Time

Time, where does it go? Time, does it ever stand still? Where did time go for me, it has been six very long and trying months
that I laid you to rest and a month that I lost your brother,
yet both to me seem like a lifetime.

When I found out I was carrying your brother I was shocked and happy not sure what to do. Then I imagined somehow you and Nick talked
God into bringing a little happiness into mine and his fathers life.
Just as quickly as it was there it was gone.

YES, I imagine you had a brother and I named him Jason Seth, the name your sister picked out for him. I imagine he looked
like his Daddy, with rich brown hair and solid brown eyes.
His personality laid back and calm, gentle in nature.

He has you and a brother up there too and with both of you by his side, he will quickly learn what love is all about. Our three little angels,
I imagine you three laughing and playing, your giggles ringing in our ears.
OH, dear angels protect him for he is as tiny as can be.

Our happiness once again turned to sorrow, our smiles again to tears, our fullness to emptiness. I look to our angels for strength
to make it through, your wings spread open and wide carrying
us to where we are going to find our peace and joy.

I can imagine you both holding him right now my sweet pea, kissing his cheek, kiss him for us. Picking up his tiny little hand and waving it at
us, smiling happily. Anna and Nick, hold him tight and don't let go.
You two are all he has to cuddle him.

We'll never bid you farewell, We'll never say good bye. Six months and one month without you and you are still here, in my heart and my mind.
Nick, I never knew you sweet little angel but now you have a brother
that binds us together, therefore goodbye it will never be.

Cuddle together as one, you all are wrapped in our love.
My arms are aching to hold you all, empty they fall to my sides but
full of love for each one of you. My tears are falling one by one,
just really missing you each and everyone..

A.M.
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