I wonder sometimes what my life would be like had I not started dating John and went ahead and dated Chris or someone else. I wonder what it would be like had John and I decided to date other people. I always believed that no matter what happened - John and I would have always ended up back together. Well, I can honestly say that I hope that is what happens with this situation. I truly believe that John and I are meant to be together. I keep thinking that this time apart will be a major growing experience for the two of us - that we will be better people because of this. But, that we will get back together. That we will be even happier and healthier as a couple. However weird that may sound. I truly believe he is the one for me - I want to grow old with him. I want him to be the first thing I see in the morning and the last thing before I go to bed. He's the love of my life. I'll go on with my life - but I will always be waiting for him.....