This Page Is Moving, press hereto go to the new page. :) Thanks ::Drown and Die:: slipping into this world of darkness didnt take me very long my soul has been sliced with painful sharpness and im not feeling very strong * i feel so weak, i cant hold on i cant wait for my blood to run dry lifes a cruel game and im just a pawn who suddenly cant wait to die * i am submerged in a world of smoke so thick i cannot see through but i know whats standing behind this joke hes a killer, a demon, hes you * you've helped my depression swallow me whole and you said you would always be there why coundnt i see you were eating my soul and that you never really did care? * now i am lying here all alone my eyes and my mind are blank my spirit is frozen, hard as stone into this world i sank wiht your help, my so called friend and now you are turning away for me this is the ultimate end for you its just another day * you dust yourself off, wipe your brow not a single tear do you cry you havent cried for so long and you wont cry now watching me drown and die ::Broken:: each night i cried for my broken country yugoslavia's been blown to bits and i cant even remember my name these letters in front of me once familiar and friendly are now barbaric i think this war has stolen my intellect maybe im not crying for the broken country but for the broken home my own coz ages before i was around there was fighting and crying and lying and dying and broken hearts and broken families a country had already been broken and "war" was always on a serbs lips and shoulders and head and heart the fighting has never ceased it is nothing new i doubt it will ever stop so all thats new is this rude awakening to my naive spirit now naive and vulnerable ::Curiosity:: a savage beast roars inside my head and my conscience and morality pushing htem outside they matter not for only this thirst for knowledge feels real right now oh my curiosity is such a beast yeah, curiosity killed thae cat chewed it up spat out its bloody, mutilated corpse at my feet,p>to show me and the world his might and my disgusted shrieks that escaped the part of me that cared for wrong and right were suffocated by curiosity, hte beast's loud, sudductive laughter ::Oblivious:: im oblivious to what u think of me blind to what i dont want to see deaf to what i dont want to hear oblivious to the fact htat you dont want me near * i wont step dow and i wont agree when you speak negative truths about me im living in a world of fantasy dreams oblivilous to your frustrated screams * i wnat to skip and i want to smile im convinced htat you'll join me once in a while im lyk a child and htere are things i cant see oblivious to the differences between you and me ::Playing God"" its not right to play god and i wont pretend to understand why you freed the blood in your veins witht the knife in your hands yea ur life was worht living why the hell were you so dumb i used to be sad and angry now im just sitting here numb and wondering and trying to figure out why u let suicide suduce you and decided to die she must have promised you many things i bet happiness was on the list but now youre just cold and dead and really really missed hell no i wont forgive you youve hurt me far too deep too selfish to see how this would affect the world into evil you decided to creep and i wonder if youll go to heaven or if youll have another life if you do, dont play god and take it think and put down the fucking knife ::Your Pain:: i feel your pain because you force it on me for my benefit you promise me or is it for yours? to ventilate your anger rage and pain youre slicing into me boring deep into my soul but my pain is not being released its growing growing up inside me holing up inside me im overflowing thanks to your generosity you watch your pain die away as you watch me cry you fucking monster dont i cause you any grief any pain? no im a worthless whore but you say its for my own good you must care ::Raining:: Its raining arms and legs in Israel
Its raining tears from my eyes
Its raining in this fucking world
We, or “god” have created
Look around you
There is no god
Or maybe he was kidnapped
And is being held hostage in hell
While the devil reins with misery
Its raining everywhere
But where was god when my country was born I’m sure he didn’t make Yugoslavia for war
Where was god when it was raining arms and legs in Israel
where was god when it was raining bombs in Yugoslavia where the hell is he when we need him the most
in all of our homes
why did he put us here to suffer
why did he leave us with out umbrellas
::Everything Addiction:: youre my addiction and i cant slow down youre my contradiction ive got one foot on the ground * youre my desire youre what i dont need you burn lyk fire and i laugh and bleed * i understand you but then i dont i want you to love me just coz you wont * i want to be you and i wanna run away youre false, youre true you leave, you stay * lyk alcohol i drink you and you make me feel ill and so i should stop but i dont think i will * youre my confidant who i cant trust and i dont wanna see you but i feel that i must * coz youre my addiction eating me real slow is it fact or fiction i sure as hell dont know * and i wanna choke you and i wanna hear you sing and i wish you were nothing but youre my everything ::Drip:: watch my blood drip to the floor finally its over, misery no more be shocked by the calmness in my eyes now its time, my spirit dies watch the pain fade from my soul as death swallows me, i feel so whole my blood is rinsing misery away and i cant wait to rot, cant wait to decay i cannot wait for my pain to die soon i will not have to cry my life's a joke but now it ends see you soon, my so called friends ::Untitled:: Fuck the present forget the future come and reminise about the past with me ___________________ remember how we were? remember how we talked? we were so good together. remember how we laughed and danced? ___god i miss those days ::Confused Faith:: and im farther away from god than ever
seeking a way to stay alive forever
with out believing in this apperent love
or this apperent god from up above *
unthreatened by the threats of flames
unshaken by the holy ones blames
but im torn and broken coz of questions inside
and down and down on faith ill slide *
untill this apperent god reaches out a hand
gives me evidence on which i could stand
gives me a cusion on which i could fall
earases all doubts till there are none at all *
but untill then ill year for faith unbroken
untill i have proof that is more than spoken
i thot i wasnt afraid but there are so many holes
in what i believe, in what i think i know *
what will happen when my world ends
will i be there to make amends? *
dont know if ill burn dont know if ill drown
i never believed id go up or down
but i cannot believe this, not now not never
and im farther away from god than ever ::Teach Me How To Smile::
please teach me how to smile again please teach me how to feel coz ive been submerged in pain so long that i cannot tell whats real * please unlock my happiness confined in a corner of my soul please teach me how to smile again and help me to feel whole * my spirit has been shattered time and time again you were the only one who stood there and helped my soul to mend * and when the time comes and you need a hand i promise i will be there beside you i will stand * but i cannot do that when im afraid and broken a victim of life and of lies that one had spoken * so wrap me up in bandages kiss away my pain i need to be strong for you later on so please teach me to smile once again ::Numb:: i have seen so much bloodshed most of it mine ive grown numb to the colour of red and i cannot feel my tears anymore yet they keep coming back every night as i cry emptily for my soul which is dead i should have moved on by now but i stand still rooted to the spot with stony, opaque eyes where do i stand so numb the locked gates of heaven and their slamming reins eternal a ringing in my ears it doenst hurt so much any more guess ive grown numb to something yet again but god do i wish i could feel sometimes... ::Untitled:: im chocking on my insecurities trippping over broken pieces of my esteem u stole my confidence just coz u could hell u even stole my dreams * u left me fumbling in the dark a clumsy mess from inside-out and when i cried those burning tears i think you knew what they were about * you stiffled a laugh as i suffocated a tear and i tried to run so far away but u were always so near * and im scared of what will happen next unsure of what will happen to me youve taken so much of my soul will i die this emptily? * tell me now, coz its your call or is it up to me...?? could i posses the power to walk away and finally be free * well im gonna say 'yes,' and this confidence will grow back 2ce as strong coz i found the strength to move past you it was in me all along ::Untitled:: so uve all turned your backs so uve all turned away and ill say i dont need u but i need u to stay * i need u so much i need u so much i need u so much i need to feel ur touch * well its time to let go maybe by accepting this my loneliness will leave misery, be dismissed... * coz u dont need me coz u dont need me coz u dont need me well how can this be? * ill step out of your world and into my own its thick and its black i suffocate all alone * my loneliness remains as my only friend but soon i will leave him for i can almost taste the end * my need to be accepted not by all, just by u is killing me now and i dont know what to do * maybe its time to let go and u know that i will try but i cannot seem to let of u till the lonelines in me subsides ::Corruption:: the time has come to give up this innocence maintained and a single tear rolls down the corrupted angels face * dreams left abandonned of this purity sustained the white gown, symbolic is torn shredded and red * expercienced demons feeding off clean souls eased her into this ran a knife up her arms piercing the skin freeing hte blood in her veins as red spots grew deeper * she closes her eyes; numb she does not cry then slowly she opens her eyes lifts heavy lids to reveal now colourless eyes eyes that are not hers * she starts to laugh a laugh not her own a laugh never heard from her before * ::now she is losing her innocence:: * a single tear rolls down her cheek this tear contains what is left of her innocence it rolls down her face and crashes to the ground splatters on the floor purity shattered white gown torn * the demons kiss her mouth corruption complete ::Untitled:: i want to make the shy soul speak i want to make the tough soul cry i want to make the hard soul feel and kiss the hurt soul's pain goodbye i want to be the loveless' obsession i want the neutral to take my side i want to understand the confused i wnat to make the seeker hide i want to give the weak soul power i want to give the quiet soul noise give the insecure a taste of confidence and give the clumsy a little poise i want to contradict the unquestionable i want make the wounded soul fly i want to make the angels sin and give the poor soul the priceless sky i dont want to be average i want to leave an impression i want to take ur breath away and kill the sad souls depression ::Amour Celeste:: il y avait un temps dans ma vie un temps noir mon ésprit aveugle aux choses joyeux j'ai pas pensé que j'ai eu beaucoup de temps qui me reste ::mais une ange a touché mon ésprit et remplisé mon coeur une ange a sauvé ma vie et m'a montré l'amour:: il y avait un temps dans ma vie le seul sourire que j'ai vu était dans mon miroir cassé une image faux et dérrangé et je me suis reveillé a chaque matin avec une tristesse enourme j'ai voulu mourir mais j'étais pas assaiz forte ::mais une ange a touché mon ésprit et remplisé mon coeur une ange a sauvé ma vie et m'a montré l'amour:: merci aux ailes comfortants qui m'ont guidé sans me judgé la récouperation de ma vie par ton amour celeste
::Eclipse::
Apollo's darkenend sister rode the chariot of night the stars, they knew her secrets the moon he held her tight * lyk clockwork she appeared as the blazing sun had set in painting darkness she found peace and nocturnal secret * the stars, they got to know her the moon, he stole her heart so she returned @ the end of each day anxious for nighttime to start * so blindly in love with him she sped towards the moon she was faster than her time that day and she died a death too soon * what bore into her pale, night flesh the cresent moons sharp end she make a hole in herself before the moon was full again * her frail body hung on, mutilated as he breathed,"it was too fast" and then he wept her blood as tears for Death's spell had just been cast * the stars now splattered with red drops of sorrow one death touched them all and left them all hollow * her life had dripped away now the conquering sun and Apollo made their way for the day had begun * the sight that greeted them a young life shattered lead 2 enemies to meet but it didnt matter * now one blocks the other in memory of he lips and hair and eyes and sombre beauty of Apollo's sister, called Eclipse
::Solid Ground::
why was i so afraid of falling in love with you why did i prentend not to hear oppurtunity as it knocked on the door why did i pretend not to see your hand reach out to help my soul up i thot that if i didnt love you it wouldnt hurt when it ended coz eveything dies i think even if we believe it is forever instead for some strange reason it huirt even more we could have been something great maybe even the first permanent thing in my life had i been unafraid to love and i really need u now more than ever i need the stability i had once taken for granted now i see how very much i need u but ur gone, its too late ive lost u im stranded in the ocean forever dreaming of solid ground
::Untitled::
the coldness seeped into her veins as she stood betrayed and broken drenched with tears u cant see in the rain left with nothing but memories unspoken * the waves had crashed on her relentlessly these waves came from her ocean of tears she had been drying them endlessly but so much has been cried through the years * one day she thought she met someone promised to take her away and save her but the pain had only just begun her poor heart would bear such labour * now he is through with her, got all he needs shes even emptier than before she is left so hollow because of his greed that even the angels cant helo any more * the angels had tried to repair her soul it was broken and hopelessly shattered but they knew deep down she would never be whole so hopeless, they hoped it didnt matter * now she is standing all alone she feels nothing, so numb from the pain she has no spirit, she has no home unable to love once again * the best for her was simply to die even angels could not fix her soul she was the victim of evil and lies maybe dead she can feel more whole ::Promise::
Have you ever broken a promise to yourself? I break it everyday.I promised myself that i would stop loving you Please dont love me. I will only make you cry I cannot help it.I've been trying to suffocate this feeling in vain For your sake, supress it. For i know what will happen, i know myself I know u too.Thats why i love you. u do not know what will happen to your heart No risk is too great This is a suicide mission. You are too sweet to be hurt by me. I could not bear to watch u suffer You have told me all this before, but I cannot stop loving you There is nothing lovable about me You're awesum. You're different Actually, I'm just lyk you are What do u mean? I made a promise to myself, for your sake ad... Have you ever broken a promise to yourself I break it everyday. I promised myself that i would stop loving you. ::End Of Pain::
when u look up i see the tears that brim ur eyes tears that any other mortal would have already cried after nights of soul searching finding no answers left w/ heartache chilled to the bone those tears could have been cried those nights alone lying awake in the cold lonley bed begging them with peace war with demons in ur head o ur spirit may be shattered and ur soul bloodied and bruised from the hardships and curve balls life shot out at you u feel so wasted and used o u could have cried those tears so long ago and as the first one rolls down your broken voice whispers, "i cant take it anymore" well i cant take it either watching u suffer this way watching ur spirit die o, i just want to kill you i want to suck the life dry out of you so htat u cannot feel anything so that you cannot feel pain and i want to bleed and die away with u we will never hurt again so drink with me to the end of pain drink with me to death and pray we will meet in another life just no more pain oh, tell me, is it wrong to love someone more than yourself? id die for u to end the pain but id rather die with u we wont ever hurt again so drink wiht me to the end of pain drink with me to death drink the blood htat flows through my veins prey we'll meet again drink with me to the end of pain
::Sunshine::
when i close my eyes all i see is black then i turn my head to the sun all i see is red how dareit shine so brightly all the time when my sombre days feel hollow and meaningless even though sum days i too, feel lyk the sun forced to be happy and bright and to shine on everyone but at least the fucking sun gets a break once in a while hides behind the clouds to break down and cry it doenst have to shine on the world fuck id give nething for a cloud s umtimes
::I Made It::
i made it through today with out tears i made it thru today with out crying i made it thru today with out pain i made it thru today only lying * i made it through today hiding my imperfections and my doubts i thot i made it thru today coverd upo but its now time for the tears to come out * i know hat for a while i wont make it through today with out pain or inner suffering or happiness lead astray * soffocate my tears but theres a leak inside i have to face the truth coz theres no where to hide * i made it thru today wiht out happiness for now i know this is hte only way and although i am sad, im also greatful because i made it through today!::Untitled::
its so cold out here by myself
excluded from ur soul
why can i accept u
when u threw me in the cold? *
oh i dont know what happened
to hte life that once was there
why do i miss it so fuckn much
when u dont even care *
i thot that u were better than that
i thot that u were real
instead i lost my face, my soul
these open wounds will never heal *
i think that i loved you
i think u used to care now i dont know and im falling fast hanging on to somehting htats not there
::Happiness::
i chase happiness the golden hind the hunt is on but as soon as i get a grasp the happiness o, it lingers momentary before it turns into a ghost and fades away through my fingers like sand it slips away and the hunt, it is back on i begin to think whats the point i will never get a solid grip there is so much effort in the chase i dont know if its worth it i dont know if its fair i shouldnt have to chase happiness lyk this the hunt should not be so intense maybe i should just give up let it run away but then what will i eat if i cannot catch this beast my soul will starve i will die
::The Day Forever Died::
you told me that
you'd love me forever
time was ticking
but it could tick for all eternity
i figured
instead
it blew up in my face
the day forever died
*
the day it died
i felt numb
my foot was asleep
and so was my heart
i didn't cry but
then i felt it bleed
you peirced my heart
with your sharp teeth
*
a whimper
the only sound that escaped me
as you turned your back
i held the rest in
the day forever died
::The Slut::
she had no future
but what a past
we were waiting to see
how long she'd last
*
how many more days
would she say alive
would she stay out of jail
would she survive
*
we were all waiting
and watching from afar
our own little freakshow
and she was the star
*
too bad we werent watching
when she finally swallowed
3 bottles of advil, extra strenght
into that stomache so hollowed
*
i think she wished
that we had been there
but would we have stopped her?
would we have cared?
*
it doesnt matter
noone sees
her slipping away
so silently
*
the women had whispered
the men had craved
now a single red rose
lies on her grave
::Aura::
i wonder what colour
my aura is...
i know all about yours
you see,
it was the most brilliant gold
almost blinding!
but as time wore on
the brilliance faded
the gold tarnished
this aura is not what it used to be
every drink
every puff
every painful word
that escapes your corrupted mouth
dulls your aura
it is no longer so beautiful
but maybe you'll get around
to cleaning it
::Yesterday::
i painted my nails pink, yesterday
to cover up the black
i faked rose coloured glasses yesterday
and covered scars that kissed my back
*
i hid my pessimism yesterday
as i faked cheerful smiles
i ran away from my problems yesterday
yea, i ran for many miles
*
i thought htat i was safe yesterday
as i hid behind a lie
i promised myself yesterday
that you'd never see me cry
*
i was really careful yestreday
as i walked the hot coals
but my pink nail polish has chipped today
and you can see my black soul
*
i tried faking'happy' yesterday
so i guess that noone knew
how much i need them here today
for i feel my life is through
*
i thought of soemthing yesterday
i think ill tell you now
so maybe someone else can live today
here, i'll show you how,
*
if you see someone smiling, take this into mind...
*
if im smiling too much
or my smile is too wide
please be my friend
coz im crying inside
*
i painted my nails pink, yesterday
i was living a lie
i killed myself the very next day
now my nails have dried
::Check Mate::
i never saw it coming so blinded by your light your lies that i could not see the dark clouds that hung gloomy in the distance untill it was too late you see, i thought u were the sun true, but that was only part of you and i do not know if this part was even real the other piece comes into play a dark cloud so sad and sombre and miserable so afraid that its the truth so afraid that it is you i need to talk to you again, to know why i need to be freed from my mind for as it tries to understand you it plays awful, pessimistic games with my heart kind of like you is this am i a game? do you win by lying and breaking my heart well, you're succeeding and youre moving into checkmate
::Mouth::
mouth we dont directly corrupt our souls we first corrupt our mouths with sharp words that we shoot undoing cupids work arrows of hatred shot frum our mouths and what we put in.. this oriface opens to recieve (its eager, but experienced now, after all this time) lyk a whores legs, it opens recieving bad, dirty things smokes and booze sluts tongue look at what you have done, mouth youve corrupted his soul
::Broken Promises::
u promised me forever, but then forever died
u promised that you'd love me, but it was all a lie
u promised that you'd keep me, safe within your soul
u said that i could trust you, and that only truth was told
u promised me the stars that sparkle in the sky
u promised me forever, but then forever died
::Subtle Suicide::
so quietly so sublty i felt nobody cared so i gave a subtle sign so cute a mute messenger a silent cry for help you could not did not look benieth the surface u thot u knew what it was about u thot u knew everything u thot that u were invincible i thot htat once, too and look @ me now dead you know, you could have saved me had you decoded my subtle sign instead it lead to a subtle suicide
::Doors::
please dont cry i warned you of the pain now u know how i feel hurt and hurt again * i dont tell my secrets i hide my soul in lies you thot that you could trust me instead i made you cry * u kno that i told you of hte pain that others cause i never meant to hurt you but now the bond is lost * im so very sorry that ive made you cry i had to, coz u go too close to the truth inside * i booted you out from the doors of my soul i slammed the gates in ur face and left you in the cold * ive gone back, the doors are closed its easier for me one day we'll both smile again one day we'll both be free
::Fallen::
what they had once promised you that dream has died you found out too late that they had lied * eternal life to you and your friends turned out to be void coz the world WiLL end * they had once promised you it was under control evil locked away to return never more * they always thought they had it made that souls need not be protected but only saved * well they thought wrong for evil and sin had finally clawed their way back in * led by a fallen angel who had turned to the dark side now theres fire and bloodshed and no place to hide * they seeked to destroy the place that should always be they were killing heaven for all eternity * and as angels dropped from the clouds lyk flies as your ears are filled with terror and lies * as all hell breaks loose bloodied wings fall to the ground as the whole, wide world turns rite around * and as you hear the shreiks of the souls theyre still after what youre really hearing is satans laughter
::Twist::
so we talked all night about nothing just lyk we used to do whatever happened to our friendship it was so sweet and true untill we unknowingly went out separate ways didnt see you again till 6 months later and i cried bout all thats changed still you held me close let me know that you cared dried my salty tears touched my messed up hair that just made me cry all over again i was just so overwhelmed realized how much i missed you and loved you but we lost touch again till you said i love you too and now your back inside my heart inside my mind and soul the way that it was before but this time theres a twist there is somting new the friedship that we had before has grown and bloomed now i hope i can keep you forever so scared to lose you again the sweetest love ever known a love between friends look at us and how weve grown
::Lost Innocence::
you've tempted me for way too long now you touch me as i speak as i officially resign from 'PuRe' stop tempting me with evil i want no deeper in blood red petals float on black paint what kind of picture does it paint salty tears, warm red blood what kind of picture does that paint a one way street to emptyness rejected from myself changed beyond backtracking sweet bitterness what kind of picture does that paint paint me with your red and black ill tell you what you paint you paint hte picture of lost innocence
::Untitled::
too late now
we've missed out plane
looks lyk were stuck here
in the middle of nowhere
again
*
again were left
hearts are broken
well mine is, i believe
is yours even alive?
your words are unspoken
::Dead Understanding::
i imagine that... the final moment before you are caught in deaths icy grip all doubts are gone you feel at peace u understand the soul feels its worth why is it such a design? we chase understanding we capture it at the end at deaths door but our grasp is momentary and it dies when the door is opened the understanding freed flies away the grasp dies for as the door opens we die too
::Contradiction::
contradicting thoughts batthe through my mind battle field it used to be me vs u as we snarled at each other refusing to step down neither one accepting defeat and neither one found victory but your ideas have seaped into my mind the enemy is in and its shooting me, my ideas down my happiness becomes fake my efforts mediocre i hate the way im thinking now youve seaped in and i cant seem to get you out coz what if your rite? then all i have known is a lie i dont want to rebuild everything for there is nothing left to rebuild with the happiness the wood its all been burned well who could have done it? well, theres you standing in the battlefield in my territory in my mind wiht a can of gas a handfull of matches but the smug smile on your face contradicts with the pain in your eyes
::Sleep::
some hate going to sleep it means their day has come to an end some love going to sleep it means they can reminise aboiut the wonderful day some love waking up dawn is fresh with hope and happiness but dawn is no longer fresh for me ihate waking up coz it means yet another day has begun another miserable day but i love going to sleep it means my day is finally done i just wish i didnt have to wake up again let me sleep forever a litte piece of that eternal black slumber so fondly refered to as death
::Drowning::
last nite i cried my teary eyes are finally open to all your lies i wish i didnt have to cry but i drowned in tears instead of lies im glad i drowned im glad i died knowing the truth but it hurt so i cried
::Liar::
what in the world is it gonna take how many lies are left to fake coz i see you in swirls of smoke but then you say"i dint take a toke" u kno i want this to be true that i want to depend on you but you cannot be relied on? do you love me, or is it gone? i just want an answer clear i just want to have you here i want your love and not ur lies sweet truth instead of alibies just tell me that youve never lied love me and dont make me cry
::Inspiration::
it fluttered away as i thout of the past escaped me so quickly dissapeared so fast * next time ill grip it squeeze it out real slow onto the paper as it starts to grow * never again will i let future inspiration slip away as my mind drifts off to yesterday * wont stop to cry wont stop to pray ill run with the ball ill run rite away * ill stop 4 u, though youre special to me u are my inspiration for eternity
::Untitled::
why do u lie why do u spoonfeed me bullshit i thot that maybe u were different i loved talking to you you were fun and interesting and different but i guess it was all bullshit so u quit? bull? you told me that you loved me let me guess...a lie? but heres the part that hurts the most you said you could tell me anything you made me love you why? i know why u never asked u never loved me so why did you say u did im so hurt why do u lie i thought that i could trust you i reserved my heart it anxiously waited but then it split when you 180ed and ran away suddenly, im scared for you thru my shaking gasps and tears i plead please tell me whats wrong i want to help i want to be someone you trust i want u to hold my heart in ur hands as i hold yours in mine and feel finally safe
::Stolen Smiles::
i had a dream once you killed it with all your wicked lies you filled my head with so much bull that now my dream has died * i used to have self confidence till ur words took it away i used to hold my head up high but now it hangs each day * i had self respect a while ago but you took that too im left with out my dignity and its all because of you * i had a smile once you killed it u left me drenched in tears i lost the "me" i used to have and all i found are fears
::One With The Sea::
at 206m above sea level i cant talk much speachless for once as i am hushed gently by a sense of wonder and bewilderment for there is so much to marvel at so much to see i am standing taller than all of htese trees they have been reaching for the sky all these years and they give me a sense of peace as they sway so softly in the wind the water glistens and sparkles from above i feel godworthy to be seeing this the horizon blue mountains and a fine line of light where sea meets sky below me a little town full of little people with little lives i wonder what it feels lyk to live hthere so close to nature so close to the water and the little lighthouse so lonely but it doesnt seem to mine for i think its little heart knos secrets secrets you can only discover when youre one with the sea
::Hell on Earth::
this place escapes what we have caused the hell weve made all we have lost * here im really far away from the world in which we live today why do we only live for ourselves? were against everything and were living in hell * "thats bull," i hear u say "what in the world are you on today?!?" * well if you love this earth so much release it from your greedy clutch * and if u really love your brother why are we constanly at war with each other? * if theres a god then i bet he is housing grief and regret * what in the world have we done? and what in the world will we become?
::Suffocate::
wash it off do it again hide the beauty suffocate the skin * go a shade deeper put on another coat look like the others dont rock the boat * just be like them dont let them see that youre better than them coz thats deadly * what have u become, i wonder but i also try to figure out what youre trying to hide
::Snapped::
its snapped. i knew it would, eventually i cant believe ive held on for so fucking long * some will welcome the change ask what the hell took me so long most will ditch me, the good ones and a precious handfull will stand by me no matter what * thanks, you guys. well FUCK! i dont want to be S N A P P E D you cant go back youre marked and fuck being marked
::Deal::
screams in my head not silent screams though loud and piercing im jus thte only one who hears them * i think im going crazy or is the rest of the world? my issues are the answers
to their issues * so if they would only find another way to pass the time or another way to DEAL * maybe id stop crying maybe id stop screaming in my head maybe i could hear myself think
::Angel?::
strip away the layers tell me whats beneith coz i sure as hell dont know do i slepep on clouds while the rest sleep on cold ground? am i really that much better? just because i look lyk i have everything straight together because i dont i just lyk to think i do i just lyk to have you call me Godess i just lyk to be your role model of perfection i just want to be everything for you i just dont have time for me i only care about you, i know ill be fine youre my world, my children so just cross your fingers and hope im right
::Good Enough::
never good enough ill never be small enough thin enough pretty enough hot enough good enough for me * never satisfied the outside will always be ugly and boring and plain and because of that the inside will always be insecure * my confidence will be small thin but not pretty not hot and not good enough
::Little Red Riding Hood::
hey, little red riding hood
youve been lead astray
the big bad wolf
stole ur innocence *
hey little red riding hood
your mom showed u the way
and said dont talk to starngers
but you were such a good victim *
hey, little red riding hood
how do u feel today
probably violated and dirty
but dont cry, its not your fault *
hey, little red riding hood
i know u tried to run away
but he was too big, too strong
and now you bear such shame *
hey little red riding hood
u feel rottten and decayed
he said it wouldnt hurt
but now u are scarred forever *
hey little red riding hood
u were just tryin to find ur way
but the forest was so dark
he blindfolded you into silence *
hey little red riding hood
it doesnt have to be this way
maybe if you talk, ull regain justice
though u can never have ur innocence back
::Untitled::
the way our souls interwined it was all one big mess with the ups and the downs
backs and forths on again off again it was all a big tangled web it was lyk we were so close i guess thats why i could never get mad or let go of you
::So Trust Me::
so let me go so let me breathe so take your tongue out of my mouth and let me speak so untie me so shut up stop the smothering i kno its not coz you love me its coz ur afraid not afraid to lose me afraid of me so do i intimidate you because i know you because you accidentally let me in too far you werent watching when i swam in too deep so now you want to breathe me in not because you love me so much because you want to keep me confined keep it together for when i was inside your soul i snatched myself a little piece you want that back but ive swallowed it youre never getting it away from me so you swallowed me to make sure that it Never gets out and to keep it all together coz you dont wanna be a vending machine with ur soul no matter how much ppl give you do not dispense you are too expensive to be a vending machine you are a heavily guarded castle of secrets and now im locked inside so let me out i cant give back what i took its inside me now but i promise to guard it i promise i wont hurt you so stop smothering me with fake love so let go so trust so
::Killing Summer::
o, you are so jealous even though you dont look green but i know that you sometimes wish that you did * o, she has so much life and you, you are so dead you want to suck away all the happiness * ::But even as you blow it all away you dont get any better she dies, but you stay the same such a cycle so painful so forever:: * see what you blow away you cannot steal for if she cannot have it no one will so all that you are left with is ugly, cold and brown i hope you feel lyk shit and that guilt wears you down * o you waste o you waste ::Coz even as you blow it all away you dont get any better she dies, but you stay the same such a cycle, so painful, so forever.:: * you were killing summer blow it all away nothing in return you stay ugly, so the same you are so jealous but brown and not green forever killing summer... *
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