Interfered With (put lightly)

I didn’t know if it was right, or wrong
But, I trusted
A sick feeling burned in the first few times
An unassurance
Diverted glances of self-consciousness
Through time it seemed normal
Expected it
Welcomed it?
It must be normal
For I trusted
He told me it was normal
So it must be . . . no?
No

Pushed away, the years passed
Unspoken
Unthought, except in quick glimpses
Not wanting to think
To remember
Images pushed away
I trusted
I was young
No understanding of concept did I have
No notion of act
Too young to release
Did not know of such a thing
I was young

There’s no sense in “why?”
The disruption will bring no conclusion
Does he live with the knowledge?
And how?
Does it fester within him?
Does he question?
Is he affected?
I don’t know
And may never know
But I can live with the realization
It was not normal
And not within my awareness to control
. . . for I trusted


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