1 year!!
After 1 year I decided to post another one in this blog.. hehe.. i've been so very busy with school work.. by the way.. i flunked one subject.. so i'm taking it up again this summer.. hay.. busy summer again!!! bye!!

haay grabe.. tagal kong di nagsulat
siyeet... ano ba yan... 2 mos na kong di nag-uupdate!! 2nd sem na kasi eh.. new love.. new life.. may bago na kong bf!!! wahooo!! 3 cheers for me and francis paulo paez!! nyerks... parang i just wrote here pra ipagkalat na may lovelife ako.. anyways.. highways and byways... kakapagod ang school life!!!!!! lagi akong hanggang gabi!! bad trip puro laboratory pa... sana maka-survive ako this sem... oh well.. back to studying and thinking my....whoosh!

busy busy busy!!
dami kong ginagawa!! bd3pp.. anyway.. just want to update this blog.. oo nga pla.. i have a new love interest.. kaso friends lang muna.. i want to enjoy my single life e.. besides.. di ko pa kayang magmahal ulit..

Eio sa mga gusto ng lyrics ng "Kanlungan" by Noel Cabangon
KANLUNGAN
Performed by: Buklod
Composer: Rom C. Dongeto
Album: Sa Kandungan ng Kalikasan

Pana-panahon ang pagkakataon
Maibabalik ba ang kahapon?

Natatandaan mo pa ba
Nang tayong dalawa ay unang magkita?
Panahon ng kamusmusan
Sa piling ng mga bulaklak at halaman
Doon tayo nagsimulang
Mangarap at tumula

Natatandaan mo pa ba?
Inukit kong puso sa punong mangga
At ang inalay kong gumamela
Magkahawak kamay sa dalampasigan
Malayang tulad ng mga ibon
Ang gunita ng ating kahapon

Ang mga puno't halaman
Ay kabiyak ng ating gunita
Sa paglipas ng panahon
Bakit kailangan ding lumisan

Ngayong ikaw'y nagbalik
At tulad ko rin ang 'yong pananabik
Makita ang dating kanlungan
Tahanan ng ating tula at pangarap
Ngayon ay naglaho na
Saan hahanapin pa

Lumilipas ang panahon
Kabiyak ng ating gunita
Ang mga puno't halaman
Bakit kailangang lumisan

Broken hearted.. :'(
6:11 pm, august 30, 2003

i sit in front of my pc.. having mixed emotions of sadness and joy.. sadness because me and jerwin broked up last 2 days ago.. before our 3rd month anniversarry.. **sigh** joy because we won the recently concluded biogyuyugan.. i never expect us to winn since we only got one week to prepare for the said contest.. in addition.. after we the competition yesterday we went to robinsoin's place to.. well.. celebrate our victory.. for a moment i forgot my sorrow and desperation.. **sigh** anyway.. i'm just gonna bury myself with loads of school work to get over him..

after a deep slumber
one month had passed.. well almost one month.. i wasn't able to update this blog thingy because i ws so busy this past few weeks catching up with my grades.. well.. nothing interesting happened in my life.. i've been isolating myself from the world lately.. ok.. there are.. i guess.. some things which i've realized.. like i'm not satisified with my life right now.. i'm not a complete person.. nothing in my life is right.. oh well.. back to moping

Wow.. very touching..
Minsan Badtrip Magmahal
minsan badtrip magmahal...
iwasan mo, ikaw din masasaktan...
sundan mo,ikaw din iiyak...
bigay mo lahat kulang pa rin...
nagpakatanga ka na,gagaguhin ka pa...
minsan hintay ka nang hintay,di mo alam... iniwan ka na pala.
minsan na akong nagmahal...
minsan na akong nasaktan...
minsan na rin nagpakatanga dahil minsan 'minahal kita'.
hahayaan ko pa bang maulit?
bakit hindi?
eh, minsan lang akong naging masaya nang mahalin kita...
di ba masakit pag iniwan ka?
di ba masakit pag niloko ka?
di ba masakit pag pinaasa ka?
pero di ba mas masakit pag pinaniwala ka na mahal ka nya,
kahit may mahal na sya iba...
nagmahal ka na ba?
pero inakala mong mali kaya tinago mo na lang?
nasaktan ka na dahil alam mong mahal mo sya pero di mo maipakita?
nasubukan mo na bang magsisi na dapat sana
ay sayo sya kung ipinadama mo lang sana...
takot ako mawala ka...di ko alam kung bakit?
di sa hindi ako mabubuhay nang wala ka...kundi takot akong
dumating ung panahon na mahal pa rin kita...kahit wala ka na...
pag nawala ako, siguro di un kawalan syo...
di un makakaepekto sayo, pero gusto ko lang malaman mo, hapi
ako...bakit?
kasi kahit minsan sa buhay ko, nakilala ko ung isang katulad mo...
magmahal? marunong ako nun!
ung tipo bang tanga ka na, sige pa rin kasi mahal mo siyang talaga...
pero sa bandang huli... itatanong mo...
tanga ba talaga ako? o mahal ko lang talaga siya...
mahirap makipaglaban sa bagay na alam mong talo ka...
wala kang magagawa kundi hayaan mo na lang tumahimik hanggang ilayo
niya siya sayo
ang taong pinakamamahal mo,
dun mo maiisip na sana pinaglaban ko siya...
minsan natuto kang magmahal...
minsan naranasan mong masaktan...
minsan natuto kang umasa...
kasi minsan minahal mo siya ng lubusan...

After a deep slumber..
Monday..

I'm here again.. writing to this stupid blog..
so someone read my blog..
hehe.. this is the other side of abigail ruidera who's writing this blog so please 'wag kayong magtaka kung bakit ang flirt-flirt ko dito..

anyway.. the reason why i wasn't able to write or update my life here is because i am so terribly busy with school works.. not to mention my brother who uses the pc almost everdyday, everytime..

well.. i didn't attend my math class because: 1. my body doesn't feel like going to math class when i know that almost every school in taft ave. has no classes 2. i didn't do my homework last night because i was too busy updating myself with the current situation in makati and 3. i don't feel well..

so here i am at 4:37 pm.. soundtripping again.. i might go to the mall and buy me some "pirated" shoes at the "tiangge"

what the heck.. i am just gonna sleep..

nyt folks..

got badtrip last saturday
never did get to see the concert last saturday..

so sad..

nonetheless.. we're gonna see each other tommorrow..

he's my consolation from this world full of sufferings..

i love my life

Concert!!!
3.22 pm..

sound trip..

at the same time thinking what dress will i wear for the concert later..

"antagal na naming di nagkita ni jerwin.." susulitin ko talaga ang oras na binigay sa kin..

i've changed a lot since we started dating.. new perspective ika nga nila..

and i'm very happy..

3.26

gonna end this blog entry.. sound trip muna ako.. haay.. life.. :)