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Something Of My Own

Something of my own, Something I've never had. A life with love, A life with you. It's nearly perfect, It's something of my own. I think I'm falling in love with you. Can you see it in my eyes? I gave up everything, For the chance of my life. Holding me, kissing me, hugging me, I think I'm falling in love with you. What happend? I thought you said you cared. You said I encouraged you, You think I'd be the one you'd want beside you. Why aren't you talking to me, What happend? I just want to see you happy again, And I wish I was in your arms. But if I have to see you with someone else, I suppose that's okay. As long as you're smiling. I just want to see you happy again. I think I made a mistake. Why'd I tell him to leave. Oh yes, so I could be with you, But you don't care, Atleast he loves me. I think I made a mistake. I don't need a reason to be angry with God, Please don't give me one. He's not the one I've fallin in love with, But atleast he shows me he cares. I wish you did. I don't need a reason to be angry with God. We've been through so much together, You know me inside and out. Yet you still choose not to open up to me, When you need to the most. I care about you a lot, We've been through so much together. You're not the only one hurting, Don't think you are. You're not the only one who lost someone, You may not need someone to lean on, But I do, and you're not there, You're not the only one hurting. Open your eyes and look around, If you still care about me like you say you do, Then show it because you're losing me. I may be here forever, But I'm not going to wait forever. Open your eyes and look around. That's it, I'm gone. You've waited too long. Do you miss me or care about me yet? Didn't think so. You never did. That's it, I'm gone.

A Vanished Friend

Around the corner I had a friend, In this great city that has no end. Yet the years go by and the days drag on, And before I know it a year has gone. I know I'll never see my old friends face, Yet I hope oneday I'll find him in a happy place. We used to run and ring each others bell, And sometimes even have a lemonade sale. He knew we loved him and always would, But yet somehow he questioned how we could. He made a decision that caused him to leave us, So now we all pray that he is safe with Jesus. The phone begins to ring as it breaks the silence, "Vanessa, he's gone." I feel the violence. All I could do was cry and scream, Wanting to pretend it was all an awful dream. Unable to stop crying I fall to the ground, Wondering his parent's thoughts when the realize he's not around. Even though I'll never see my old friends face, I know I'll always love him no matter the case.

Lost Child

I feel this pain inside me, It's stabbing me like a knife. Is it invisible for the world to see? How can I live this life? I just don't understand this, It was just an infatuation. I thought I was in bliss! Why'd I get into this situation? I know he won't stay around, So I cry to the night sky. He'll run when he hears the sound,Of his new baby's cry. But with one angry rave, He sent his unborn baby to the grave.

If One Day...

If one day you feel like crying.. Call me. I don't promise that I will make you laugh, But I can cry with you. If one day you want to run away- Don't be afraid to call me I don't promise to ask you to stop... But I can run with you. If one day you don't want to listen to anyone... Call me. I promise to be there for you. And I promise to be very quiet. But if one day you call... And there is no answer Come fast to see me. Maybe I need you. I'm sorry... If I ever ignored you. I'm Sorry... If I ever made you feel bad or put you down. I'm Sorry... If I ever thought I was bigger or better than you. I Luv You... Don't ever forget that! Through bad times and good, I'll always be here for you. I am Sorry... For everything wrong I've ever done. I'm writing this because what if tomorrow never comes? What if i never get to say good-bye? What if i never get to say I'm sorry or I love you? Because what if tomorrow never comes?

Found that in Megan Caucasian's xanga.

Thank you...

Thank you...

Thank you for loving me,

when I didn't love you.

Thank you for holding me,

when all I want to do scream.

Thank you for helping me up,

when I fall on my face.

Thank you for holding me,

when I cry to you.

Thank you for carrying me,

when I can barely move.

Thank you for believing in me,

when I didn't believe in you.

Thank you for forgiving me,

when I go against you.

Thank you for the chance,

to make my own mistakes.

Thank you for dieing for me,

and loving me every day.

Thank you for everything,

I couldn't do it without you.

......Thank you!