disturb my seemingly shallow manner
Life throws riddles I can find difficult to comprehend
They subdue the only soul that I claim
Wrapping it in deep thought
Condemning the superficial nature that I so adore.
~*~*~Blank Thoughts~*~*~
A plain sheet of white paper sits without meaning in front of me
I stare
As a child this paper would have been alive
Jumping in and out of worlds
Moving so vividly
Adulthood is near
I see no pictures
My mind remains blank and black
I stare
New ideas are out of reach
Out too deep
My head aches
I think nothing
~*~*~What I Want to Do~*~*~
I’m human too
With a mind and soul
To make a decision
To set a new goal
You can’t control me
As hard as you try
I see what you are doing you are so sly
My mind, it belongs to me and not you
I know that I can do and what I want to do
~*~*~Confused~*~*~
Molting and melting fire inside
Moments of fear, frozen ice, tension, and pride
Cries of the scorching, burning, and tearing
Laughter from the one not caring
The moans, the tears, in these lifeless teenage years
A moment in time worthless seconds going by
Making a slow even rhyme
Tell me one so young and confused is there still
a future full and amused
When the crying stops
What shall I say?
I am too young to know
The future leads my way
~*~*~Missing You~*~*~
When peace cannot be found
And sleep won’t visit me at night
I think of all the times we shared
Of holding each other tight
With a restless mind I walk the floor and call your name
But a defining silence is my response
The days we spent together and the endless nights on the phone are now replaced by lonely times
Unhappy and alone
Thoughts of you constantly fill my mind-your face is all that I see
I wonder who you might be clinging to tonight instead of me
Though letters can carry hope and strength and bring ecstatic smiles
I can’t help noticing the distance is worlds apart across the longest miles
The wealth of the memories you left remind me of how very far apart we are
Oh, how I would give the world just to be where you are
~*~*~All You Have Done~*~*~
Stealing my heart was so easy for you true love
was the fantasy only you could make true
Love was transparent like charcoal steam
You were the one cut out of my dream
You were the one who woke me from my sleep
And stole my heart with a love so deep
You opened the door to a love so deep
You cared not for the cost or expense
You grasped me from the darkness
not a moment to soon and displayed a love so pure and perfectly in tune
The light in your soul was impossible to avoid
Hate you banished
Fear you destroyed
The day I met you the loss of love was quenched
My soul, once so dry, was instantly drenched
Please, you must never forget all that was
destined for us the day we met
~*~*~The Wonderful Feeling~*~*~
The dark clouds have disappeared
The gloom
The negative are no longer near
That wonderful feeling lives in my heart again
Love is wonderful, magical
The second time around
Love is feeling that sense of peace
With the world
You notice things with clarity
Things you overlooked before
A radiant sunrise
A friendly greeting
A million stars at night
And you dare to hope, to dream,
To plan
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