Song Gone Away The crushes will all crush you in a song gone away. I believed I could still live long after you found a bigger place. I was an accident, and you'd always have to be the one to stop it. I always said only what I needed to. Did you get it? Did you want it? Even after midnight in a thousand eyes and you, I hope you don't feel like I pushed myself onto you. And I know it's too dark for you to know how you feel about me, but in the back of my mind, the sighs kick the door of its hinges. Beauty is putting out with your mouth the match you used to burn bridges: there's nothing to believe because we always have what we need. And in the green light red light blues I got nothing new, nothing to prove, and I got nothing left to lose. And you're not mad the music's louder than you can stand, You just wish you could still feel it like I can. You'll change your mind about me in a song gone away. But first I'll be so fucking glad to get myself out of this little place. I got a whole world eating inside me to get out and become the whole. I'd like to know the things I never knew I could know. I'm old enough to feel this way in front of you, but I wish I was older so I could play this better for you and prove how serious I really am, 'cause I haven't gone. Nature goes a little mad, then, but if you would let me, I could be the change. I know I kept dealing it out until you took it upon yourself to take it all away. Take your time, I said, and take me along. And in the green light red light blues I got nothing new, nothing to prove, and I got nothing left to lose. And you're not mad the music's louder than you can stand, You just wish you could still feel it like I can. I was needing a vein to ground me in a small room in a song gone away. I was down like a heavy beat or heavy lips in a sad decade smaller than your own tides. I want to sleep in New York just one night and wake up with my own peace of mind in pieces of light. When nobody else knew the songs you were singing, I let myself alone and I got it and I was driven. Now you leave me alone because you know how it goes in my mind. I miss the first-hand of what you said today. I'd write to you until our stories were set straight. And in the green light red light blues I got nothing new, nothing to prove, and I got nothing left to lose. And you're not mad the music's louder than you can stand, You just wish you could still feel it like I can. I was so sick for you, you would have been so good for me. We get closer to deliverance as you give to me for free. I want to fuck with the clock, and then I could be better, and you could be just for me and I could be alone together. So I've outgrown what I've built to stay wild around my grounds. It used to look so easy to just slide in like that like in a song gone away, but you know I'd like to be on top of everything for a change. I only bring you down, so let me take you down. And in the green light red light blues I got nothing new, nothing to prove, and I got nothing left to lose. And you're not mad the music's louder than you can stand, You just wish you could still feel it like I can. I've been waist-deep in light exploding in honor of drawn blood. I've been the difference and the big thoughts once. The air aches like a heart balanced on the edge, waiting for the green, and it remembers how it all used to be, and how it still could be if only what had happened had not happened. If only I had not happened to you, if only we had 'if only' again. I get so nervous about the sound of strings and the singing that I'm stoned by going home in a song gone away. And in the green light red light blues I got nothing new, nothing to prove, and I got nothing left to lose. And you're not mad the music's louder than you can stand, You just wish you could still feel it like I can. If I get it right this time, I won't have to come back in a song gone away. But you know I've been your best hurricane. We went down, and you could never stand to be alone with me. I'm nobody's wild anything, but you were my first fire, but not free. And the jukebox heart does what it has to do and gets what it needs And I want you to get it back for me. Get it back for me. And in the green light red light blues I got nothing new, nothing to prove, and I got nothing left to lose. And you're not mad the music's louder than you can stand, You just wish you could still feel it like I can. God, you better let Ed in even if I have to just walk away back down the hall again in a song gone away and spend another summer heart's life taking it on the chin breathing and yet never never coming in. If you got it back for me I wonder if I'd know what to do. I needed a room like I hadn't had the darkness in days for you. I thought I'd remind you that I would never had made you compromise. Then I remembered you don't want me around You can't think of one thing you love to do now while still keeping some dignity. You could learn to like the lies. And in the green light red light blues I got nothing new, nothing to prove, and I got nothing left to lose. And you're not mad the music's louder than you can stand, You just wish you could still feel it like I can. You'd say I've grown so much if you saw me today. I could love and I could be good -- if only in my own way. You don't know what to do with the mess we've made But I can love and I can be good -- if only in your own way But I can love and I can be good -- if I don't get in your way. Eve