Love, Love, Love...

I'm in love. You all should be too! I've never felt like this. Never...

Gods...This is so amazing. I've never felt this way before. My loverling asked me yesterday if I meant it. If I meant what I told her because last time I told her I loved her, I lied to her. I mean it. Oh, do I ever. I wish everyone could ba as happy as I am at this moment with her. Rebecca...I have said a lot of hurtful and spiteful things to you. Some of which I may never forgive myself for...but I can try and make it up to you. I love you more than you can even begin to guess at, Beckers...I've never loved anyone before (Honestly, Nikki and I was more that it couldn't be denied or turned into anything else.) You and I are just...Us. Completely different situation. Point of this being loverling...I would give anything to make it up to you..What I've done, what I've said, how I have acted. But I can't do that. If I could, I would. I will forgive you for your every wrong against me and everything you have unintentionally or even intentionally done to hurt me as long as you don't ever leave me again and as long as you love me, however unworthy I am of that love. I love you too much to let you go this time, I almost let you walk away. I can't believe I was so stupid. Attention world: I almost let the best thing that ever happened to me walk away. Thus, I need my head examined more closely. Some people may think I'm crazy, or that I'm lying. But if you felt like I do you'd understand. I would give up everything for you Rebecca. Absolutley everything...I'd give my life for you if I knew you would be safe.

I've never wanted to chase after someone like I did you. I've never -cared- that they were walking out of my life never to return again. I never cared until you...I knew that I had to get you back, no matter what I stood to lose from it. There's a lot of I in this thing...But, love...For me, it's all about -you-. And that's even more funny...Because most people would tell you, it's all about me. But no, for the first time in my life when I was talking to you about Shaeda, I wanted someone to be truly happy -without- thinking about what I could get out of it. I wanted you to be happy because you deserved to be happy. You do deserve to be happy, and I hope I can make you happier than you have ever been before. I'm not setting my standards too high, Beckers...I just want to be the best thing that's ever happened to you. I want you to feel safe, protected, wanted, needed, loved, appreicated, cared for, secure...And to always remember that I love you and that I will help you in any way I can. I love you and I am damn proud to stand beside you and show you just how much you mean to me. As I have said before, there is not a single moment I have spent with you that I would take back. Every moment I have spent with you I would not trade for anything in the world. Not a single one.

I think I have rambled -quite- enough my darling. Everyone else, sorry for the mush. But it's true! So deal with it! It's my website, go make your own website! -coughs- Anyway...I love you Rebecca. And as you can probably realize, I may be ellqouent on the phone, but writing is really how I can express to you just how much I care. You are my world, my life. I love you Becca. Thank you for giving me the chance again to show you just how much.

**Update** I still love you more than you can ever imagine Rebecca. You are still, 6 months later...My one and only love. My soulmate and my reason for living. I can't imagine a day without you in my life. I love you Rebecca Wright, thank you for being there for me and listening to me. I love you so very much.