bri
Mood:  crushed out
Topic: me?
My thoughts are chaotic
I can’t sort them out
They run in every direction
Crashing into each other
My thoughts shouldn’t be like this
In a never ending whirlwind
She’s so perfect
Imperfectly
She is the best
Anyone could be
She sees me
How I want to be seen
She is simply
The best for me

regrets
Mood:  don't ask
Topic: THEM
Continual thoughts
Not knowing
Never forgiving
Never ending
Grass sky love death
Confusion and grief
Happiness betrayal
Not knowing
Never ending
Always thinking
Always analyzing
I try to stop
Try to forget
Let go of the regret
But no matter what
It doesn’t matter
Its always there
I cry and scream
feel like im
dying inside
it stays there
always gnawing
never letting me go
always making my
heart heavy
its how it is
I cant let go

let it all out
Mood:  don't ask
Topic: LIFE
Needing to release
Need to let it all out
All my emotions
Hurt anger pain loss

Can’t find the words
To describe how I
How I feel today
The littlest things piss me off
Make me lose control

I feel like screaming
Feel like crying, feel like dying
My heart has shrunken so much that
It’s close on in its self

I want to get in a car,
Top down and drive
Drive until the sun sets
Drive until it’s all gone
Leave all my troubles behind

Music blaring
Wind blowing
Through my hair
Running away and
Killing the day

I want to let it all
Let it all out
My emotions
Hurt anger pain loss
Running away from it
From it all

confusion
Mood:  don't ask
Topic: HIM
Confusion
The great equalizer
Lets us be smart
Lets us be stupid
It’s the best word in the world
To describe

My emotions for you
You love me
You hate me
You try to
Escape me

But no matter
Try as you might
All you can feel is
Confusion
Your emotion for me

We fight, we yell,
We hear and tell
We sneak around,
We were friends, until

Confusion
And hurt sets in
Then we yell
My secrets you tell

That’s what kind
of friends we are
that’s what kind
of friends we are

confusion
my emotion for you
confusion
your emotion for me

confusion
you love me
you hate me
you try to
escape me
but no matter
how much
you try
there will always be
confusion

only the strong
Mood:  don't ask
Topic: THEM
They see me
They mock me
Not knowing
Never knowing

The pain they
Create
The pain they
Cause
The tears I’ve cried

Because of them
I hurt
Because of them
I cried
Because of them
I need

Need someone
Need them to see
Need to please
Never let anyone get
Close to me

We used to be close
Then things went wrong
Now all they do is hurt me
Tear at me

With every word,
Every tear
Every thought
Everything they say
I slowly die
I’m slowly fading

Can’t find myself
Don’t know who I am
Throwing my life away
Cursing their names
Cursing the memories
I made with them

Wishing I never knew
Never knew them
Never knew them
Never let them change
My views
My emotions
My feelings

They cause my pain
They cause my anguish
I blame them for everything
They have done these things
To me, but even then,
It’s not their faults
Its mine

I give them the power to
Influence my emotions
I let them call all the shots
I let them hurt me
Torment me
Make me wish I were done
Done with dealing with it
Make me wish I were dead

It’s my fault
Because
Only the strong
Only the strong survive