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Walking down the beaten path I
came across an old worn out
hatbox. Stepping to the side I
aimed to go around the tossed
out box. But instead I reached
down and picked up the hatbox,
and carried it home. Setting it
to the side wondering why I even
bothered to bring it home with
me. I went about my things to-do
and to start dinner. Glancing at
the clock I realized Master
would be here soon and I would
not be done if I didn’t hurry
some. Fixing him his favorite
dinner, smiling to myself, maybe
this will enhance him to talk a
bit more tonight then he had
been lately. Keeping to my
tasks, not noticing it had
started to rain. Finishing the
salad and setting aside so it
could warm a bit, Master hated
very cold food. Checking to make
sure everything was fine, I seen
I had time for a shower and
dress. Walking thru the hallway
I notice the hatbox I’d picked
up and brought home. I took it
with me upstairs to the main
bathroom, setting it on the
counter top. Going about running
bath water adding a good amount
of salts to the water. Slipping
out of my jeans, I look back
over at the box, picking up a
wash cloth wetting it, and going
over to sink. I started cleaning
the top of the box and seen it
was a very pretty blue colored
hatbox. So I kept cleaning the
outside and rewashing the entire
outside area. Seeing that the
handle was broken I thought I
can fix that and went down to
the basement to get the large
ball of lace I had for crafts.
Picking up some other items I
thought I could use to fix the
box with. Putting my supplies
into a basket, glue, scissors,
very tiny nails to fix the latch
with, a small hammer. And
wondering about the inside I
grab up some cream velvet
material I had. Running back up
to the kitchen seen dinner was
still fine, and headed back
upstairs. Seeing I’d left the
water running I hurried and shut
it off, just in time to. Sitting
back down on the floor and begin
to fix the old hat box. In only
a tee shirt, undies and a pair
of socks. Fixing cleaner water I
cleaned the outside again and
noticed was writing on the front
of the box. Taking an old
toothbrush, I started to remove
the grime and dirt from the
lettering, and removing the
latch and letting it soak in the
hot cleaning water. Getting into
redoing the old box I forgot
about time, the rain, dinner
everything. Seeing that some of
the letters where faded I ran
back down to the basement to
grab an artists pen of gold and
coming thru I turned off the
oven, and covered everything so
would still be hot when Master
arrived back home. Moving back
up to the bath room and began
replacing the missing letters
with my pen. Finishing I see the
words are Don’t Give Up on Me,
This struck me as so very odd
but it was like it was a message
to me and why I wasn’t sure.
Pushing the thought aside I went
to work on fixing the handle.
Moving the lace around and
twisting and braiding it, I was
able to make very nice new
handle for the now cleaned and
very elegant hatbox. Attaching
the now cleaned latches with new
tiny nails. Looking at the box I
was thrilled with how it came
out. And for the first time I
realized I’d never opened it up.
Like a child with a new toy I
pulled the box closer to me and
slowly lifted the lid, Like I
expect magic to appear from
inside. But looking inside was a
beautiful layer of gold velvet;
it was brand new; no dirt no
tears nothing at all to show
that the box wasn’t not a
discarded item. But on the
bottom of the box lay a white
envelope. Picking it and opening
and looking inside was a letter.
Wondering if maybe I should read
it or not. But being I I just
had to. Opening the letter I
began to read My dearest,
although you pass me by and
never notice something’s, I
realize I have let you down, in
someway. For, I haven’t seen
that sparkle in your eyes to
often. And that giddy step that
you have, and the way you dance
around the room when you think
no one sees you. I want you to
know that you are my very soul
my very breath. I’ve always been
a loner and the thought of you
being with me permanently, was
more then I wanted to think
about. Or have to face. I don’t
know if I can do that or not,
and to be honest I don’t know if
I want to try.” Standing up I
let the letter slip thru my
fingers, Tears coming down my
face now, this is the same
conversation Master and I had
not long ago. Not wanting to
read the rest of the words on
the letter. I went to take my
bath, stepping into the water I
glanced at the letter again.
Ignoring it I finish my bath.
Wrapping my hair in a towel. I
thought to myself, I can read it
now, placing a robe around me, I
sit back down on the floor and
begin to reread the letter, and
“I do know that each moment I am
with you, I find I want to be
with you more and share more
with you. There will be times I
will be angry because you are
there, and times I will not
answer to you of my where about.
And even times when I push you
away. Can you do that, could you
stand that in me? Would you want
to? And may be times I place you
behind a wall. Or decide I want
time to myself and be gone for a
few days not telling you and not
answering why or feel I should
have to. I’ve thought this out I
my mind and heart a million
times. And each day I await your
smile and soft kisses. You once
told me that you belonged to me
more then I probably would ever
know. I know now this is true.
For I cant and don’t want to
imagine me with out you lil-one.”
Looking at the words again lil-one
and crying so very much now. I
turn to see my Master watching
me. Coming to me he holds me in
his strong and loving arms, as I
weep. Shhhh my pet he says. I
have been watching you all
evening. I sat across in the
parking lot and watched with
waited breath if you would pick
up the old box and you did For,
I knew you would. I have been in
the house all night watching
everything you have done. Read
your thoughts for the first time
in days. Seen you work hard at
restoring this old hat box.”
Master? You wrote the letter?”
Nodding his fine head. I wanted
you to know what I have been
thinking lately and I know you
have thought of this as well.
For I have seen a loss in you I
know is from me. Weeping into my
hands, shaking my head yes.
Master when you told me you did
not want to be real time with me
those very words crushed my
heart. And each day I have went
on loving you and wanting you,
because I do love you so and you
are my world. I know lil-one, I
cannot promise forever, I can
only guarantee now. I remember
lil-one you told me one time;
you would know when you looked
into my eyes. I to have seen
what is in your eyes and I love
you. You are mine. Master took
my hand and led me down the
stairs to the outside and out
into the rain. He knows I
love the rain so very much,
Looking into my eyes and
whispering softly to me." Don’t
Give Up on Me "
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