Location: New York State, U.S.A. For the most part I am usually in Tompkins County, but I am a permanent resident in Brooklyn
Romantic
Status: Currently Looking for a Nice Girl
(No bitches please ;)
How
I began to write poetry: It began during the spring of 2001. I was overwhelmed
with warm fuzzy feelings, and I wrote my first two poems, which were " Sad
Snowy Day" and " Him". The semester following that one I wrote
another two poems which were " You" and "Hope". Those two
poems are perhaps some of my favorite poems. The semester following that I
wrote the rest of them, for the exception of the new poems which I wrote this
semester.
A
little about me: I was born in the capitol of the old soviet union ( Moskow) on
August 27 1981. From that point on until I was 4 years old I lived in a town
near Moskow called Dolgoprudniy. Dolgoprudniy from what I heard was a fun time
but I really don't remember any of it I guess because I was too little to
remember. When I was four years old my
parents and I moved to another town called Pushkino. Living in Pushkino was
both a fun time and a really depressing one at the same time. Me being a Jewish
kid in a Russian society which tends to be very antisemitic was very hard. The
prejudice began in kindergarten and lasted all the way up to 6th
grade in school when my family immigrated to the United States. All kinds of things happened, anything from
being locked in a roll away bed to being jumped by 12 Russian kids screaming
" Kill the Jew." By the time I was 12 my family did not want to deal
with it anymore and we followed the rest of my family to the United States.
America was wonderful, full of surprises and wonders. I was having the time of
my life, drinking coca-cola and eating a cheeseburger. It didn't take long for
me to fall in love. I think I was 13 when it happened. To describe the whole
experience in a few words would be to say " harsh and painful." The girl whom I so dearly adored decided
after we hooked up that she didn't like me anymore or something, so she ignored
me and got with other guys in front of my face. That part killed me, I was
really depressed for a few years after that. Then the other highlight of my
life was my cousin who was coming up from Russia. This kid was my age and I
thought he will be the brother that I always wanted. As you guys can probably
see already nothing in my life works out the way I want it to. The kid became
the biggest bully towards me ever. He was worst then those Russian kids that
were kicking my ass (hey at least they had a reason to kick my ass). His
bullying lasted for a few years, until he moved away to Detroit and I was alone
again. By that time I was finishing up my 5th year in High School
and was getting ready for college.
College came on pretty quick and hit me with a lot of studying that I
wasn't used to, I succeeded however and did really well. My success was
overshadowed by my mothers death. That experience shocked and terrified me, I
felt alone in the world, so I broke up with my girlfriend and dedicated my self
to studying. As the semester went by I noticed another girl whom I seemed to be
attracted to. This girl was gorgeous. She was petite, but at the same time she
was just right in all the right places.
Her brown hair, which was constantly on the side of her beautiful face,
correlated perfectly with her eyes that kept changing from light blue to light
green. Before I knew it I was in love again. I didn't even know this girls
name, but yet I had more feelings for her then anyone in my world at the time.
Time went on and fate brought us closer together. We got to be best of friends.
At times she would tell me she loves me and see my eyes light up and my face
turn red in shame. It really wasn't long before I confessed my feelings to her.
When she found out she totally brushed me off telling me that she didn't feel
the same way and never even had any type of attraction towards me. I was
devastated. The next day I went to work and wrote her a huge letter describing
my whole experience being in love with her. The following weekend we went down
to a lake somewhere in the upstate region, and when we came back she told me
she loved me. I was so happy, happy enough to jump around naked outside so that
everyone sees me( I didn't really do thatJ). Shortly after, the semester ended and we went home for
our summer vacations. We wrote to each other the whole summer. She had problems
with her ex-boyfriend whom she still had feelings for, and I was cheering her
on as much as I could. We met once that summer, but nothing happened. When we
came back the following semester, she was back with her ex. I decided to leave
her alone ( being a good religious Jew and all). My feelings however thought
otherwise, and before I knew it I was more in love then ever. Every gesture of
hers, everything she said to me expressed her love to me. I was truly blind. By
the end of the semester I guess she didn't like something that I said to her
boyfriend, so she called me and told me off. After that conversation I was
devastated once more, all women seemed evil to me and wherever I would look
there were girls who were cheating on their boyfriends and girls who were
telling guys they loved them when they really didn't and guys getting
hurt. That is where I am at this point
of my life. Kewl HuhJ J
PLEASE
ENJOY ALL OF MY POEMS!!!!!
