Truth hurts-poem
Mood:  not sure
Truth Hurts
Your presence slowly faints into the shadows of the night.
Our friendship slowly dimming like that of a candle in the wind.
The memories of our times spent together settled themselves in my mind with no intension's of leaving.
Tears wait to roll down the curves of my face with patience like that of a mother to her children.
As i think back to that dreadful night when the unthinkable became thinkable,
I'm convinced that there is more to the problem then just needing to be alone.
For you strength exceeds beyond a problem such as this,
So i thought our bond did as well.
I can't decide whether you caused me pain to hinder a greater pain in the future,
Or if it was some fault within myself where you no longer wanted to be with me.
My need for answers grows with each passing day.
My loneliness falling deeper within the depths of time.
Our existence as one is now just a piece of the past,
I realize now that this piece will never fit into the future.
Your presence slowly faints into the shadows of the night.

Truth Revealed-poem
Mood:  hug me
The Truth Revealed
I walk not in a state of depression nor in a state of complete happiness.
By keeping my mind and myself occupied,
I avoid thinking about you, about us and how it used to be.
I keep my outward appearance unshaken,
Deceiving even those closest to me.
Why i hide my feelings and keep them hidden from outsiders,
I do not know.
When I am alone my barriers fall,
Unleashing the thoughts and feelings held within.
Tears try to escape my eyes, and though i find it a relief to cry,
I take a deep breath and force the tears back where they came.
During school,
I wince at every touch, every flirtatious word.
For it only reminds me of you.
I dare not think of a future relationship,
For fear of disappointment and more heartache.
Am i the only one who's hurting?
I pour my feelings out to you on paper,
Try to lighten the weight on your shoulders.
I open up to you and get nothing in return.
No phone call, no letter explaining your thoughts or feelings.
My questions still lingering in the air unanswered.
You tell me you need time alone with God,
A month of no phone-calls or conversations.
I understood and accepted it,
But then you change your mind and didn't follow through.
To me, that defeated the purpose of the break-up.
My understanding suddenly turned into a fog of confusion,
And made me look at my own faults,
My own imperfections.
Though deep down i know its not true,
I can't help but blame myself for whats happened.
If only i did this or if only i did that...
Even in my letter i held back my true feelings.
Though i wanted you back,
I didn't want to tell you how hurt i really was,
Afraid of making you feel worse about your decision.
But in the midst of all this pain,
I still see a glimmer of light.
The light shines from the words written in red.
All the tales they tell,
All the lessons they teach,
All the wisdom they give.
Even with God by my side,
It will take time for my heart to mend.
But all things are possible through Jesus Christ our Lord.