I felt as it chained me
I felt as it took my feelings away
I felt myself suffocate
As my mind and soul separate
Now it has consumed me
Always there day and night
Leaving me bound with no fight
Bound to my own misery
Knowing escapes not even a possibility
Yet still free to move around
But inside feelings keep me bound
And this is all I feel
All that I am able to steal
And all that I love
All that light from above
All that is done
That all is gone
None of which I can feel
Chained to me from within
And I know this is all too real
And I can feel as my will is broken
As everything inside is erased
Erased from the place all things are based
Now I am tortured as I can touch but not feel
Knowing that this is all that life will ever be
Knowing that these bound feelings will never heal
But I do know that only death can free me
But I am young and life is long
So in life I choose my seclusion
I choose this without hesitation
So outside smiles I give
But inside tears I cry
And for the first time I see you wander near
I try to shout but you cannot hear
And now we stand side by side
And you know that my bodies just a shell
So I know ill see you on the inside
But I then begin to worry if you will find anything worth freeing
I can feel you reach to where my heart should be
But you only find an empty feeling
You cannot even find my soul inside
But do not worry it has not died
Now you show me things that I have lost
Helping me remember things I once cherished
The things that have all sense perished
The things I would like back no matter the cost
You show me my lover draped in white
And for the first time sense long his kisses grace me
Reminding me of feelings that used to be
You showed me things so id put up a fight
And now I've broken through my bonds
Sent out to wander down a hall
Sent running down an endless path to freedom
Sent running into my lovers arm knowing that his
love is all that remains
Oh this feeling is so exquisite
Oh how I wish this freedom could remain
But this is only a visit
And I know I cannot stay here
So now I must disappear
Fading away
Like a wrath at the break of day
Sinking back within
Again it will all begin
Once again from within I am bound
Hoping it will not be long till I am again found..........