Treena, You make me feel so strong and beautiful and powerful. Like I can do anything, or be anything. It hurts me so bad when I remember that Im not. Im so shallow. Theres nothing to me. Im so average and normal. Capable of nothing special. Im so ugly and stupid. You deserve someone who brings you joy and beauty into your life, someone who will never hurt you. Ill never be able to be any of this. Sometimes it hurts me so bad that you are wasting your time with me. I just want to run awau and give you the time to think clearly and see this all for yourself. Sometimes your touch alone, hurts me so badly that I cry. I will never be the man you need or deserve. Ill never be anything. All I know is that I love you completely, with my mind, body and soul. But I still dont understand how you can love me. Im nothing. Im empty and fake. I dont know how Ive managed to forget these things about myself. When they resurface, it hurts so bad. Especially now, that Im not alone. I love you, and I know you love me but sometimes I dont understand what there is for you to love.